THE-BOOK-OF-ROO

MARK 4:35-40

THAT DAY WHEN EVENING CAME, HE SAID TO HIS DISCIPLES, LET US GO OVER TO THE OTHER SIDE. LEAVING THE CROWD BEHIND, THEY TOOK HIM ALONG, JUST AS HE WAS, IN THE BOAT. THERE WERE ALSO OTHER BOATS WITH HIM. A FURIOUS SQUALL CAME UP, AND THE WAVES BROKE OVER THE BOAT, SO THAT IT WAS NEARLY SWAMPED. JESUS WAS IN THE STERN, SLEEPING ON A CUSHION. THE DISCIPLES WOKE HIM AND SAID TO HIM, TEACHER, DON’T YOU CARE IF WE DROWN? HE GOT UP, REBUKED THE WIND AND SAID TO THE WAVES, QUIET BE STILL!” THAN THE WIND DIED DOWN AND IT WAS COMPLETELY CALM. HE SAID TO HIS DISCIPLES. “WHY ARE YOU SO AFRAID? DO YOU STILL HAVE NO FAITH?

OK ALL I’M SORRY THIS IS COMING OUT SO LATE, BUT I WAS REALLY DEBATING, WITH GOD AND MYSELF, IF I SHOULD BE WRITING ABOUT THIS, SOMETHING HE SHOWED ME A FEW DAYS AGO. I REALLY DID NOT WANT TO WRITE ABOUT THIS SO SOON, BUT ONCE AGAIN, THE LORD’S TELLING ME TO WRITE, SO I WILL OBEY HIM AND WRITE LOL. IF YOU ALL HAVE BEEN READING MY BLOG, YOU WILL SEE A PAGE ON IT, TALKING ABOUT HOW SICK I BEEN THESE PAST TWO YEARS. THESE PAST TWO YEARS, LIKE I SAID BEFORE, HAS BEEN HARD, I HAVE BEEN SO SICK THAT I LITERALLY COULD NOT LEAVE MY HOUSE FOR TWO YEARS, AND THAT WAS REALLY STARTING TO GET TO ME, IT STARTED TO GET TO ME SO BAD, THAT I THINK PART OF ME STARTED GIVING UP ON MY FAITH, AND THE LORD, THAN LIKE I HAD SAID BEFORE, ONE DAY I FOUND MUSIC TO THIS CHRISTIAN/WORSHIP SINGER NAMED BECKAH SHAE, AND IT REALLY STARTED TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER, IT REALLY STARTED TO BRING JOY BACK IN MY LIFE, THAT JOY THAT I BEEN TALKING SO HIGHLY ABOUT, (THE JOY OF THE LORD) BACK IN TO MY HEART, MY LIFE AND MY HOUSE, SINCE I FOUND HER MUSIC, I REALLY STARTED TO ALLOW MYSELF TO CONNECT WITH GOD AGAIN, THE SECOND I STARTED TO ALLOW HIM TO TAKE CONTROL OVER MY LIFE AGAIN, MY LIFE INSTANTLY STARTED TO CHANGE, I HAD SO MANY AWESOME, MEMORABLE, WONDERFUL, LIFE CHANGING, THINGS HAPPEN TO ME. MY SISTER BECAME PREGNANT, WHICH MEANS I BECAME, OR AM BECOMING A AUNT, (FOR THE FIRST TIME) I MET TY PENNINGTON, I MET AND SPENT TIME WITH MY FAVORITE CHRISTIAN/WORSHIP SINGER BECKAH SHAE, SHE EVEN MADE A VIDEO OF ME ON YOUTUBE, I STARTED THIS BLOG, WHERE I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO REACH OUT, AND ALREADY TOUCH SO MANY LIVES, WITH MY LIFE STORIES. IT IS SO AWESOME TO SEE ALL THE MIRACLES THAT GODS DOING FOR ME. AS YOU ALL KNOW, I WAS SICK TWO WEEKS AGO, AND DID HAVE TO BE ADMITTED IN TO THE HOSPITAL, AND EVERYTHING THAT I HAD BEEN GOING THROUGH THE PAST TWO YEARS, WAS STARTING ALL OVER AGAIN!!. I WAS