TIME (Part 2)

Posted May 5, 2016 by JACKIE
Categories: CHRISTIAN VIDEO'S, Uncategorized

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JEREMIAH 29:13

YOU WILL SEEK ME AND FIND ME WHEN YOU SEEK ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART.

Hi all. We have a lot to go over so I apologize right off the bat for writing such a long blog LOL. So oh boy where do I begin??  LOL. Well first of all I’d like to apologize for not getting the second part of this blog out sooner. I know I had promised you in the last blog that the next One would be written within Two Weeks. Well that Two Weeks turned into a whole Month, almost Two Months LOL.

I do apologize for that, but sadly I have a good excuse, and the reason I say sadly is because. My excuse for getting this blog out so late is. I was recently rushed to the Hospital, and ended up being there for Six Days. I’ll try to make this story short, but for those who do not know what happened.

Two Weeks after I wrote my last blog article I ended up going to the Doctors because I started to develop some really bad headaches. This wasn’t the first time I’ve gone through this, actually I been going through this for about a Year now. My Shunt, which is the tube that sucks the large amount of fluid that continually builds up around my brain (the thing that treats the Hydrocephalus) basically It keeps getting clogged. Between everything being naturally overcrowded from the Osteogenesis Imperfecta, and then also the large amount of scar tissue and adhesions that I have building up in my belly. It all just became to much for my stomach to handle. What’s happening is, between the scar tissue and my body eing naturally overcrowded. It’s all interfering with my Shunt.

What my Shunts supposed to do is suck the fluid up and then release it in to my stomach. But the issue I’m having is once the shunt sucks the fluid up and goes to empty in to my stomach. Some of it is not reaching my stomach and is getting stuck at the tip of my Shunt, and that then is basically forming its own little water balloon sort of speak. This all is causing me to get sick and have extreme headaches. We thought we figured out a solution that was easier then replacing the Shunt, because replacing the Shunt is major surgery.

The solution was to go in every few Months and have a Doctor perform a procedure. Where they would insert a needle into my belly. Where they then would suck up the bubble of fluid (abscess) that keeps forming. This most recent procedure ended up not going as planned though. This was now my Third time going through this same procedure. So I thought I had it in the bag. I even told my Mom that Morning, that this procedure was as easy as getting my Teeth cleaned. Boy was I wrong, and I should have known better then to say that. 

When the Doctor was in the midst of doing the procedure I felt this burning sensation that I had never felt before.  but as fast as I felt it, it was gone. So I did not think much of it, and went on with my Day. When I went home and as my Day went on. I did start to also question how sore I felt. But again I did not think much of it and ignored everything. Then about 7:00 that Night I started to feel this major, I mean major rush of sharp pains continually go through my stomach.

At that point I didn’t know what to do. Deep down I knew something bad was happening but yet I kept telling myself I was over thinking things, and that I needed to stop acting like a baby and realize I was fine, I was indeed not fine though. Even though I was not nauseated in that moment and had more pain then anything else. I still felt we were headed down a dangerous road, and knew deep down that I needed a Doctor. I was trying to ignore it because I did not want to go to the ER at 10:00pm at Night, I hate going to the ER, especially at Night.

So I decided to suck it up and try waiting till Morning before fully freaking out. But I knew deep down something was happening. So that Night I asked my Mom if we could sleep in the Livingroom. Which I think confused her because even though I was in pain, I wasn’t nauseated. 

The only time I ever want my Mom to sleep next to me is when I’m nauseated. So the fact I wanted her to sleep next to me was hard to understand, and honestly I didn’t even understand why I wanted that. But I knew I did, and knew the Lord was guiding me to do that.

Thank GOD I listened because at 3:00AM I immediately opened my eyes and just started puking my guts up. I don’t mean to get graphic on you all. But that honestly was the worst I’ve felt in Years! I never threw up the way I did that Night. Every time I think about it now all I can do is just say THANK YOU JESUS. Because I have no doubt in my mind the Lord saved me that Night. I was throwing up so much, so fast that I would of never had time to call my Mom if I had slept alone. I have no doubt that if my Mom wasn’t there I would have choked to death. Because of the fact that I cannot hold my head up on my own.

This isn’t fully confirmed yet, but by the looks of my tests. The Doctors think that the Doctor who performed my procedure may have accidentally nicked my bowel or intestines. Thankfully I did not need Surgery and it healed on its own. Although the bad news is that I needed what’s called a NG tube put down me.

NG tubes are GOD awful. It was the first One I ever had and I promise you it will be my last LOL. Basically what a NG tube is, is this big tube that goes down your nose past your throat and all the way to the stomach, it feeds you and cleans you out. It was definitely the most intense thing I’ve ever had done to me while being fully conscious.

I got through it all though and after being in the Hospital for Six Days I was sent home. My only struggle now is. The NG tube kind of irritated my lungs. So if you all could pray that my lungs start to recover id appreciate it.

Ok now that I told you my horror story for the Week, let’s get down to business. What was the question I left you all with in the last blog? Anyone remember???  My question was. If JESUS paid the price for all our sins and If he set us free. Why don’t we always feel like were living in freedom?  That’s a Biggy I know and there are so many explanations for why we feel like that at times.  But I was listening to a really good teaching by a Pastor, a lot of you may know of him. The guy’s name is Louie Giglio.

He was giving a teaching called, it’s never to late for a comeback. He pointed out that 99.9% of the bible is about stories and people making a comeback. There are so many stories in the bible that represent heartache, confusion, anger, hopelessness, carelessness, and pain. Most of the stories are about people who struggle between their flesh and what they want for themselves, and what the LORD wants for them. This Pastor pointed out how it’s always us who are fighting the will of GOD.

You know a lot of times I tell people. It’s sad because we start looking at the Lord like he’s this genie in a bottle. Like all he’s good for is to grant our wishes, or excuse me I mean “prayers” LOL. a lot of people also lose sight in what being a Christian means, and even the whole sinners prayer thing.

The One thing non believers will ask is. What’s the point of living a biblical lifestyle if all we have to do is say the sinners prayer to be saved. Why can’t we do what we want and then just say the sinners prayer daily to protect or “save” ourselves?  Good question and truthfully I kind of agree. Why do we need to live a biblical lifestyle if all we have to do is pray, and things will magically fix themselves.

I’d love if that were true, but here’s the thing people forget or lose sight of. We’re not just focusing on the destiny we can achieve in Heaven. We also need to focus on the destiny and the kingdom we can achieve here on Earth. And our “sinful behavior” does not just effect our destiny in Heaven but it effects our destiny that we can have here on Earth.

I hear so many Christians say: I can’t wait for the Day the Lord calls me home so I can finally have my castle or my dreams, and wishes granted. I am sorry, but I think that’s just so sad to hear Christians say. Because we should not be looking forward to the rapture or death to achieve our dreams. Yes I can’t wait till the Day the Lord calls me home, but it’s not because of the rewards I think I’m going to get in Heaven. I can’t wait till he calls me home so that I can finally spend my Days praising/worshiping him, and also see my loved ones who have gone before me.

Every choice we make affects our future. The bible says in (Jeremiah 17:10) “I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward each person according to their conduct, according to what their deeds deserve.” I hear so many people crying and questioning why this or that isn’t happening for them. Why do I feel stuck? Why isn’t the Lord using me? Why can’t I achieve the kingdom that every Christian brags about? Those are all good questions and we all have a right to ask them.

But we all have to remember it goes back to that word the Lord gave me about TIME. What we choose to focus our TIME on can greatly affect our destiny. We always think the only thing that can affect our destiny is if we’re “saved” but it’s about so much more then that. Being a Christian is about more then just praying the sinners prayer. It is about the condition of ones heart.

That Pastor that I meantioned earlier started talking about a guy named Samson. It’s a story from the book of judges. It talks about how a Woman (Samsons Mom) desired to have a baby so badly, and she had prayed and believed for One for years. Till finally One Day an Angel of the Lord came to her and told her. Her prayers would be answered, and she would soon have a baby Boy. That baby Boy was obviously Samson, and the bible says Gods hands were on Samsons life from the Day his Mom became pregnant with him. God had a huge destiny in store for Samson. Samson was like no other man, God blessed him with a supernatural strength. It says at One point that this man killed 30 men all on his own. He did so many other incredible things, it is kind of unbelievable all the things this man was capable of.

