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DEATH HAS NO GRIP ON ME…(THANKFUL FOR HIS SAVING GRACE)

November 26, 2016

The book of roo

PSALM 116:3-4

THE CORDS OF DEATH ENTANGLED ME, THE ANGUISH OF THE GRAVE CAME OVER ME; I WAS OVERCOME BY DISTRESS AND SORROW. THEN I CALLED ON THE NAME OF THE LORD: “LORD, SAVE ME!”

Hi all. So this article should not be to long. I just really wanted a chance to update you on everything that’s happened since August and the victory I achieved once again!

Not to long after I wrote my last article (to read previous article Click here) all the medical issues I mentioned in that article got Ten times worse. So bad I finally told my Doctors I could not take it anymore and something had to be done! I was doing everything that was humanly possible to just fight through the symptoms. Because the options the Doctors had for me, were all extremely risky, and they all involved major Surgery. So we all, including myself, felt the risk was to high and not worth it. Everyone (including myself) felt, if I were to go through with most of the Surgeries they had on the table for me. They would probably have killed me, and if they did not kill me they definitely would have destroyed the life I have now. But than in July my symptoms just started getting so extreme I could not take it.

I was practically crying myself to sleep every Night for at least Two Months. Because I was doing all I could to fight through everything, and knew if I chose Surgery my life would probably end. Honestly if this was any other time in my life,.I would have been ok with that, not because I was ok with “dying” but because I knew where I’d be going and knew my ultimate goal in life is to be with him (Jesus) anyways . So if this was any other time I would have taken the risk in a heart beat, but in this moment I just felt if my life ended, it would have ended before it was supposed to. I had so many things in my life I was not willing to give up yet, and so many things I had worked so hard to achieve, like this Book. I felt like if I were to have died now, it would have been like loosing a race at the finish line. Everything inside me was just not willing to accept that my life could end. But yet I was very conflicted and I will admit I think I let fear grip me a little.

I tortured myself and my body for almost Six Months. Trying to fight these symptoms I was having. Because I did not want to go through another risky Surgery. But than in July things just got, like I said, Ten times worse. My Stomach felt like a Rock was inside it again, and the fluid that was building up in my Brain was getting so extreme. All I wanted to do was sleep, but yet I couldn’t sleep because I was so uncomfortable. I couldn’t watch tv, I couldn’t read and my eyes felt like they weighted a Billion pounds.  After awhile I had even realized my face was starting to swell a little too.

So after I wrote that article in August and after my 30th Birthday. I prayed, and after my time in prayer. I felt even though I didn’t want to, I had to go through with Surgery. So I sat down with my Parents and all my Doctors, and I told them I’m sorry but you have to do something, anything. I was willing to take the risk because I felt the Lord was telling me I was dying with or without the Surgery and at that point I felt. As risky as the surgery was, doing nothing was more risky. I had no doubt in my mind if they did not do something soon than that would be it, my life would have been over.

After having a long talk with my Doctors. I did finally get them to agree that something had to be done, and I was so relieved they were willing to try. At least I was relieved for about Twenty Seconds LOL. Than in the middle of the Doctors appointment as the Surgeons were telling me their plan. I hear the Lord saying: no, that plans going to kill you, tell them to do this….

The Lord than laid out this whole plan that he wanted me to suggest to the Doctors. I won’t explain all the details because most probably won’t understand it anyways LOL but bottom line really is. The Doctors wanted to move my Shunt and instead of having it drain in my Belly. They wanted to go in the Vein that’s in the Neck, the one that’s connected to our Heart.  They wanted to connect the Shunt tubing to that Vein so than the extra fluid in my Brain would just get absorbed into my Blood stream.

The Lord on the other hand kept telling me not to have them do that and instead have them go in my Belly and basically do the same Surgery they did in 2012. Which is go in cut as much Scar Tissue out as possible and than move the Tubing to the Shunt over a little. The Surgeons did not agree with that plan at all at first. Because the more you cut out Scar Tissue the worse it gets. The Doctor explained it as being like a Snake. You can cut a Snakes tail off over and over, but it will continually grow back.