SITTING IN MY HOSPITAL ROOM THAT NIGHT, AND I WAS PRAYING, AND THOUGHT TO MYSELF, OK I HAVE TWO CHOICES, ONE IS I CAN LAY HERE, AND FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF, AND LOCK MYSELF BACK UP IN THE HOUSE, LIKE I HAD BEEN DOING THESE PAST TWO YEARS, OR I CAN TAKE WHAT I HAVE BEEN LEARNING, AND STAND ON GODS WORD AND HIS PROMISES, AND HAVE FAITH THAT EVENTUALLY THINGS WILL CHANGE, AND GOD WILL BRING ME THROUGH THIS, AND SO I MADE A PROMISE TO MYSELF THAT DAY, THAT NO MATTER HOW BAD IT GETS, I WOULD NOT ALLOW NEGATIVE THOUGHTS TO ENTER MY MIND, AND I TOLD MYSELF, I NEEDED TO START PRACTICING WHAT I PREACH, AND BELIEVE IN HIM AND HIS WORD, SO THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING, I JUST BEEN STANDING ON HIS WORD. OKAY HERE COMES THE MIRACLE PART OF THE STORY, MY MOM, OR ANYONE ELSE IN MY FAMILY, KNOWS OF THIS, THAT IS ONE OF THE REASONS, WHY I WAS SO HESITANT ON WRITING THIS, BUT I HAD TO OBEY WHAT I FELT THE LORD TELLING ME TO WRITE, SO THEY WILL FIND OUT WITH EVERYONE ELSE I GUESS LOL. IT WAS EITHER THE MORNING OF THANKSGIVING, OR THE DAY BEFORE, I WAS LAYING IN BED, LISTENING TO MUSIC, PRAYING, AND MEDITATING ON THE LORD, AND WAS THANKING HIM, FOR ALL THE GREAT THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN HAPPENING LATELY, AND ALL OF A SUDDEN, I FELT HIS PRESENCE MORE THAN I EVER HAVE BEFORE, AND I FELT THIS RELIEF COME OVER ME, AND I STARTED CRYING, BUT I DIDN’T REALLY KNOW WHY I WAS CRYING, OR WHY I FELT SO GOOD, THAN INSTANTLY I FELT HIM SAY, ITS OVER!! ITS OVER!! ITS OVER!! AND I KEPT HEARING THAT, OVER AND OVER AGAIN, AND IT TOOK ME A SECOND BEFORE I REALIZED WHAT HE MEANT, BY ITS OVER, I CONTINUED TO PRAY, AND I ASKED HIM, WHATS OVER? HE SHOWED ME THAT EVERYTHING I HAD BEEN GOING THROUGH THESE PAST TWO YEARS IS WHAT WAS OVER. THAT’S WHY I PUT MARK 4:35-40 ON THE TOP OF THIS PAGE, BECAUSE IT TALKS ABOUT, THE DISCIPLES AND JESUS, BEING IN A BOAT, AND A BIG SQUALL (WIND STORM) CAME OVER THEM, AND WHAT DID THEY DO? JESUS WAS SITTING THERE SLEEPING!!! SO THE DISCIPLES, PRETTY MUCH LOOKED AT HIM, AND SAID HELLO!! DON’T YOU CARE ABOUT US? THERE’S A HUGE STORM COMING HELP!!! AND WHAT DID JESUS DO? HE GOT UP, AND HE REBUKED IT, AND HE TOLD THE WAVES TO QUIET AND BE STILL, AND WHEN JESUS DID THAT, WHAT HAPPENED? EVERYTHING BECAME CALM!!, AND THAT WAS EXACTLY HOW I FELT, I FELT LIKE THESE PAST TWO YEARS, I HAD BEEN FIGHTING OFF THIS HUGE STORM, AND I FELT JUST LIKE THOSE DISCIPLES, ITS LIKE I KEPT LOOKING AT THE LORD, AND SAYING, HELLO LORD, THERE’S THIS HUGE STORM OVER MY HEAD, ARE YOU JUST GOING TO SIT