But even though he was blessed with this supernatural power, and even though he had a great relationship with God. It still was not perfect. There was One downfall Samson had. He had a little bit of a wondering eye, and even though he was blessed by God, his desires for woman and sex were stronger then his desire for God.

One Day Samson met this beautiful woman who kind of in a way hypnotized him. His desires for her distracted him from the will of God. Even though there were signs everywhere proving that Samsons new wife was up to no good. Samson did not see it.

Delilah was Samsons wife’s name, and she was all about Money. And at that time there was a army that was after Samson. Because they were dying to figure out how Samson was so strong, and once they figured out Samsons weakness was woman they sent Delilah in Samsons path.

Samson fell for their trap and after a short time Delilah finally got him to admit what made him so strong. For those who don’t know the story. His strength had to do with his hair. His entire life he had never cut his hair because God told him that’s what made him strong. Of course once Delilah and the army of men that were after Samson figured all this out. Delilah snuck in his bedroom while he was asleep and cut all his hair off!…

Of course when the army stormed in Samson tried to fight them off but sadly he was defeated. His supernatural power was gone! He was no longer in the will of God. And anyone who looses their path and isn’t in Gods will knows life can get scary and doors open for bad things to happen. Bad things happened to Samson, they locked him up, beat him and even gouged his eyes out, and he lived the rest of his Days in the dark. But during his storm, peace and mercy appeared. Even though Samson put his earthly desires before God, God still forgave him. Not only did he forgive him but he also gave him his power/strength back! Samson had such an amazing gift and because of that gift he had such an amazing future ahead of him, but because Samson took for granted his powers. His life and his TIME on earth were cut short. God may have forgiven Samson but because of the choices he made, those choices affected the future and destiny that God originally had planned for him.

Whenever life don’t go our way our first excuse is that the devil is attacking us. But wait if Jesus is our Father, and if he paid the price, and if we our bought by the blood of Jesus. Then how is it possible for the Devil to even touch us? It’s possible because of the choices we make. Yes the Devil is real and his job is to kill and destroy, but were supposed to be free and untouchable, and were supposed to have authority over all Evil. So if were untouchable how can the Devil touch us?  He can because our choices affect our future and when we focus on us and not him (Jesus) that’s like opening a door and telling the Devil welcome to my home come right in LOL.

We have to be smarter, we have to stop worrying about our needs and our desires. Our desires are the main thing that get us all in trouble. We always assume we know what we need more then God. We have to have faith that the Lord knows what we truly need long before we know what we need.

(Psalms 5:10-12) Declare them guilty, O God! Let their intrigues be their downfall. Banish them for their many sins, for they have rebelled against you. But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you. Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

TIME is short, we are only here for a moment, if you blink you will miss your chance. Don’t worry about your desires because I promise you the future the Lord has in store for you is much greater then anything you can imagine.

When he died it was for us, for our sins, our pain, our heartache, he died for all that and more. Every battle you go through remember he paid the price for that. So don’t worry about it, you have already won because in him we have victory.

People ask me all the time how I can truly be happy living the life I’m living. They ask me all the time how I can be in as much pain as I’m in and live my life in hospitals and always sick but yet be as happy and joyful as I am? How can I not be angry and depressed? How can I not feel like the Lord failed me? They say there’s so many things I can’t experience because of the diseases I battle. But here’s the thing, I don’t look at anything that way. I don’t feel like there’s anything I’m missing out on, any dream I have. Sick or not, if I truly believe Jesus is my Father,which I do, and if I truly believe he won the battle, which I know he did, then how could I feel like he failed me?

When I was born I was told I would not live past ten days! I was told I may never speak or read. Death was spoken over me in more ways then just a physical death. My parents were told I’d basically be nothing. But they didn’t focus on the Doctors prognosis. They focused on the word of God and believed that in him we’d have victory.

(Matthew 6:25-34) “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

This scripture is basically saying don’t dwell on the useless, petty  invaluable things. Because God is greater then anything this world has to offer. If we truly start focusing our TIME on him, and truly start believing that we truly do have victory in him, then anything can be possible. Don’t ever say any things impossible or that you can’t do something because that’s a lie. You can do all things through Christ.

So truly believe that. So many people know that scripture verse but do they truly believe it? Do we truly believe that through him we can do anything? I said anything!! Anything is possible so start believing that and start truly trusting in the destiny he has for you and remember when feelings of doubt or hopelessness start to take over. Remember he paid the price for that exact moment that your in.

Whatever your battling today. Remember to surrender to his will because he has you right where he wants you. It’s funny because when I was doing research for this article I came across this YouTube video, and the name of the video was. If God brought you to it he will bring you through it. The Minute I seen that headline I knew it was God speaking to me. It was like my own personal little note from the Lord confirming that this was what I was supposed to be writing on this week LOL.

Even if your going through the worse pain of your life, remember your in that place for One of Two reasons. One because the choices you made in your life brought you to that place, or Two because God himself put you in that place. So he can build you up to be the strong men/woman of God he knows you can be. When he looks at us he sees our soul, he sees the real us. So don’t try fighting him because he knows parts of us that we don’t even know exsisted.

There is a song that I heard by Hillary Scott. She’s actually One of the singers from Lady Antebellum, and she has this song (it’s listed in the top of this article) She literally just released this when I was writing this article, and the song is called Thy Will. It is a beautiful song and it blessed me so much, and I just knew I had to share it with you all. So please watch the video above. More importantly focus on the words to this song because there beautiful.

Ok that’s all I have for today now it’s on to the announcements, then I promise I am done LOL again so sorry for writing another long blog. Ok the first announcement is I’m pretty much done writing my book. So now it’s on to the raising money stage. As I said from the start of this journey, to publish this book and get it to where I want it. Will cost me over $10,000, and me not being able to fully work and being on a fixed income. Obviously $10,000 will not be easy to afford. But with God and with an amazing loving group of people like you, I know we can make this possible.

I know if I truly trust in him and allow him to take the wheel it can and will happen.  But there’s a few things I have do in order to achieve my goal. One of the things I feel the Lords guided me to is the Patreon website. I had told you all in the past that I may do a Kickstarter /indiegogo campaign. But once I set it up and was looking at it. I truly felt like it just wasn’t supposed to be part of Gods plan.

So I just sat on it for awhile and kept praying, then One Day I was directed to the Patreon website. Basically it’s a website for anyone who has a creative, artistic way about themselves. You direct people to your page and they sign up and commit to giving you a certain amount of money each month to help you achieve your goal. I’m looking at it as  you all signing up to a partnership.

Anyone who signs up will get a bunch of rewards. There’s different levels of the partnership. Like the person who gives $20 a month will get more then the person who gives $10. I have already thought of some really great things for you all to receive if you join my patreon page.

All who join are basically going to be my “board” sort of speak LOL. You all are going to help me finish creating this book. For anyone who joins. You not only will get a sneak peak of the book, but you also are going to help me finish writing it.

For anyone who joins. I want you to give me your opinion on things you want to see in the book and also give ideas on what you want me to write here on the-book-of-roo blog. You all will get to help me pick the cover for my book, and you will get to give your opinions on how I should publish it.

Also as a thank you the first two people who commit to giving the largest amount will get a painting from me, not just any painting, a painting that I myself created. You all will also get little gift cards and other surprise gifts here and there and also for all my patreons. I will do a vlog once a Month, just for my patreons though. Anyone who knows me, knows making a vlog will be One of the hardest things I’ve ever done, because I have a huge fear of cameras LOL. But I’m willing to get beyond my fears for you all, because your support means the world to me. And I truly feel if I could get even Ten people to commit to giving a donation each Month, then we can easily make this happen. The link to my Patreon page will be listed below. It’s very easy to join just follow the step by step instructions.