That is how Scar Tissue works, the more you cut it, the more it will grow back. The Doctors were also worried about how little room I have left inside my Belly. I have so little room left inside my Belly. That they were worried they may not be able to even fit their instruments in there to be able to cut Scar Tissue out. Without the risk of damaging my Organs.  The Doctors also did not want to go through with that plan because it was not a “fix” it was basically just a way to buy time. But the Lord kept telling me it was ok. Because number One, no matter what treatment plan I chose nothings technically a “fix” every plan on the table was just a way to buy time. But the important thing at this point is what plan would benefit me the most.  The Lord kept telling me I did not have to worry about the future, I just had to worry about this moment.

After the Doctors gave their plan I than nicely asked them and my Parents why we couldn’t do the plan I knew the Lord was showing me. Of course I didn’t tell them it was what the Lord was telling me. I just asked why we couldn’t cut the Scar Tissue out? That’s when the Doctor told me about it growing back faster and stronger the more you mess with it. So I just shut up at that point cause I didn’t know what to do and I felt they were going to do what they wanted no matter what I said. Because their the Doctors and they know better than me.

After the Doctors got done giving their plan they asked if they could leave the room for a Minute. They wanted to go look at my Scans One more time. So while they were looking at the Scans I just started praying and I told the Lord. Lord of course I trust you more than anyone but I don’t know how to get them to trust you, or me for that matter. So if this plan that you keep telling me about really can help me live. Than speak to those Doctors Hearts yourself and change their Mind.

The Doctor comes back in and is continuing to say that they want to go through my Neck and to the Vein connected to my Heart. And as their talking I’m just saying to myself oh come on Lord speak to these Doctors Hearts. Than all of a sudden the One Surgeon sits down and starts staring at my Belly and says: well if you really want to go in the Belly, I guess I’d be willing to try, but I can’t make any promises. Now let me remind you when he said all this I hadn’t said One word, I never asked them about going through my Belly again, all I did was pray LOL. I knew the Minute the Doctor said he was willing to try. Than that meant the Lord was working it out already but just to be sure I responded by saying. Well your the Doctors you know best and he looked at me and said no this is team work. You and your parents know you’re body better than any one of us. So please don’t be afraid to say stuff we will listen. In that moment it’s like I felt an instant break through and I knew the Lords hands were on this. (Psalm 118:8) It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in humans.

(As I told you all awhile back. When I hear certain songs, sometimes I get just as encouraged, ministered to or even learn from them as I do from hearing a good teaching or from reading the Bible and while I was in the midst of writing this article I found this album by a group called Unspoken. Two of the songs on the album are perfect for this article. When I heard a song called Miracle on the album I knew I had to share it in this article, it’s soo beautiful and powerful. Unfortunately I cannot post the song in the article like I’d usually do because I don’t have any rights or permission to do so, and I didn’t have the time to work my magic and try to get a hold of them for permission. But I at least wanted to share the lyrics with you all. This is lyrics to a song called Miracle by Unspoken, I encourage you all to go listen to this song)

LYRICS TO MIRACLE:

“Miracle”

Have you stopped reaching?
No longer seeking greater things
Have you forgotten you have a father listening?
He tells the sun when to rise
Gives the wind it’s breath
Swings a door wide open and moves in a moment you least expect

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

How many chances?
How many answers pass us by?
You know it takes faith to step on the waves when you’re terrified
So when you’re packed in a corner
And can’t wait any longer

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

Feels like the presents the words you’ve spoken
They go unnoticed like drops in the ocean
Just beyond the veil of your vision
Your mountains are moving, moving on
Remember the works his hand has done
Where you once were and how far you’ve come

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

You’ve got to speak the impossible
Pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

Pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing

The past Two or Three Years have been a rough one, not just physically but mentally. I have lost a lot of people who I never thought in a Billion Years would have passed before me. A lot of these people were people that had been praying for me and my life for Years. So I had a lot of anxiety about that too. Because I kept thinking, if these people who were healthy and strong died, than how could I think I’d live? I mean even the person who I considered to be my Pastor and who I had been following for Years passed away just Two-Three Weeks ago (Kim Clement).  He had been sick for over a Year. He had a lot of major health issues going on but it all started with a Brain Bleed. I remember just Days before he had his first Bleed. Actually I remember exactly when it was, Three Days. Just Three Days before He had his first Brain Bleed. I had contacted his team to ask if they all, including Kim, could please be praying for me. I explained to them how I was having issues with my Brain and how I was at risk of going through major Brain Surgery and also how I was at risk of my Brain being damaged. Never in a Million Years did I expect to open my Computer and find out that everything I was in fear of happening to me would happen to him. And now sadly this Month I found out he did lose his battle, and yes I know the good news is that he’s with our Lord Jesus Christ. But the bad news is it all happened way to soon. He had so much ahead of him. This man and his team had prayed me back to life more times than I could keep track of.

Sadly I have so many stories of people that passed away to soon and people who took part in helping me fight, people who helped me live. I’m not going to sit here and try to give some Christian cliche to try to explain it all.  Because the truth is I don’t know why this happened, I don’t know why it happened to Kim or the 6-7 other people I knew who lost their lives these past few Years. But One thing it did teach me once again, is how precious life is! I know you are all sick of hearing me say that by now, but it truly is. It also reminded me how even in the midst of a storm my God is still faithful!

When your someone like me, whose been battling life for Thirty Years. After awhile it becomes your normalcy. And after awhile no matter how serious things get you just assume or expect to make it through. Because you have made it so many times before. After awhile it’s almost like you become numb to the reality of how serious you’re health is. And it wasn’t until all these people had passed that I truly realized how fast life can be taken from us. Truly in a heart beat you could just be gone!! And I’ve realized that more lately than I ever had.

(Mark 13:32-37) “But no one knows about that day or hour. Not even the angels in heaven know. The Son does not know. Only the Father knows. Keep watch! Stay awake! You do not know when that time will come. It’s like a man going away. He leaves his house and puts his servants in charge. Each one is given a task to do. He tells the one at the door to keep watch.

“So keep watch! You do not know when the owner of the house will come back. It may be in the evening or at midnight. It may be when the rooster crows or at dawn. He may come suddenly. So do not let him find you sleeping.  What I say to you, I say to everyone. ‘Watch!’ ”

I had so many mixed emotions when they were wheeling me off to Surgery. In one breathe I was relaxed and calm. Because any time I kept thinking negatively. The Lord would give me visions, of me waking up after Surgery and being perfectly fine. In the visions I seen I was ok but yet I kept thinking of all these people I knew this year who believed just as strongly as I did and who were gone. Even in that very moment of me getting ready for Surgery. I had Doctors on every end of my Bed. Basically explaining all the different ways I could die! It took them exactly Fifteen Minutes to explain Six different ways that I could die, or be stuck on machines for Months, to  where I’d still eventually die! I mean we were so sure this time that some thing could actually happen. That I even made a list of all my Personal information, like passwords to all my accounts and where I had placed certain things. That’s how much I let fear grip me. And I have to admit after Surgery I was pretty disappointed in myself. Disappointed that I allowed myself to think such negative things and most importantly that I allowed the devil to almost win.

It was also very confusing because like I said. I had all these Doctors and my family preparing me for the worst. But yet every time I closed my eyes and pictured what life would be like after Surgery. I was perfectly fine, I was better than fine, I was better than I had ever been after a Surgery. Every time I’d start crying or I’d get scared, the Lord would give me that same vision. I just could not get that vision of me waking up laughing and talking and being perfectly fine, out of my head. I kept telling the Lord, Lord I don’t get it. All these people are telling me I’m basically dying but yet all you keep showing me is life! Even when they placed me on the operating table, I went to start crying again and I couldn’t because this wave of peace just came over me and all of a sudden I kept hearing a song (it is well with me) play in my head and every time I’d close my eyes I’d see myself waking up after Surgery and being totally fine. In the vision I could even hear myself saying: I don’t get it, this was supposed to be one of the worse Surgeries I’ve had, but yet I am totally fine I’m not even drowsy from the anesthesia!