THERE, AND DO NOTHING??? IN THE END JESUS DID REBUKE THE STORM FOR THE DISCIPLES THOUGH. ITS NOT ABOUT, OUR TIMING, ITS NOT ABOUT WHEN, WE THINK GOD SHOULD DO SOMETHING, ITS ABOUT WHEN HE THINKS HE SHOULD, I WAS WRONG FOR PUTTING DEMANDS ON HIM, IT WASN’T ABOUT WHEN I SEEN FIT FOR HIM TO HELP ME, IT WAS ABOUT HIS TIMING. THE MINUTE I STOPPED SITTING THERE SAYING, HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN? WHY ISN’T HE FIXING ME? WHY ISN’T HE SHOWING THE DOCTORS WHAT IT IS? THE MINUTE I STOPPED SAYING WHY THIS, WHY THAT? AND THE MINUTE I STOPPED PUTTING DEMANDS ON GOD, AND WHEN I JUST LEARNED TO BE SATISFIED WITH WHAT I HAD IN THAT MOMENT, AND TO BE GRATEFUL FOR THE FACT THAT I AM ALIVE, AND THANKFUL FOR THAT, AND THAT ALONE, THAT’S WHEN THE LORD TOUCHED ME, AND REBUKED MY STORM. I BELIEVE THAT DAY, WHEN THE LORD SAID, ITS OVER! ITS OVER! ITS OVER! HE SHOWED ME, FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF, AND ME FEELING SICK AS A DOG EVERY DAY, WAS WHAT WAS OVER, HE SHOWED ME, I WAS FREE FROM EVERYTHING I HAD BEEN DEALING WITH THE PAST TWO YEARS, HE SHOWED ME IT ALL WAS OVER!!!! HALLELUJAH!!!!!! JESUS IS SO SO SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW PLEASE DON’T GET ME WRONG, I’M NOT SAYING FROM THIS MOMENT ON, I’M NEVER GOING TO GET SICK AGAIN, NO THAT’S NOT WHAT I’M SAYING, I’M JUST SAYING, EVERYTHING I BEEN GOING THROUGH THESE PAST TWO YEARS, I BELIEVE IS OVER!!. SO IF THERE IS SOMEONE READING THIS BLOG, WHO IS STRUGGLING, OR MAYBE JUST GOT BAD NEWS FROM THEIR DOCTOR, PLEASE DON’T DO WHAT I DID ALL LAST YEAR, PLEASE DON’T GIVE UP ON GOD. IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING, PRAY, AND BELIEVE THAT GOD IS IN CONTROL. LET HIM GUIDE YOU, AND HOLD YOU. BASICALLY MATTHEW 6:33 SUMS UP EVERYTHING I’M TRYING TO SAY, MATTHEW 6:33 SAYS, BUT SEEK YE FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD, AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS; AND ALL THESE THINGS SHALL BE ADDED UNTO YOU. THAT’S ALL I GOT TO SAY FOR TODAY, I PRAY THAT THIS BLOG TOUCHES THE HEARTS OF ALL WHO READ, AND THAT EYES ARE OPENED. THE LORD LOVES YOU SO SO MUCH HE WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU, HE HAS DONE EVERYTHING FOR YOU, HE GAVE HIS LIFE, THAT’S HOW MUCH HE LOVES US. PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED SOMEONE PRAYING FOR YOU WRITE TO MY SITE, AND I WILL MAKE SURE ME, AND ALL WHO COME TO THIS SITE PRAY FOR YOU, AND REMEMBER YOU ARE LOVED. SEE YA TOMORROW, GOD BLESS. P.S PLEASE EXCUSE ANY TYPO’S THERE MAYBE I WAS TYPING THIS UP FAST, AND IM NOT A GREAT SPELLER, SO PLEASE EXCUSE THE MISTAKES, I APOLOGIZE