My second announcement is. The-book-of-roo finally got its own PO BOX. Which means anyone who wants to contact me or mail me anything (like a donation) LOL, you now can! I know a lot of my followers do not have or know how to work PayPal and were upset that it was my only way to receive donations. And I know a lot of you guys wanted to give but didn’t know how to reach me, well now you have no excuse LOL. I have a PO BOX now, so all you have to do is send me whatever you want to that address, and I promise I will receive it. Please remember though if you send a check, write it out to cash or Jacqueline Yafanaro. Do not write it out to the-book-of-roo. The PO BOX address is listed below.

My Third announcement is that I am also selling a small amount of Jewelry. A very sweet Lady sent me a very generous donation. It’s a large package of very nice, expensive Jewelry called Premiere Designs. This lady worked for Premiere Designs and used to sell for them and recently stopped and was left with Two brief cases filled with this Jewelry. So she decided to give it to me to sell for my website and book. So how I’m going to do this is list One item a Week. I will auction off One item a Week on Facebook, and also for those who do not have Facebook, don’t worry I’ll also post it on my Roo’s Treasures page here on the-book-of-roo (it’s located on the right hand side of this website). You all then can look at the products and see if there’s anything you want to bid on. You can pay using PayPal or send a check to my PO BOX.

My last announcement is. Tomorrow is WISHBONE DAY!!! (O.I AWARENESSS/OSTEOGENESIS IMPERFECTA AWARENESS DAY) I am selling O.I CAN DO ALL THINGS wristbands for $5.00 50% of the proceeds go to the O.I foundation.. You can purchase these wristbands in one of two places. You can go to my THE-BOOK-OF-ROO Facebook page and click on the shop button where then you will see them. Or you can go to ROO’S TREASURES page and that’s located on the right hand side of this website. It is listed right under the main pages tab and right above MY LIFE AND WHO I AM tab.

I also want to say HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to all the Moms out there and especially to my Mommy. You are amazing, you have given your all to me and I am so thankful for you. I love you ❤️

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THATS IT FOR TODAY. THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST. BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ALSO ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY. JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 😇 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY. SO IF YOUR FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO JUST CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM, THATS IT. PLEASE KNOW I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN. GOD BLESS. I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU. KEEP ON SHINING ❤️

 

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TIME!!!!

Posted March 21, 2016 by JACKIE
Categories: CHRISTIAN VIDEO'S, Uncategorized

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REVELATION 3:11 

I AM COMING SOON. HOLD FAST WHAT YOU HAVE, SO THAT NO ONE MAY SEIZE YOUR CROWN.

 

Hi all. I hope everyone’s had a good few Months and I’m sorry I haven’t touched base, but like I said from Day One. I never want to write things just to fill space. I always want to make sure I’m writing things that I know are coming from my heart and more importantly the LORDS heart.

Over the past few Months he honestly has been laying things on my heart to write about but I just never felt it was for me to do right in that moment. The best way for me to describe it is.  I felt like over the past few Months he was gradually painting this picture, and at first it may have looked weird and distorted but little by little, piece by  piece it all started to come together and formed itself in to this beautiful masterpiece.

So the question your all probably wanting answered is, what did he show me right? LOL.  What he showed me was the word TIME!!! As I wrote in my previous blog at Thanksgiving.  I not only was going through a lot of scary medical and personal battles myself.  But I also mentioned how I had a lot of friends who were going through some scary stuff themselves, and to be totally honest.  I am sorry to report that not only did One of those people I had mentioned back in November lose their life.

But I also had another friend. Who like me battled Osteogenesis Imperfecta and she lost her life too. Then there was also a 16 Year old Girl who lost her life to Osteogenesis Imperfecta just this past Week.  To be totally honest though the LORD started showing me stuff on TIME long before my friends had passed. Their passing only accelerated what the LORD had already started showing me.

Really this whole idea of TIME started entering my mind when I was writing my book.  Sitting there and not only thinking about all the battles I’ve overcome. But then also thinking about how I was coming up on my 30th Birthday. And how at One time thinking of me being 30 was nearly impossible to imagine.

And during all that, and during a time where I was already thinking I’m blessed.  And thankful for the TIME I’ve had, in the midst of me thinking all that. These people that I mentioned had passed away and then the real smack in the face came. The thing that made me realize more then anything how not only meaningful TIME is, but also how fast it passes us by.

The thing that made me realize more about TIME then anything. Was a phone call my Mom received.  It was my Brother on the line and he was all upset and he explained that his Wife’s Brother had just passed away.  He was not much older then I am and no he was not sick.

I will be honest, I did not know him that well, but his passing made me realize the meaning of TIME more then anything else I had previously mentioned.  Which I know is crazy.  You think someone like me, who is already categorized as “terminally ill” and who has overcome death more times then I care to think of.  Would have already realized the importance of TIME more then anyone in this world right?

Well in a way of life course I did always know.  But I feel this gave me the smack in the head I needed.  Sitting at all these Funerals watching these people bury their loved ones was extremely hard.  I know what it is like to lose someone you love. I have lost my Uncle who was only in his early 50s and I not only lost my Grandparents but I also sat with them during their final Hours, especially my Grandnother. I basically watched her die. Which was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, and again that’s saying a lot for me because I’ve been through a lot LOL.

But thankfully I have never had to feel what it is like to lose a Sibling or a Son or Daughter, or Spouse. Please don’t get me wrong and don’t take what I’m about to say next out of contex, and before I even say it. Please know I’m not trying to belittle anyone’s pain of loss.

But in my opinion losing a Spouse, Child or Sibling is probably the worse kind of pain a person can go through. And sitting there at Two different Funerals.  Where at One I’m watching a Man bury his Wife after an extremely long, hard but also very sweet battle. And then just Weeks later having to go through that all over again. But this time watch a Mother grieving for her Son. Looking around the room and seeing all these young men grieving their just as young friend, I can honestly tell you all. There is nothing in this world that could prepare you for that.

And then also sitting there and looking at all these same people and realizing that their all the people who have been holding me up in prayer for Years and realizing that their prayers took part in keeping me alive. There’s just no words to even describe what that’s like. I mean even the lady that I mentioned who passed. She had known me since I was not even 10 Years old and She had prayed for me daily. And now I’m sitting in a room watching all her loved ones say goodbye. And then thinking about all the Years my Brother feared loosing me and yet now he’s sitting there burying his Brother in law, again there are just no words to describe that.

I have always been prepared for the TIME the LORD comes to take me home. I do not look at that as a negative or scary thing. We all have a TIME limit, we all have a TIME that the LORDS going to come for us.  Please don’t take what I’m saying the wrong way. Don’t think I’m sitting here waiting to die or even thinking about death. Because I’m not, that’s the farthest thing from my mind. I focus on life not death. But what I’m saying is we do have an expiration date and I think we choose to ignore that at times. And please know I’m not saying that to scare anyone or depress anyone.

But during all these trials the one thing that kept running through my mind was TIME…

We forget the importance of TIME and most importantly we forget the importance of LIFE. There is no better TIME to remind you all of the importance of TIME and the importance that each one of our lives play in this world.

We are not put on this earth just to be here or just to enjoy the things that it has to offer. Each and every one of us are here for a reason, for a purpose. We are not put on this earth just to have “fun” we are put here to make a difference.  To be a light in the dark.

Some people take certain things I say the wrong way and think at times that I’m harsh or judge mental or a “kill joy”. I’m not any of those things, but when your someone like me who has fought with everything they have just to breathe. You not only realize the importance of TIME. but also I think the LORD gifts people like me with the eyes to see others more clearly and when I see the potential that certain people have and the gifts they have to make a difference, but yet are wasting that gift.  It kills me and I just want to take those people and shake them to their core and tell them WAKE UP TIME IS RUNNING OUT.

Romans 13:11-14 says: And do this, understanding the present TIME: The Hour has already come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed. The Night is nearly over; the Day is almost here. So let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light. Let us behave decently, as in the Daytime, not in carousing and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and debauchery, not in dissension and jealousy. Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.

Ignore what the flesh is saying. Let’s all stop letting our desires take over. Let JESUS take over our heart. You think he wanted to be nailed to a Cross and tortured for Days?? Of course he didn’t, but he didn’t think about what he wanted. He knew his life had a purpose. He knew if he trusted in GODS plan and his destiny then he’d be taken care of. He had FAITH, FAITH in GOD and in the destiny that GOD told him was possible.