(Psalm 121:7-8) The Lord will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

(Lyrics to the Second song by Unspoken that I mentioned earlier. That I felt was perfect for this article. So I just had to share them too, and again I encourage you all to go get this album. It ministered to me so much this week)

LRYICS TO THE CURE:

“The Cure”

We’re all related, brothers and strangers,
The king and the beggar bleed the same.
We’ve all got a sickness, a terminal condition,
We medicate it but the pain won’t go away.

See the eyes of a million faces,
Looking forward in a million places,
Only one can save us, Jesus.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

You are the doctor, healer and father,
To the orphan without a home.
We feel in the darkness, lost till you found us,
You are the remedy we’ve been looking for.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

Cure for the broken, the hope for a hopeless world.
The meaning, the purpose, the peace that will make us whole.

Don’t have to search no more.
Don’t have to search no more.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

You are the cure, cure
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.
You are the cure, cure
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

When I came out of Surgery I experienced the exact same things the Lord showed me in that vision, even down to saying what I heard myself say about how amazed I was that I wasn’t drowsy. When I woke up I was totally fine, I wasn’t in pain, I wasn’t drowsy, I wasn’t anything but myself. When I went in to Surgery they told me to expect to wake up in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) but because I did so well after Surgery they ended up bringing me straight to a regular room! Not only did they bring me to a regular room, but they also told me, I was doing so good they felt I could have probably gone home if I wanted to. Thank God they didn’t actually send me home, because I did end up having a small reaction about Fifteen, Sixteen Hours after the Surgery. But even the reaction I had, had nothing to do with the Surgery. It more had to do with the fact that I had gone so long without eating or drinking or taking my medications that I take on a regular basis. That My body just kind of spiraled out of control for a Minute.

I had gotten so sick before Surgery that I went without eating anything for a good Four Days! So between not eating or drinking or taking any of my meds. Things just kind of caught up to me. But as far as the Surgery went, I was One Hundred percent fine. Me and my Family and even my Doctors were on top of the world. They were just as relieved as I  was and once again they all just shook their heads wondering how I did this once again. How did I fight sickness and death again? They all keep telling me how strong and how much of a miracle I am and I agree my life is a miracle. But as far as me “Jackie Yafanaro” being a miracle. Heck no, I’m no miracle, but I do know the miracle maker and that’s my Lord Jesus Christ. He is my life support and he continually saves me and keeps me breathing and because of that I will never doubt!

I may not understand why I keep living when all these other people around me passed away. But like I said in my last article. I do not need to have all the answers. When my time finally does come and I do see my kings face. I’m sure all those questions will be answered, but for now, I not only believe, but I know he is faithful and even during times of uncertainty he’s still faithful. Sure I may have a lot of questions about certain things but I don’t and never will have doubt. How could I after all he’s done for me and all I’ve experienced in life.

There are so many people in this world who I see who are focusing their time on nonsense, who are letting fear take hold of them and hiding behind pointless garbage. And it is so sad to see because I just want to say, if you’d only trust. That’s all it comes down to, trust. I know I said that in my last article too, but again I’ll say. As simple as that sounds that truly is what it’s about  TRUST, trust even during your storm. He loves us so much and I feel it more now than I ever have.. times so short don’t waste a second of it. Get beyond your fears and doubts and do what your called to.

Thats really all I have for today, like I said I just really wanted to update you all and tell you the miracle that is LIFE!

( Psalm 63:3) Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.

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BLESSED TO BE 30! 

October 4, 2016

 

The book of roo

 

PHILIPPIANS 4:13

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.

