Genesis 9:13-17
THE RAINBOW THAT I HAVE PUT IN THE SKY WILL BE MY SIGN TO YOU AND TO EVERY LIVING CREATURE ON EARTH. IT WILL REMIND YOU THAT I WILL KEEP THIS PROMISE FOREVER. WHEN I SEND CLOUDS OVER THE EARTH, AND A RAINBOW APPEARS IN THE SKY, I WILL REMEMBER MY PROMISE TO YOU AND TO ALL OTHER LIVING CREATURES. NEVER AGAIN WILL I LET FLOODWATERS DESTROY ALL LIFE. WHEN I SEE THE RAINBOW IN THE SKY, I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE PROMISE THAT I HAVE MADE TO EVERY LIVING CREATURE. THE RAINBOW WILL BE THE SIGN OF THAT SOLEMN PROMISE.
Hi all. I once again am sorry I haven’t been blogging much, but I have been writing like crazy. I know in my last blog I said I was done writing for my book and was officially in the editing stage, well it turns out I lied LOL. Not deliberately of course, but after I sat down and read all I had written down I felt something was missing and after some serious prayers and meditation time with the Lord I knew without a shadow of a doubt that what I was feeling was accurate and that there were still things I had to write about. I now feel it is complete and I am now back in the editing stage/publishing stage.
I have had a very eventful couple of months, for one I celebrated my 29th birthday yahoo that is just awesome to me and I am so thankful to the Lord for the gift of another year. The reason I decided to write this blog is to share with you all a few of the struggles that I have had to deal with the past few months, and more importantly the miracles God has been doing in my life.
Back on September 27th I woke up to my brother running in our house saying a building (Factory) that is just inches from our house was on fire and when I say fire, I mean fire, this building was completely engulfed in flames. Here take a look for your selves
The building obviously burnt down and the little bit that was left is being torn down, but as you can see this fire was extremely bad and if you watch the video it is a video my brother recorded from our yard during the chaos, and that white house that he has the camera aimed on is our house. Now I took the sound out of the video but if you watched the original recording you will hear my brother and parents panicking and we all were just sitting there watching this fire slowly try to come and take our house.
While I sat there watching this all take place, like I said everyone around me was panicking and at one point in the early stages of the fire my Mom told me I had to get out of the house because it was no longer safe and as she said that I kind of laughed at her and well she was not to happy that I was laughing (note to self, no laughing during a major fire) LOL. She said that I needed to stop taking this so lightly and realize we could lose our house! She had every right to be upset and say what she said, she was scared and me laughing at the situation was not right, but I was not laughing because I thought it wasn’t serious, I was laughing because I had peace. No matter how close that fire kept getting I just was not worried I knew God already took care of it. After I got kicked out of my house I parked my chair a few houses down from the fire and just watched it and as I was watching it I felt this breeze come over me and immediately I knew the Lord was showing me to start praying, not only pray but start praying one specific thing. Pray that the Lord changes the direction of the wind. I knew if the wind kept blowing a certain way than it would give the firemen time to get it under control before it could touch our house. I also told the Lord after everything me and my family have been through I was demanding he take control over this. I told him there is no way in hell that I am allowing this, we have had to many struggles and this was one I was not standing for. Thankfully the Lord answered my prayer and he calmed the storm.
Matthew 8:23-27 says: Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!” He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm. The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”
After everything had calmed down the firemen came and talked to my parents, and you want to know the one thing they said saved our house?? The direction of the wind baby! and if that isn’t good enough theres more. A few hours after the fire my Dad went outside just to check on things and as he turned his head to look across the street there was a rainbow that was directly facing our house!! Oh and by the way it had not rained one drop that day, nor was there even a cloud in the sky. If that isn’t enough proof how awesome God is and how his grace truly is everything we need than nothing will.
Isaiah 60:1 says: Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you. The Lord still is in the working miracle business, you just have to have the faith to see it. 2 Corinthians 5:7 says: For we walk by faith, not by sight. And boy has that scripture been so true in my life lately. I truly have had to just shut my eyes and ears to the things around me and just let the Lord guide me and trust in the path that he is leading me down.
Not only did I have the fire scare, but I also had a few medical scares, and after awhile I just started to feel like no matter how hard I tried things just kept pushing me down. On July 18th, I woke up planning on spending the day celebrating my brother in laws birthday, but life unfortunately had other plans for me LOL. The minute I woke up that day I knew something was extremely wrong. I woke up feeling like a truck ran me over and worse, I felt like after it ran my body over it than did a u-turn and just kept ramming its wheels directly and purposely over my head. After about an hour of feeling this way it than got worse, I than started to violently throw up and when the throwing up started I knew I was headed for trouble. So my Dad drove me and my Mom to the ER. And after running a few tests that included a CT Scan they seen my shunt was not fully working right, it was not in a full blown malfunction, but it was enough of an issue to where it was making me sick.