Were in a generation where everyone is so selfish.  It’s all about me and my needs. It’s   TIME for us to stop worrying about us and worry about LIFE, the true meaning of LIFE and the purpose for us all being here. Again we all have a destiny and a purpose. We all can make an imprint on this world if we just stop worrying about ME.

JESUS made the most of his 33 Years on this earth. It may have not been long, but he made the most of every Second he had. Because he knew the importance of trusting in GOD and also the importance in “TIME” he ignored his flesh and because of that, because of the sacrifice he made. We are able to live in freedom!

By the way I know the video above may look familiar to you all. You may remember I shared it in a blog a few Years back. As you all know I usually do not repost something on my site that I have posted in the past. But this video fit so perfectly with what I shared Today and truthfully I think we need to hear this video again. We need the reminder of how important life is and what we choose to focus our TIME on. And this video represents all that beautifully and the Minute I seen it I knew the LORD was saying to repost it. So please after or before you read this blog watch that video 😜

Why do I feel like I’m not living in freedom at times?? Good question and it’s one I’ll touch on in my next blog. There is so much the LORDS showing me on TIME and things of that nature and I can’t possibly write about it all in one blog. So what I plan on doing is making this into, let’s say a little mini series sort of speak hehehe😜  The next few Weeks I’ll keep writing on this kind of stuff so keep checking back. I do have a few announcements to share but since I wrote so much in Today’s blog and since I’ll be writing again in just a few short Days.  I figure it’s ok to wait and share my announcements in the next blog. So again keep checking back because I promise you will not want to miss these announcements….

THATS IT FOR TODAY. THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST. BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ALSO ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY.  JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 😇 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY. SO IF YOUR FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO JUST CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM, THATS IT. PLEASE KNOW I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN. GOD BLESS. I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU. KEEP ON SHINING ❤️

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A THANKFUL HEART

Posted November 27, 2015 by JACKIE
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2 CORINTHIANS 4:15-18

ALL THIS IS FOR YOUR BENEFIT, SO THAT THE GRACE THAT IS REACHING MORE AND MORE PEOPLE MAY CAUSE THANKSGIVING TO OVERFLOW TO THE GLORY OF GOD. THEREFORE WE DO NOT LOSE HEART. THOUGH OUTWARDLY WE ARE WASTING AWAY, YET INWARDLY WE ARE BEING RENEWED DAY BY DAY. FOR OUR LIGHT AND MOMENTARY TROUBLES ARE ACHIEVING FOR US AN ETERNAL GLORY THAT FAR OUTWEIGHS THEM ALL. SO WE FIX OUR EYES NOT ON WHAT IS SEEN, BUT ON WHAT IS UNSEEN. FOR WHAT IS SEEN IS TEMPORARY, BUT WHAT IS UNSEEN IS ETERNAL.

Hi all. I know I just wrote a blog not to long ago but I felt the Lord placing some things on my heart that I knew he was leading me to share with you all, and I thought there was no better time to write this than right now during Thanksgiving weekend.  I promise you all since I’m writing another blog so soon after the last one I will make sure this is short.

During Thanksgiving what is the one thing you hear constantly from people? You hear them talking about what their most thankful for right? if you go on any Twitter, Facebook, Insragram or any other social media page that is out there you will see their loaded with Thankfulness. Which don’t get me wrong it is awesome and I truly do love seeing that.

But my question is, why don’t we see that every day? Why do we need a holiday to express our thanks? Over the past two to three years I have not only gone through a lot in my own life but I have also watched many of my loved ones (family/friends) going through some of the worse and hardest battles you can ever imagine and many of these people have even lost their battles and even lives. I had over ten people with O.I alone who I called my friend whose lives were taken way to soon, and right now at this very moment. I know of another four people who are in the hospital as we speak fighting for their own lives. All that is not counting my own personal battles.

I know you all have to be sick of hearing me talk about this but Im going to again. I live my life never knowing where I am going to be or where life is going to take me. Am I going to wake up my normal happy Jackie self? or am I going to wake up sick? or worse am I not going to wake up at all? or am I going to wake up and learn I have new health issues that maybe I have never dealt with? or will I wake up to find another one of my friends lost their battle to O.I (Osteogenesis Imperfecta) or any disease. Don’t get me wrong I know this is stuff everyone in this world lives with, but for someone like me who is categorized as being terminally ill these kinds of issues, and struggles are multiplied, by like a million.

But my point to saying all that isn’t to get you to feel sorry for me or others in my shoes. My point to saying that is, I do not need a holiday to be reminded of the gifts that the Lord has given me. I am reminded 24/7 how precious life is, and how important it is, and how easily it could be taken away. Revelation 16:15 says: I come as a thief. Blessed is he that watcheth, and keepeth his garments, lest he walk naked, and they see his shame.

I am not here to judge or make anyone feel bad were all going to screw up, or “sin” were human. I am not here to point out all your wrongs, but the bible does say: Luke 21:34 Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with carousing, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you suddenly like a trap.  I may not be here to point out your wrongs, but I am here to remind you how short life can be. And to remind you that we are not put on this earth just to do what makes us “feel good”, we are put on this earth to be the best person we can be. We are not here to prove were perfect we are here to make an impact (imprint) on this world. We are here to be the light in the dark. 

You may think you have all the time in the world to do what you want in life but trust me you don’t. 1 Thessalonians 5:2 says: for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. So lets truly be thankful for life and show our appreciation for life. Not just by our words, but by our actions BECAUSE LIFE TRULY IS A PRECIOUS GIFT FROM OUR LORD. THATS IT FOR TODAY, THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST, BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ALSO ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY, JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY🙂 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY SO IF YOUR FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO JUST CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM, THATS IT.  PLEASE KNOW, I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN. GOD BLESS, I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU❤
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IF GOD BEFORE US WHO CAN BE AGAINST US 

Posted October 22, 2015 by JACKIE
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Genesis 9:13-17

THE RAINBOW THAT I HAVE PUT IN THE SKY WILL BE MY SIGN TO YOU AND TO EVERY LIVING CREATURE ON EARTH. IT WILL REMIND YOU THAT I WILL KEEP THIS PROMISE FOREVER. WHEN I SEND CLOUDS OVER THE EARTH, AND A RAINBOW APPEARS IN THE SKY, I WILL REMEMBER MY PROMISE TO YOU AND TO ALL OTHER LIVING CREATURES. NEVER AGAIN WILL I LET FLOODWATERS DESTROY ALL LIFE. WHEN I SEE THE RAINBOW IN THE SKY, I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE PROMISE THAT I HAVE MADE TO EVERY LIVING CREATURE. THE RAINBOW WILL BE THE SIGN OF THAT SOLEMN PROMISE.

Hi all. I once again am sorry I haven’t been blogging much, but I have been writing like crazy. I know in my last blog I said I was done writing for my book and was officially in the editing stage, well it turns out I lied LOL. Not deliberately of course, but after I sat down and read all I had written down I felt something was missing and after some serious prayers and meditation time with the Lord I knew without a shadow of a doubt that what I was feeling was accurate and that there were still things I had to write about. I now feel it is complete and I am now back in the editing stage/publishing stage.

I have had a very eventful couple of months, for one I celebrated my 29th birthday yahoo that is just awesome to me and I am so thankful to the Lord for the gift of another year.  The reason I decided to write this blog is to share with you all a few of the struggles that I have had to deal with the past few months, and more importantly the miracles God has been doing in my life.

Back on September 27th I woke up to my brother running in our house saying a building (Factory) that is just inches from our house was on fire and when I say fire, I mean fire, this building was completely engulfed in flames. Here take a look for your selves

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The building obviously burnt down and the little bit that was left is being torn down, but as you can see this fire was extremely bad and if you watch the video it is a video my brother recorded from our yard during the chaos, and that white house that he has the camera aimed on is our house. Now I took the sound out of the video but if you watched the original recording you will hear my brother and parents panicking and we all were just sitting there watching this fire slowly try to come and take our house.