Hi all. Boy has it been an eventful few months! Let’s start with the good stuff first. I had a Birthday!!! I am officially 30 years old! OMG (oh my gosh) does it feel good to be 30. I had a huge celebration with my family and loved ones. The festivities began with My parents along with my siblings throwing me a 30th surprise party! So that was so much fun. 80 people were invited and over 100 showed up LOL (Gotta love my neighborhood) LOL.

All my family came in from out of town to celebrate with me. It was so much fun and such a blessing to have shared that moment with the people who truly love me and who I love. Each person that was there, truly were people who made an impact in my life. I am so grateful to each and every person who took time out of their busy lives to celebrate such a huge, important and special Day.  It was so amazing entering that restaurant and seeing pictures of me from birth till now all over the place and then seeing that the theme of the party was GOLD (I think you can all figure out why the theme was GOLD) LOL. Of course seeing all that meant the world to me, but what meant more to me then anything, is seeing the hearts of everyone around me. Seeing how important it was to my family to do some thing that would bless me, seeing them crying and laughing and just, the pure joy and accomplishment we all felt in that moment.

Thankfulness is the only word I can think of to describe it all. Thankful to have lived 30 years, thankful to have a family who truly loves and supports me, thankful for having parents who love me so much that they would truly breathe for me if they could. This was not just a Birthday for me, this was a goal achieved, this was the proof of how AMAZING God is. I mean even my own Doctor called me and said how amazing this Birthday was for me, and how he himself don’t understand how I’ve lived 30 Years.

As you all know, when I was born I was not supposed to live Ten Days! Ten Days people!  But yet I just celebrated, no scratch that because I don’t fully like using the term “Celebrated”. Because me turning 30 is so much more then a “Celebration”, it’s an accomplishment! I just accomplished 30 years of life. When I was continually being told I was going to die.

In that moment it self. Life (Enemy) was trying to take me down, and not only stop me from achieving that Day but also from celebrating with my family.

I have been going through some major, major medical issues, and honestly I’m being told once again that I’m running out of options and I could possibly die. The Night before my surprise party, and also that Morning. I was extremely, extremely sick and the Morning of my party, I even made the comment. I felt so bad that there was no way I was moving off the Livingroom floor. I told my family you all go do what you want. I don’t care what you say I feel like crap Today so I’m not leaving this floor (I obviously didn’t know about the party yet) LOL. Later that Day my Mom talked me into taking a bath. After my bath my meds had kicked in a little and my niece was at my house along with a few other cousins. So since I started feeling better my Mom then talked me into taking a “walk”. She said lets go take the kids to the park to run off some steam. Because they were starting to get, in the words of my Grandfather “Rambunctious”, LOL, so I agreed to go for a walk. It was awesome even my 5 year old niece was in on this scheme, the little snot , (obviously I’m joking people) LOL. She was screaming park, I can’t wait to go to the park, please can we go?  Of course they all know no matter how crappy I feel, I’m going to give in to her. The only time I say no to her is if I’m puking and physically cant function LOL.

So we head to the “park” and some how half way up the street as were walking to the “park” my Mom makes a fast u-turn and ended up in the back of my cousins restaurant. Where all my family and friends were waiting, and of course at that point the jig was up LOL. So we had the party and then of course continued on with a yearly August/Birthday tradition “THE FEAST”. For those who do not know, “the feast” is an Italian/religious festival that’s in my neighborhood. This festival or as they call it “Feast”.