^{ROMANS 8:11}

^{AND IF THE SPIRIT OF HIM WHO RAISED JESUS FROM THE DEAD IS LIVING IN YOU, HE WHO RAISED CHRIST FROM THE DEAD WILL ALSO GIVE LIFE TO YOUR MORTAL BODIES THROUGH HIS SPIRIT, WHO LIVES IN YOU} 

HI ALL. OK WELL THE PAST 2 DAYS I HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT MIRACLES, NOT ONLY HAVE I BEEN TALKING ABOUT MIRACLES, BUT I ALSO HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT, A INFECTION/ABSCESS THAT I HAD OVER 10 YEARS AGO, AND I ALSO BEEN TALKING ABOUT THINGS I HAD EXPERIENCED IN THAT TIME. AS I SAID BEFORE I WAS VERY SICK, I HAD OVER 10 SURGERIES, AND WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR OVER 3 MONTHS. YESTERDAY I ALSO TOLD YOU ABOUT A WORD I GOT FROM THE LORD, AND ABOUT AN ANGEL,THAT I KNEW WAS IN THE ROOM RUBBING MY HEAD. THERE IS ONE MORE PART TO THE STORY I WOULD LIKE TO TALK ABOUT THOUGH. DURING THAT TIME, AFTER THE LORD GAVE ME THAT WORD, ABOUT NOT GIVING UP ON LIFE, THE DOCTORS KEPT DOING SURGERY, AFTER SURGERY TO TRY TO FIX MY SHUNT (SURGICAL DRAINAGE TUBE) AND EVERY SURGERY THEY DID, WAS A FAILURE!! FOR SOME REASON EVERY TIME THEY REPLACED THE SHUNT IT WOULD NOT WORK, AND I KEPT GETTING SO WEAK AND SICK. SEE THE REASON WHY I WAS GETTING THAT WAY, IS BECAUSE FLUID WAS CONTINUALLY BUILDING UP AROUND MY BRAIN, THAT’S WHY I HAVE THE SHUNT, BECAUSE ON TOP OF HAVING O.I (OSTEOGENISIS IMPERFECTA) I ALSO HAVE HYDROCEPHALUS, WHICH IS A DISEASE, WHERE FLUID BUILDS UP AROUND MY BRAIN, AND THE ONLY WAY TO TREAT THIS DISEASE, IS TO HAVE A SHUNT (SURGICAL DRAINAGE TUBE) PUT INSIDE MY HEAD. I’M NO DOCTOR, BUT I HAVE SEEN WHAT THESE SHUNTS LOOK LIKE, SO ILL TRY TO DESCRIBE WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE, THE BEST I COULD TO GIVE YOU ALL A BETTER IDEA OF WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT. THE ONLY WAY I CAN DESCRIBE IT IS LIKE THIS, IT ALMOST LOOKS LIKE THE TUBING THAT GOES ON A I.V, EXCEPT THAT THE TOP OF THAT TUBING HAS A SPECIAL, WEIRD KIND OF LOOKING PIECE, WELL THAT TOP PART IS INSERTED IN TO MY HEAD, AND IT SUCKS UP ALL THE FLUID THAT CONTINUALLY BUILDS UP AROUND MY BRAIN, AND THAN THE TUBING PART IS CARRIED ALL THE WAY DOWN THREW MY HEAD AND NECK, AND GOES ALL THE WAY DOWN IN TO MY STOMACH, THAN THAT FLUID THAT KEEPS BUILDING UP CAN BE DRAINED OUT IN TO MY STOMACH. ITS KIND OF HARD TO EXPLAIN ESPECIALLY FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME, BUT I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND, AND I HOPE NO DOCTOR EVER READS THIS, BECAUSE THEY WILL PROBABLY LAUGH AT