While I sat there watching this all take place, like I said everyone around me was panicking and at one point in the early stages of the fire my Mom told me I had to get out of the house because it was no longer safe and as she said that I kind of laughed at her and well she was not to happy that I was laughing (note to self, no laughing during a major fire) LOL. She said that I needed to stop taking this so lightly and realize we could lose our house!  She had every right to be upset and say what she said, she was scared and me laughing at the situation was not right, but I was not laughing because I thought it wasn’t serious, I was laughing because I had peace. No matter how close that fire kept getting I just was not worried I knew God already took care of it. After I got kicked out of my house I parked my chair a few houses down from the fire and just watched it and as I was watching it I felt this breeze come over me and immediately I knew the Lord was showing me to start praying, not only pray but start praying one specific thing. Pray that the Lord changes the direction of the wind. I knew if the wind kept blowing a certain way than it would give the firemen time to get it under control before it could touch our house. I also told the Lord after everything me and my family have been through I was demanding he take control over this. I told him there is no way in hell that I am allowing this, we have had to many struggles and this was one I was not standing for. Thankfully the Lord answered my prayer and he calmed the storm.

Matthew 8:23-27 says:  Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him.  Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping.  The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!” He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm. The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”

After everything had calmed down the firemen came and talked to my parents, and you want to know the one thing they said saved our house?? The direction of the wind baby! and if that isn’t good enough theres more. A few hours after the fire my Dad went outside just to check on things and as he turned his head to look across the street there was a rainbow that was directly facing our house!! Oh and by the way it had not rained one drop that day, nor was there even a cloud in the sky. If that isn’t enough proof how awesome God is and how his grace truly is everything we need than nothing will.

Isaiah 60:1 says: Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you.  The Lord still is in the working miracle business, you just have to have the faith to see it. 2 Corinthians 5:7 says: For we walk by faith, not by sight. And boy has that scripture been so true in my life lately. I truly have had to just shut my eyes and ears to the things around me and just let the Lord guide me and trust in the path that he is leading me down. 

Not only did I have the fire scare, but I also had a few medical scares, and after awhile I just started to feel like no matter how hard I tried things just kept pushing me down. On July 18th, I woke up planning on spending the day celebrating my brother in laws birthday, but life unfortunately had other plans for me LOL. The minute I woke up that day I knew something was extremely wrong. I woke up feeling like a truck ran me over and worse, I felt like after it ran my body over it than did a u-turn and just kept ramming its wheels directly and purposely over my head. After about an hour of feeling this way it than got worse, I than started to violently throw up and when the throwing up started I knew I was headed for trouble. So my Dad drove me and my Mom to the ER. And after running a few tests that included a CT Scan they seen my shunt was not fully working right, it was not in a full blown malfunction, but it was enough of an issue to where it was making me sick.

Remember a few years ago I battled the whole scar tissue and adhesions thing, and at the time that all was making me sick. And as you all know I had an exploratory surgery to fix that, but as you all also know after that surgery they told me the scar tissue would eventually grow back, and well I don’t know if its fully grown back, but I do know some has accumulated at the tip of my shunt tubing. Basically the way I understood it, is its almost like the scar tissue formed a little pouch or bowl at the tip of my shunt and so its all preventing my shunt from fully draining all the cerebrospinal fluid that builds up. Because of all my other medical complications they felt it was best to avoid surgery as much as I could, especially this type of surgery, because it is major, major surgery to replace a shunt and last time I had this type of surgery it did not go well, to be honest it almost killed me. So when they told me my shunt was in a partial malfunction and that sooner or later id need surgery that was a huge punch in the gut. Honestly a shunt replacement surgery is one of the worse surgeries I have ever experienced and that surgery is one of my biggest fears.

Thankfully at the time they were able to relieve some of the pressure in my head by inserting a small needle in to my stomach and than draining that pocket of fluid that had formed in the scar tissue, and that than gave the shunt some breathing room for the fluid to flow a little better. But they warned me from the start not to get excited and that this was not a solution, but that it was a way to buy us time to figure out what to do.

Because now the issue was that there is no room left in my belly to put a new shunt, because between my organs and the scar tissue, its just all taking over my belly. So the surgeon told me, basically that she needed time to figure out a plan. After that Doctors visit and everything I had been through over the month of July I felt very discouraged and to be truly honest I started to feel hopeless and I even started to ask the Lord if this was it?? Was my time coming to an end?? For weeks I kept thinking maybe this was it and God was coming for me and than the Lord reminded me of a spiritual vision I had last year. I had even mentioned my experience in an old blog. Remember how I told you all last year I was half asleep and half awake when all of a sudden I seen this really ugly demon looking thing and that it kept smirking at me while saying the word death over and over and the more it said the word death the closer it got to me till it was finally right in my face.

I told you all than, that I knew this thing was trying to intimidate me and put fear in me, and how I knew to stand up to this thing and instead of feeling fear, I felt strength and almost a warrior type of feeling inside me and I knew to come against this thing. Well the Lord recently reminded me of that occasion and showed me not to focus on the negativity surrounding me, but to just keep pushing forward.

Well after that I had another medical scare, and this one I knew without a shadow of a doubt that it was the enemy trying to push my buttons. A few weeks ago I felt this lump under my tongue, and I had no clue what it was but I ignored it because I thought I was imagining things at first. Than a few hours later I realize this isn’t just a lump, but swelling. At that point I thought I had truly lost my mind, I did not even know it was humanly possible for the bottom of your mouth under your tongue to get swollen LOL. After I faced that indeed it was swollen I looked at it in a mirror and noticed that not only was it swollen but it looked like there was a purple bubble looking thing, so at that point I got my parents involved and we all were puzzled as to what the heck this was, was it a mouth infection? What was this thing? Well to make a long story short it ended up getting so big that I went to the ER and they told me its a cyst. Its exact name is a Ranula Cyst and they told me its one of the rarest type of mouth cysts you can get. My primary Doctor who has been a Doctor for almost 20 years told me he has only seen two cases of this type of cyst and that I am the second!! Than another Doctor who specializes in this and who has been a Doctor just as long has only treated one patient with this kind of cyst! And than to make matters worse they tell me the only way to treat this thing is to surgically remove it, which again I was terrified to do because every Doctor I have ever talked to in the past has said oral surgeries are pretty impossible for me because anything they would ever try they know would immediately break my jaw.

So what the Heck God, what do I do now?? thats what went through my mind. After I left the ER I went and seen a ENT (Ear Nose Throat Doctor) and he told me before rushing in to a major surgery lets try a treatment called Sclerotherapy and so I agreed and I made the appointment to start those treatments, but as I was walking home from that Doctors appointment I just kept hearing the Lord say stand firm on what you believe and so after I arrived home I gave an offering to the church I belong to and I just started praying and asking, begging the Lord to please take this, just let this one time be a miracle. I did not care how impossible the Doctors said it was to get rid of this thing on my own, I knew I would prove them wrong and knew Jesus was already taking care of this for me.

Galatians 6:9 says: Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.  I just kept believing in faith that this thing would go, I knew it was just another nuisance and something else for the devil to torment me with. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed, till slowly it got smaller and smaller and smaller till finally one day I barely felt it. I first thought to myself is this just wishful thinking?? than I had my Dad check and he said I was right, that indeed this thing shrunk!!! So I had my Mom contact my Doctor and I asked him if I still needed the Sclerotherapy and he said to come in to confirm this thing was as small as I thought before canceling the therapy. The Doctor confirmed that this Ranula Cyst had shrunk to barely nothing!! YAHOO DADDY (JESUS) YOU ARE GOOD. Don’t get me wrong it is not 100 percent gone, but it is about 95 percent and I know the Lords going to eventually take care of that other 5 percent. Just like I know he will take care of my Shunt issue, even if I need surgery it is ok, I now have peace and know that he will carry me through the fire, and I will come out GOLD!!!

So if you my readers are going through a battle than put on that armor and keep fighting like the warrior he’s created you to be. Psalm 18:39 says: You armed me with strength for battle; you humbled my adversaries before me.