Remember a few years ago I battled the whole scar tissue and adhesions thing, and at the time that all was making me sick. And as you all know I had an exploratory surgery to fix that, but as you all also know after that surgery they told me the scar tissue would eventually grow back, and well I don’t know if its fully grown back, but I do know some has accumulated at the tip of my shunt tubing. Basically the way I understood it, is its almost like the scar tissue formed a little pouch or bowl at the tip of my shunt and so its all preventing my shunt from fully draining all the cerebrospinal fluid that builds up. Because of all my other medical complications they felt it was best to avoid surgery as much as I could, especially this type of surgery, because it is major, major surgery to replace a shunt and last time I had this type of surgery it did not go well, to be honest it almost killed me. So when they told me my shunt was in a partial malfunction and that sooner or later id need surgery that was a huge punch in the gut. Honestly a shunt replacement surgery is one of the worse surgeries I have ever experienced and that surgery is one of my biggest fears.
Thankfully at the time they were able to relieve some of the pressure in my head by inserting a small needle in to my stomach and than draining that pocket of fluid that had formed in the scar tissue, and that than gave the shunt some breathing room for the fluid to flow a little better. But they warned me from the start not to get excited and that this was not a solution, but that it was a way to buy us time to figure out what to do.
Because now the issue was that there is no room left in my belly to put a new shunt, because between my organs and the scar tissue, its just all taking over my belly. So the surgeon told me, basically that she needed time to figure out a plan. After that Doctors visit and everything I had been through over the month of July I felt very discouraged and to be truly honest I started to feel hopeless and I even started to ask the Lord if this was it?? Was my time coming to an end?? For weeks I kept thinking maybe this was it and God was coming for me and than the Lord reminded me of a spiritual vision I had last year. I had even mentioned my experience in an old blog. Remember how I told you all last year I was half asleep and half awake when all of a sudden I seen this really ugly demon looking thing and that it kept smirking at me while saying the word death over and over and the more it said the word death the closer it got to me till it was finally right in my face.
I told you all than, that I knew this thing was trying to intimidate me and put fear in me, and how I knew to stand up to this thing and instead of feeling fear, I felt strength and almost a warrior type of feeling inside me and I knew to come against this thing. Well the Lord recently reminded me of that occasion and showed me not to focus on the negativity surrounding me, but to just keep pushing forward.
Well after that I had another medical scare, and this one I knew without a shadow of a doubt that it was the enemy trying to push my buttons. A few weeks ago I felt this lump under my tongue, and I had no clue what it was but I ignored it because I thought I was imagining things at first. Than a few hours later I realize this isn’t just a lump, but swelling. At that point I thought I had truly lost my mind, I did not even know it was humanly possible for the bottom of your mouth under your tongue to get swollen LOL. After I faced that indeed it was swollen I looked at it in a mirror and noticed that not only was it swollen but it looked like there was a purple bubble looking thing, so at that point I got my parents involved and we all were puzzled as to what the heck this was, was it a mouth infection? What was this thing? Well to make a long story short it ended up getting so big that I went to the ER and they told me its a cyst. Its exact name is a Ranula Cyst and they told me its one of the rarest type of mouth cysts you can get. My primary Doctor who has been a Doctor for almost 20 years told me he has only seen two cases of this type of cyst and that I am the second!! Than another Doctor who specializes in this and who has been a Doctor just as long has only treated one patient with this kind of cyst! And than to make matters worse they tell me the only way to treat this thing is to surgically remove it, which again I was terrified to do because every Doctor I have ever talked to in the past has said oral surgeries are pretty impossible for me because anything they would ever try they know would immediately break my jaw.
So what the Heck God, what do I do now?? thats what went through my mind. After I left the ER I went and seen a ENT (Ear Nose Throat Doctor) and he told me before rushing in to a major surgery lets try a treatment called Sclerotherapy and so I agreed and I made the appointment to start those treatments, but as I was walking home from that Doctors appointment I just kept hearing the Lord say stand firm on what you believe and so after I arrived home I gave an offering to the church I belong to and I just started praying and asking, begging the Lord to please take this, just let this one time be a miracle. I did not care how impossible the Doctors said it was to get rid of this thing on my own, I knew I would prove them wrong and knew Jesus was already taking care of this for me.
Galatians 6:9 says: Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. I just kept believing in faith that this thing would go, I knew it was just another nuisance and something else for the devil to torment me with. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed, till slowly it got smaller and smaller and smaller till finally one day I barely felt it. I first thought to myself is this just wishful thinking?? than I had my Dad check and he said I was right, that indeed this thing shrunk!!! So I had my Mom contact my Doctor and I asked him if I still needed the Sclerotherapy and he said to come in to confirm this thing was as small as I thought before canceling the therapy. The Doctor confirmed that this Ranula Cyst had shrunk to barely nothing!! YAHOO DADDY (JESUS) YOU ARE GOOD. Don’t get me wrong it is not 100 percent gone, but it is about 95 percent and I know the Lords going to eventually take care of that other 5 percent. Just like I know he will take care of my Shunt issue, even if I need surgery it is ok, I now have peace and know that he will carry me through the fire, and I will come out GOLD!!!
So if you my readers are going through a battle than put on that armor and keep fighting like the warrior he’s created you to be. Psalm 18:39 says: You armed me with strength for battle; you humbled my adversaries before me.
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