HOW I EXPLAINED IT LOL, ANYWAYS SO THAT’S WHAT HYDROCEPHALUS, AND THE SHUNT IS. NOW BACK TO MY STORY, SO LIKE I SAID EVERY TIME THEY KEPT TRYING TO REPLACE THE SHUNT THE SURGERY FAILED, WHICH MEANS EVERY TIME THEY PUT A NEW SHUNT IN, IT WOULD NOT DRAIN THE FLUID IN TO MY STOMACH. THE DOCTORS WERE AT A LOSS ON WHAT TO DO. NOW HERE’S THE GOOD PART OF THE STORY, THE MIRACLE PART OF IT. I REMEMBER ONE DAY, ABOUT ALMOST A MONTH AFTER GOD HAD SPOKE LIFE IN TO ME, MY DOCTOR CAME IN THE ROOM, WITH A VERY DEFEATED LOOK ON HIS FACE, AND HE SAT DOWN NEXT TO MY MOTHER, AND HE LOOKED AT HER, AND HE SAID, WELL THERE IS ONE MORE SURGERY WE CAN TRY DOING, BUT ILL BE HONEST WITH YOU, I DON’T THINK SHES GOING TO MAKE IT, HE SAID, I’M NOT EVEN SURE SHES STRONG ENOUGH TO GO THROUGH ANOTHER SURGERY, AND BASICALLY HE TOLD US, HE WAS SCARED IF I TRIED FOR ANOTHER SURGERY, HE THOUGHT I WOULD DIE ON THE OPERATING TABLE, AND IN HIS OWN WAY WAS TELLING US THAT MAYBE WE SHOULD THINK ABOUT HAVING ME GO HOME, AND SPEND WHATEVER TIME I HAD LEFT WITH MY FAMILY. AT THIS POINT, I THINK THIS MAN WAS ALMOST SURE THAT I WAS GOING TO DIE, SO HE GAVE MY MOM THE OPTION, AND SAID ITS UP TO YOU, I CAN TRY THIS ONE SURGERY, OR SHE CAN GO HOME, AND SPEND HER FINAL DAYS THAT SHE HAS LEFT AT HOME, MY MOM THAN LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT HE IS TELLING US? I SAID YES, AND SHE SAID OK, WELL THIS IS YOUR LIFE, SO IT IS YOUR DECISION, AND I SAID, OK LETS DO THE SURGERY!! AND WHEN I SAID THAT, I THINK THEY WERE ALL SHOCKED, I THINK THEY WERE ALSO SHOCKED BECAUSE I WASN’T CRYING, OR SCARED. THE DOCTOR THAN LOOKED AT US, AND SAID YOUR SURE ABOUT THIS? AND HE BASICALLY SAID, OK ILL DO IT, BUT IF YOU MAKE IT OFF THAT TABLE, AND YET THE SHUNT STILL DOESN’T WORK, GAME OVER, THERE IS NOTHING ELSE I CAN DO, AND I REMEMBERED THE VERY LAST WORDS HE SAID TO ME BEFORE SURGERY, EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS I STILL REMEMBER THEM AS CLEAR AS DAY, HE SAID OK I’M GOING TO TRY ONE MORE TIME!!!! EVERY NURSE, EVERY DOCTOR, EVEN MY FAMILY, I THINK HAD, OR WAS LOOSING HOPE, BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE OF ME, I KNEW THAT WORD GOD GAVE ME, I KNEW GOD HAD SPOKE LIFE, AND NOT DEATH IN TO ME, I KNEW I WOULD MAKE IT THROUGH THAT OPERATION, AND I KNEW THAT ONCE I WOKE UP, I WOULD BE HEALTHY, THERE WAS NOT A DOUBT IN MY MIND, AND SURE ENOUGH, I WOKE UP AFTER THAT SURGERY FEELING BETTER THAN EVER, ONE HOUR AFTER THAT SURGERY, I WAS SITTING UP EATING A RICE KRISPY TREAT LOL, IT WAS LIKE INSTANTLY, ME, AND MY FAMILY, AND EVERYONE ELSE IN THAT HOSPITAL