THATS IT FOR TODAY, BUT AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP ME AND MY BOOK IN YOUR PRAYERS AND THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR ALL THE PRAYERS, LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU THROW MY WAY EVERY DAY. PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AM HERE JUST STOP BY MY PRAYER PAGE, AGAIN THATS LOCATED ON THE RIGHT HAND SIDE OF THE SITE 🙂 ALSO PLEASE KNOW JESUS LOVES YOU AND I DO TOO LOL

P.S PLEASE REMEMBER EVEN THOUGH IM BUILDING A INDIEGOGO CAMPAIGN DOES NOT MEAN YOU HAVE TO WAIT TO GIVE.  IF YOU WANT TO GIVE NOW TO HELP SUPPORT MY DREAM OF PUBLISHING MY BOOK, OR EVEN GIVE TO JUST HELP KEEP THIS SITE GOING, BECAUSE TO RUN THIS SITE DOES COST MONEY,  SO IF ANY OF YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEND A DONATION TO SUPPORT MY WORK, NOW YOU CAN DO THAT BY CLICKING Donate Button with Credit Cards

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DO WE REALLY HAVE EQUAL RIGHTS?? 

Posted July 1, 2015 by JACKIE
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 Romans 8:37-39

NO, IN ALL THESE THINGS WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS THROUGH HIM WHO LOVED US. FOR I AM CONVINCED THAT NEITHER DEATH NOR LIFE, NEITHER ANGELS NOR DEMONS, NEITHER PRESENT NOR THE FUTURE, NOR ANY POWERS, NEITHER HEIGHT NOR DEPTH, NOR ANYTHING ELSE IN ALL CREATION, WILL BE ABLE TO SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD THAT IS IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD.

 

Hi all sorry it’s been so long since I have wrote but I promise I haven’t forgotten any of you.  I have just been so busy, writing and publishing a book is not as easy as it looks LOL.  But before I get into all of that I’d like to first talk about what led me to write this blog.

As I’m sure you all have heard the Supreme courts have made same sex marriage legal in all 50 states!! Now before you all start rolling your eyes and start assuming I’m going to come at you in a biblical way don’t worry, calm it down because I’m not going to, at least I’m not going to right this second LOL.  Seriously though I usually don’t even bring this topic up, I usually avoid it like the plaque because I know people know my love for the bible,church and GOD and when people know that they usually get very judgmental and defensive and usually already have their swords up before I even say anything, but I’d like to warn you don’t waste your time getting in attack mode. This does not have to do with my biblical beliefs or what I think is right or wrong.  This has to do with society and how they shut their eyes to the disabled.  While everyone’s celebrating equal rights where’s ours??

I do believe what the bible says and the bible does clearly state marriage should be between man and woman just read Genesis 2:18-25 , and as the video I have above states our country was founded on the bible and biblical ways, but but even though I don’t agree with this ruling does not mean I hate the LGBT community. I am not here to be their judge what they choose is on them and me coming at them and smacking them in the head with the bible or scriptures or saying things to them that are judgmental and down right rude is not going to fix anything and if any Christian does go to attack these people or judge these people than you all are sinning just as much as they are.  So if we’re going to speak about the word and “sinful behavior” than get ready because I’m going to come down just as hard on you the “Christians” as I would anyone else in this country.  Also let me add I have many gay and lesbian friends so to any of you that read this please know this blog is not to attack you all I love and respect each of you just as much as I do any of my friends❤

But like I said from the beginning I’m not going to debate the bible with you all.  You all know the bible just as well as I do and some of you may even know it better than I do so let’s not waste our breaths debating on what we think the word of GOD says, because we all have our own interpretation.  But why I’m writing this is because I read an amazing article on a disability website and I’ll actually put the link to that article at the end of this blog so you all can read it🙂 the article was basically talking about how hard it is for us disabled people to get married,  Now when I say that some of you are probably thinking that I mean it’s hard for us to find someone to marry, but no that’s not what I mean at all.  Yes the LGBT got what they wanted and that’s awesome for them again I’m not here to attack them.

But all I keep seeing on TV, magazines, internet and every other social media outlet you can think of, is how because of this ruling we all have equal rights.  But that’s not necessarily true and what I’m about to point out I did not even realize myself till I read this article, I mean I knew this information but yet it didn’t really click in my brain till I read the article, and what that information was is the fact that the statement of saying we have equal rights is not true, not true what so ever.  Because if it was true than people with disabilities would not struggle as much as we do.

What I mean by that is for us disabled people, the ones like me especially.  The ones who cannot work and who have to be on government programs.  If we fall in love and want to get married we basically have to choose between marriage or living.  For instance if I or someone like me were to get married and we married someone with a job we would lose everything, at least in most states this is true.  If I were to marry, and don’t freak out people because I’m definitely NOT!!!! I am not insane LOL. But for pretend let’s say I was. I would lose most or all my medical insurance, I’d lose any extra programs like home health care., because for someone like me in order for me to be able to just get out of bed and get fed I’d have to have a nurse because  remember I am totally wheelchair bound and my spouse would not be able to care for me because he’d have to obviously go to work. I’d also lose help with things like money for food, I’d also lose ssi If I didn’t totally lose that I guarantee it be cut down to almost nothing. I’d also lose help with medical equipment, things like oxygen, feeding tubes, medicines, ramps, wheelchairs. Walkers.  These are all things people in my shoes would lose or at least struggle to get if they married a healthy hard working person.  And to lose these things would basically be like loosing our life because without this stuff we would not survive.  So as I said in the beginning does this seem fair?? And more importantly does this seem equal??

Ok now that I’ve said all I had to say about that lets update you on how I and the book is doing LOL.  The book GOLD is doing awesome I am officially done writing it and now am in the editing stage!! I have been a very busy little bee these past few months LOL.  Not only did I finish writing the book but I also did research and figured out how much it will cost me if I published the book on my own, and honestly it’s looking like I’m going to have to go that route because it’s very hard to get a publishing company to say yes to publishing a book especially if your a first time writer like myself.

So if I were to publish this book myself it would cost me anywhere from.  You ready for this?? $10,000-$12,000 when I seen those numbers I think my eye balls popped out of my head for a brief moment LOL.  But even though I know it will cost that much it still does not mean I am giving up, there is no way, (in you know where) I’d give up now.  I did not spend three years of my life writing a book to place it on my shelf LOL.  So after I seen that number $10,000-$12,000 I said ok GOD what now?? And immediately I felt him telling me KICKSTARTER BABY LOL.  So that’s my goal this fall to get either a Kickstarter campaign going or a indiegogo campaign, their basically both the same just one may be a little cheaper than the other.

But the bottom line is I need to do something to raise some money and im not the type of person to take people’s hard earned money for nothing.  I am always the giver and I do not like having to ask for handouts, which is why I came up with the indiegogo campaign because it’s a way for me to raise money for my book but also give back.  So that is the plan this summer to organize the campaign and get some people to donate some prizes.  That includes my the-book-of-roo readers, if any of you own a business or sell a product please think about donating to my campaign I’m looking for anything, I know I have a few artists who read my stuff so signed CDs would be great. Hats, tshirt, posters, gift cards. Anything that could be given out as a indiegogo prize. If your not familiar with what a kickstarter or indiegogo campaign is than please google it to find out LOL.  Just so everyone knows I’m planning on starting this project in the end of September or mid November.

As far as me personally, like my health and stuff, I cannot complain I’m very blessed. Today I am celebrating one year since I’ve been admitted in to any hospital!!!! Thank you JESUS YOU ARE AWESOME. This is only the second time in my life I’ve been able to say I’ve made it an entire year without any admissions and honestly after the four year roller coaster I was on, with the whole scar tissue and adhesion mess. I truly thought I’d never get to Say I’m celebrating a year with no admissions ever again.  The first time I celebrated it, it was miracle in it self, but now to have done that again and after everything I had gone through. It’s beyond amazing and truly shows how awesome my GOD is and more proof of how powerful and faithful my GOD IS. Now here’s where I’m going preach to you LOL.  When people see miracles like me how could they ever Deny Christ??  I wasn’t supposed to live beyond ten days but here I am just one month shy of 29 years, it has not been easy but yet so worth it.  His grace is the answer.

My final update is that I have a second job LOL.  Besides my writing career I decided to give sales a try, so about three weeks ago I became a Jamberry consultant.  In case you do not know what Jamberry is, it’s a company that sells nail products particularly nail wraps.  All Jamberry products are all natural no chemicals so it’s all completely safe for everyone to use including kids.  The real reason I started this is not only to give me something more to do with my time because I like to stay busy and keep my mind occupied but I also decided to do this so that I could try making some extra cash to put towards the publishing of my book, so if there’s any ladies reading this and like to do their nails check out the link http://roostreasures7.jamberrynails.net.  And also keep checking my facebook consultant page https://www.facebook.com/roostreasures because besides selling the nail wraps I also create my own nail wrap designs and right now I am selling ones particularly for the book. Their called coming out gold and I’ve made them totally in honor of my book.  You all can also come up with your own designs or even your company or school logo just send me your idea or picture and I’ll make it and ship it out to you.  So don’t forget to check all that fun stuff out while your waiting for my campaign to start or book to come out.

THATS IT FOR TODAY, YOU WILL BE HEARING FROM ME AGAIN SOON I PROMISE BUT AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP ME AND MY BOOK IN YOUR PRAYERS AND THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR ALL THE PRAYERS, LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU THROW MY WAY EVERY DAY. PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AM HERE JUST STOP BY MY PRAYER PAGE, AGAIN THATS LOCATED ON THE RIGHT HAND SIDE OF PAGE🙂 ALSO PLEASE KNOW JESUS LOVES YOU AND I DO TOO LOL❤

P.S PLEASE REMEMBER EVEN THOUGH IM BUILDING A INDIEGOGO CAMPAIGN DOES NOT MEAN YOU HAVE TO WAIT TO GIVE.  IF YOU WANT TO GIVE NOW TO HELP SUPPORT MY DREAM OF PUBLISHING MY BOOK, OR EVEN GIVE TO JUST HELP KEEP THIS SITE GOING, BECAUSE TO RUN THIS SITE COST MONEY TOO,  SO IF ANY OF YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEND A DONATION TO SUPPORT MY WORK, NOW YOU CAN DO THAT BY CLICKING Donate Button with Credit Cards

here’s the link http://www.audacitymagazine.com/disabled-people-penalized-for-getting-married/ to the article I mentioned

THE GIFT OF LIGHT

Posted December 20, 2014 by JACKIE
Categories: Beckah Shae, CHRISTIAN VIDEO'S, Uncategorized

 

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James 1:17

EVERY GOOD GIFT AND EVERY PERFECT GIFT IS FROM ABOVE AND COMES DOWN FROM THE FATHER OF LIGHTS, WITH WHOM THERE IS NO VARIATION OR SHADOW OF TURNING

 

 

Hi all sorry its been awhile since I have posted anything but am glad to be back and I kept my promise! There are two things I promised you all the last time I wrote, the first thing was, I promised to announce the name of my book and the second was I promised to make a video of me singing LOL.

Oh my was that hard to do, I liked singing in front of people when I was younger much better, when you are young you do not care how foolish you look LOL. But eventually I got out of my self centered ways and realized it didn’t matter how foolish I looked because it was not to honor you all (no offense) it was to honor my hero, my king of kings, my LORD JESUS CHRIST, and I thought what better christmas gift could I give not only you all but also him than to do the one thing I know he’s been begging me to do.

Also as I said in the video, the video that I pray you all watch. I am naming my book “O.I CAN DO ALL THINGS” and so like I said in the video I want to keep posting videos of things I have learned how to do over the years. to show that if we are strong minded and determined and allow GOD to be our guide, than we really can do all things .

Other than the book and the video, I would also like to talk about the holidays. Particularly Hanukkah and Christmas, and I know you are all thinking what the heck, why hanukkah?? you are not jewish, and you are right I am not  jewish LOL, but I do hold some of their traditions close to my heart.

And there are a few reasons as to why that is, number one I think some of their traditions are beautiful and the meaning behind some of them is even more beautiful, and number two I always want to honor Jesus, he is my father and just like I honor my natural fathers traditions I want to do the same for my spiritual one.

And the fact is my Abba father (Jesus Christ) was raised jewish and did follow their traditions, and I want to follow his heart and some of these traditions are a part of him, its really no different than what I do in the summer time with my earthly family. I dont think I have ever told you all this but, I come from a small italian neighborhood called the little italy neighborhood, besides it being an italian neighborhood filled with italian traditions it is also a very religious neighborhood and the majority of the people who live here are born and raised catholics, I am like the one percent who is not catholic LOL, but even though I am not catholic that doesn’t mean I don’t honor and respect them.

It also doesn’t mean I ignore their traditions, like every summer around my birthday, there is an italian/catholic festival (although they hate the word festival) they call it the feast of the assumption, and basically the way my grandmother always explained it to me is, its a day to honor and “bless” the blessed mother (marry, jesus mother) and even though I am not catholic, I still participate because it is a part of my heritage and a part of me, just like Hanukkah is, because jesus is a part of me and so that means his heritage is too.

Now don’t get me wrong I do believe there is a little difference between following some of my catholic ways compared to following some of the jewish ways, because, I mean this as respectfully as I can, but I do believe there is a small difference because out of all the catholic traditions I have not found as many biblical meanings to the things they do.

Where on the other hand I am finding biblical things every day that stands for jewish ways, I am just trying to give you a picture of JESUS background. And how we have a heritage through him just like we do our natural family.

Celebrating Hanukkah and lighting the menorah is a beautiful thing, it basically means I am not ashamed of my faith and I am going to light these candles and place them near my window for all the world to see that I am not ashamed of GOD and his light will always be shining in my household.

Look it all these scriptures about light, I don’t know about you but I always want his light shining in me and thru me. Matthew 5:16. Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven. John 8:12. Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.” John 12:35. Then Jesus said to them, “A little while longer the light is with you. Walk while you have the light, lest darkness overtake you; he who walks in darkness does not know where he is going. 

I know where I am going do you????

There are a billion more scriptures that mention light and more importantly GODS light, but the ones I listed above were my faves🙂

Just a few short announcements than I am done, because I know the videos a teaching in it self so I did not want to write to long today. first announcement is, yes Sean Giachetti and I are doing heart of Christmas fundraiser again and we really need your help, the family were helping is a family of 8 and they truly need our help they have been thru a lot, I don’t want to go into, to much detail, because I am not sure what the family wants private or not, so I do not want to say anything that would betray their trust in me and especially in sean, hes the one whose been communicating with the families we help. I mostly just help raise the funds to help them LOL. They are good deserving people so lets bless them ok???  http://www.youcaring.com/help-a-neighbor/the-heart-of-christmas-2014/264361 

I will be starting a fund me page for my book O.I can do all things very soon, but if you would like to give something now you can at this link below Donate Button with Credit Cards

 

And Finally If you do not know what O.I stands for it stands for Osteogenesis Imperfecta, which is the disease I battle, If you would like to learn more about O.I and my life please click on the. MY LIFE AND WHO I AM TAB, which is located on the right hand side of this website. Or if you just want to learn about the disease in it self click on the link here. http://www.oif.org/site/PageServer 

please remember to watch and share my videos and website and thank you so much for supporting and blessing me. If you would like to experience feeling GODS light shining on you then just repeat this prayer.  

Dear Heavenly Father, I confess my sins ___________ and ask you to please forgive me. I accept and receive the precious gift of your son Jesus Christ who came to release me from the penalty of my sin by dying a brutal death on a cross so that I may know L.I.F.E. I believe I am now forgiven and that you remember my sins no more. I choose to forgive myself and to live and walk in freedom from guilt and shame. Today I choose to forgive those who have hurt me or offended me. I choose to Love like you. I choose to extend Mercy like yours. I choose to give Grace like yours. I trust you and believe you make All things work out for the Good for those who love you. I love you. Please take my brokenness and make me whole, take my sorrow and give me joy, take my pain and give me peace, take all my questions and give me wisdom. I’m ready to Fly in the Mighty name of Yeshua! Amen.