THAT HAD CARED FOR ME ALL THOSE MONTHS, KNEW I WAS GOING TO BE OK, AND THAT THE BATTLE WAS OVER!!!!!!!!! WHAT DID I SAY 2 DAYS AGO? WHAT DID I TELL YOU? GOD TOLD ME???? THAT THE BATTLE WASN’T OVER, BUT THAT I WOULD WIN THE WAR!!!!! SO LIKE I HAVE SAID ALL ALONG, ANY NEGATIVE THINGS THAT PEOPLE TRY TO SPEAK OVER YOUR LIFE, DON’T EXCEPT THEM. NOW PLEASE DO NT GET ME WRONG, I’M NOT TELLING YOU ALL TO LIVE IN DENIAL, OR TO IGNORE WHAT YOUR DOCTORS ARE TELLING YOU, I’M JUST SAYING TO HAVE FAITH, SPEAK POSITIVE WORDS IN TO YOUR LIFE, AND IN TO THE LIVES OF OTHERS, SPEAK LIFE PEOPLE SPEAK LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE IS A SCRIPTURE IN THE BIBLE ITS PSALMS 23:4 DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT IT SAYS? IT SAYS, THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH, I WILL FEAR NO EVIL; FOR YOU ARE WITH ME; YOUR ROD AND YOUR STAFF, THEY COMFORT ME. SO THAT IS WHAT ID LIKE TO SHARE TODAY, NO MATTER WHAT, EVEN IF YOUR WALKING THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH, GOD IS THERE COMFORTING YOU, HE IS THERE GUIDING YOU, HE IS THERE PROTECTING YOU, SO I DO NOT CARE WHAT CIRCUMSTANCES YOU MAYBE GOING THROUGH, LET IT BE PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL, OR FINANCIAL, GOD IS THERE, HE LOVES YOU SO SO MUCH. LET HIM TAKE YOU UNDER HIS WINGS, AND CARE FOR YOU, AND LOVE YOU, AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR EVERY NEED. ALL I KEEP HEARING FROM PEOPLE, IS HOW THEY WANT THIS, OR NEED THAT, WELL ITS FINE TO HAVE DESIRES IN LIFE, THAT’S FINE I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH THAT, BUT I WILL TELL YOU, YOU WILL NOT FIND WHAT YOUR LOOKING FOR IN THE WORLD, THIS WORLD HAS NOTHING TO OFFER YOU, THAT MY GOD CANT, YOU HAVE PROBABLY TRIED EVERY OTHER WAY TO GET WHAT YOU WANT RIGHT? SO WHY NOT TRY SOMETHING NEW? NEXT TIME YOU HAVE A TRUE DESIRE GET DOWN ON YOUR KNEES CRY OUT TO GOD, JUST LIKE I DID THAT DAY, HE IS THERE LISTENING, TRUST ME HE IS. YOU CAN SPEAK TO HIM JUST LIKE YOU WOULD YOUR BEST FRIEND, OR DAD, OR MOM OR EVEN YOUR SPOUSE. HE IS MY BEST FRIEND, HE IS MY FATHER, HE IS MY MAKER, MY REDEEMER, MY MASTER, MY FREEDOM, MY BEGINNING, AND END, MY LIGHT IN THE DARK, MY JOY, MY LOVE, MY LIFE,  HES IS MY EVERYTHING. THAT’S ALL I FELT TO SHARE TODAY, HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY, AND PLEASE IF YOU NEED PRAYER, DON’T FORGET TO STOP BY MY PRAYER PAGE, IT IS LOCATED ON, WHAT I THINK IS THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE PAGE. GOD BLESS, AND ILL SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW 🙂