THATS IT FOR TODAY, YOU WILL BE HEARING FROM ME AGAIN SOON BUT AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP ME AND MY BOOK IN YOUR PRAYERS AND THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR ALL THE PRAYERS, LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU THROW MY WAY EVERY DAY. PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AM HERE JUST STOP BY MY PRAYER PAGE, AGAIN THATS LOCATED ON THE RIGHT🙂 ALSO PLEASE KNOW JESUS LOVES YOU AND I DO TOO LOL❤

10,227 = BLESSD

Posted August 14, 2014 by JACKIE
Categories: MY LIFE AND WHO I AM, STORIES OF MIRACLES, Uncategorized

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The book of roo

PSALMS 23:4-6

EVEN THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE DARKEST VALLEY, I WILL FEAR NO EVIL, FOR YOU ARE WITH ME; YOUR ROD AND YOUR STAFF, THEY COMFORT ME. YOU PREPARE A TABLE BEFORE ME IN THE PRESENCE OF MY ENEMIES. YOU ANOINT MY HEAD WITH OIL; MY CUP OVERFLOWS. SURELY YOUR GOODNESS AND LOVE WILL FOLLOW ME ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE, AND I WILL DWELL IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD FOREVER 

Hi all. I been trying to think of things to write about and I had been praying and praying but the LORD had given me nothing, and so that is why I have not wrote, because I told you all from day one I only want to be writing what GOD lays on my heart to write, and so all week, really all month I felt guilty for not writing,

Than Sunday morning came, I had been planning on celebrating my birthday that day, because my birthday was august 13th, but because august 13th fell on a wednesday, me and my family decided to get together on Sunday to make it easier, so anyways, Sunday as I was waking up and doing my usual praying and thinking in bed, before my crazy italian family decides to flood my day LOL. I kept thinking back to those very first hours that I was born, and kept thinking about those words the doctors told my parents and those words were: she will never live past 10 days!!!!

and for some reason that kept ringing in my ear over and over and than all of a sudden a question popped in my head, I wonder how many days I actually have lived this far??? excuse my language but  I suck at math and so I immediately went to my facebook for the answer and I said: I GOT A VERY IMPORTANT QUESTION FOR ALL THE SMART FACEBOOK PEOPLE. HOW MANY DAYS EQUALS 28 YEARS, I NEED THE ANSWER ASAP.

LOL Of course my amazing facebook friends and family immediately responded and we came up with 10,227 days!!! when I seen that number I just could not help but see a miracle. I was told over and over, you will be dead in 10 days, or you will be dead in 6 months, 1 year, 2 years and so on and so on. But I am here  celebrating my 28th year on this earth, and in doing that I just could not let this day go by without saying, no matter what Love always wins. He always wins, which is why I chose psalms 23:4-6 because I have lived those scripture verses out more than once.

You know when I started getting inspiration from the LORD to write todays blog, after I seen 10 days turned in to 10,227 days, GOD than kept giving me the word freedom and at first I was very confused by that, because I was like, okay GOD I get why you had me ask how many days equals 28 years, but I don’t get why you keep giving me the word freedom?

Than the answer finally came to me. When A lot of people see me, I know what they see, I am not dumb, and I definitely know what they may say: How can she give GOD so much credit? how can she talk about freedom? look at her she suffers every day of her life, and barely can move but yet says she’s grateful to GOD and says she’s free?  how is she free when she is tied down by two diseases every day??

I am here to tell you, if anyone thinks that, which lets be honest with ourselves, I know theres one or two in the bunch who do think that, and thats ok your human, but I am here to tell you, your one hundred percent wrong!!!. O.I (Osteogenesis Imperfecta) and Hydrocephalus do not tie me down,  I have been set free from them. You maybe thinking I am crazy for saying that, because to you being set free means the sickness must be totally  gone, but I am here to tell you I don’t agree. I agree GOD can heal anyone and anything, but freedom doesn’t always mean healing in the natural.

My body may not be healed, but my heart and spirit are, I am not controlled by the diseases, I do not plan my future around these diseases. Even though I walk
through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me your rod and your staff, they comfort me, and well you know the rest of that scripture :) 

Jeremiah 29:11 says: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. It does not say that scripture holds true to only the “healthy” it says: For I know the plans I have for you. GOD has a plan a destiny for each and every one of us, we just have to be willing to have the willpower and stamina to fight for and with the LORD to obtain that destiny. The LORD never said life would be easy, he just said it be worth it.

1 Corinthians 2:9 Says: : “What no eye has seen,what no ear has heard,and what no human mind has conceived” the things God has prepared for those who love him. For years, to this day even all I kept hearing from everyone, was death, you won’t live, you won’t talk, you won’t hear, everything was negative, everywhere me and my parents turned there was negativity being thrown at us, but we chose and I chose to do what the bible says, and it says  your faith might not rest on human wisdom, but on God’s power.

I may not have everything figured out, but one thing I do have figured out is GOD has kept me going for 10,227 days and thats all the answer I need to know that he is alive and still hears our prayers and carries me through every single day.

Years ago I had a major infection that spread thru me like wild fires and to make a long story short, if there ever was a time where I thought I was dying that was it, I truly had nothing left in me to fight and one night during all that I was so ready to go home to the LORD, my mom had laid in my bed that night and had seen the pain I was in and seen how much I was struggling, so that night she had told me it was ok to let go and be with the LORD, and I was very relieved when she said that, because I was ready, I knew where my home was and I was ready to pack my bags go, and so after she went to bed, I barely could open my eyes but I did because I felt something rubbing my head and I assumed it was my mother, I assumed she had gotten back up and was the one touching me and so I went to look up at her, but when I looked up she was not there, no one was there and than the LORD reminded me that someone earlier that day told me she seen an angel at my bedside and that angel was rubbing my head, and so I than started crying because I knew what I was feeling on my head was an angel rubbing me and I assumed the angel was there to take me home and so I started praying to GOD and basically was like ok GOD lets get this party started get this angel to take me home LOL.

The LORD than told me this angel was not there to take me home, but was there to strengthen and encourage me, and he told me to be prepared because my battle was not even close to being over, but that it would be worth it, because the destiny he had planned for me was not fully fulfilled yet and ill be honest when he first told me, he was not there to take me home and that my battle was not even half over, I was pretty depressed LOL, but than when he assured me that what he had in store for me would be worth it and would be beyond my wildest dreams, I gave in and basically just said ok LORD let your will be done.

Saying that and giving up total control and letting the LORD be ruler over me and my destiny was the hardest thing I have ever done, but the best thing. The LORD was right that battle lasted 4 months, and honestly my body never fully recovered from that battle, but the LORD was so right, it was worth the fight to stay and live, because I held out, I got to see my brother and sister get married, I got to see my sister have her daughter, I got to experience life as an auntie to my beautiful niece and I get to write and publish my own book and thats only a small portion of some of the stuff I have gotten to do since that day.

The JOY I felt and the strength I felt when that angel was touching me, there are no words for how amazing that moment was, and I thank the LORD every day for allowing me that intimate moment with him and his angels. I really wanted to post a video of me singing in christ alone, because the words to that song fit perfectly with this blog but in order to have made the video I would of had to wait to post the blog until next week, because we have a full house right now, I have family in town from florida and I just would never be able to get enough quiet time to be able to make the video, but I am begging you all, go listen to that song for me, because the words fit perfectly with what my hearts sharing today and also I promise the next blog I post will have a video of me singing  :)

I really wanted to avoid you all hearing me sing, but I really feel the LORDS telling me to do that, so that will be my goal next blog singing!!! PLEASE BE PRAYING FOR ME BECAUSE ILL NEED ALL THE PRAYERS I CAN GET FOR THAT ONE LOL.

A fast update before I end the book is almost done, and I really could use any donations your willing to give, because publishing a book is going to cost money, money I do not have LOL so please help support my dream and thanks in advance to anyone who does. remember if you want to give a donation just click on our facebook tab and than donate, or you could send it by clicking this button Donate Button with Credit Cards

 Also please most importantly pray! pray for this book, pray for me, pray for this website, just pray!!!! please pray!!! LOL.

As always thank you for supporting me and THE-BOOK-OF-ROO, please remember to stop by the prayer page and send in your prayer requests if you have any and I promise, me and THE-BOOK-OF-ROO readers will be praying, and as always REMEMBER JESUS LOVES YOU!!!! KEEP ON FIGHTING AND MOST IMPORTANTLY KEEP ON SHINING FOR JESUS <3🙂

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