FYI  (they get very offended when you call it a festival. So to all those (Neighborhood people) who read this, I’m not calling it that to be disrespectful. Just trying to explain to the “outsiders” what it’s like LOL )

“The Feast” is always celebrated in August and it’s always around or on my Birthday. It is always centered around the 15th of August. It either starts or ends on that Day every Year and it is called a religious holiday because it’s all about honoring Mary (Jesus Mom).  This “Feast” lasts for Four Days. So we had Four Days of festivities, and most of my out of town family decided to stay since they were already in town for my party. On top of all that I also did some other really fun stuff but I won’t bore you with every detail, but bottom line is. I had one amazingly fun not just Birthday, but BirthMonth (I know I’m spoiled) LOL

During all that, if that wasn’t amazing enough. The Lord blessed me even more! From April to now. I have been listening to this lady named Joy  Enriquez ,her album “The Call”. During all of April, May, June and July I just could not stop listening to this album. Then when my medical issues started getting worse and I went through that whole NG tube thing that I mentioned to you all in the last blog I wrote. ( Link to previous blog ) her album was a huge part of what got me through all that.  Like I told you all in the last blog. That whole experience was intense and was definitely a struggle for me to not only get through but get over. And after all that went down I had a lot of sleepless Nights, and a lot of time where I just spent one on one time with God. Because I was like Wow ok Lord what the heck just happened? Did I really go through all that? And why? I had a lot of  unanswered questions and truthfully a lot of anger in me. I was very angry that the Lord didn’t do anything to stop all that from taking place. I felt like he just sat back and let all that happen. But like I said in the last blog. He gave me the answers I so desperately needed to understand all that, and as I said before, I did make my peace with it all. So I’m not going to repeat myself and explain all that again, but  for those who did not read my previous blog. Go read it and hear about all the things God brought me through.

Joy Enriquez album “The Call” was a huge blessing for me and almost was like a form of therapy. The majority of the songs on that album are all about trials and how we may be weak but he is strong. After I realized how much that album blessed and impacted me. I said: ok Lord I have to get this woman’s attention and I have to feature her on my website.

Theres a song called “Conquer” off her album and OMG (Oh my gosh) I felt like that entire song was just the story of my life right now. I mean the first two paragraphs of the song are this.

 My feet may fail, but you won’t let them hit the ground
And I know you’re there, ev’n when the doubts in my head gets too loud, too loud
Oh fight after fight I would pray, I would say there’ll be better days up ahead
But night after night I’m amazed at your grace I was saved by faith and now I stand.Brighter than the fire I’m fighting
Higher than the mountain I’m climbing
Shout louder than the thunder, I’m stronger
No matter what I’ll conquer, I will conquer
Brighter than the fire I’m fighting
Higher than the mountain I’m climbing
Shout louder than the thunder, I’m stronger
No matter what I’ll conquer, I will conquer.

Thats just the beginning of the song “Conquer”, but look the rest up its beautiful. Then there’s another song called “Walking on Water” and of course the song I feature in the interview, “Shelter” and their all about when the storms rage don’t worry because he’s got you. So let whatever happen because he has the final say. These songs were truly what got me through these past few Months. Because I’ll be honest there were times I was not sure I could keep doing this. My body was (and still is) exhausted and there were so many Nights I just kept crying out to God, looking for answers. And I’d put on these songs and they would minister to me so much. And every time when I’d get done listening I’d realize. I’m ok because I don’t need to know all the answers. All I need to know is that when I call on him he’s going to be there. My life story is all living proof that when you call on him and surrender to his will and just trust. I know I say that in my blogs so much, but that truly is what it’s all about TRUST. (Proverbs 3:5-6) Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

When you fully surrender to his will and fully understand how to have a child like heart, and trust God like that. I promise you, every bit of anger, exhaustion and fear, will just melt away. Because when you trust like that he’s going to come running with open arms, and he’s going to take whatever negative feelings your having and wipe them away.

Our problem is we want to analyze everything to much and we expect to much. We have it in our heads the way we think our lives our supposed to go and the Minute that vision gets rattled a little bit. We don’t know how to react, what to do or where to turn. (John 15:16) You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. I think that scripture sums it up pretty well don’t you?

I got side tracked so let me reign this in LOL. After the Lord used these songs to minister to me I knew I had to contact Joy. But after I did research on her and realized how big she was and all that she’s accomplished. I’ll be honest I was a little intimidated and thought. There is no way a lady in her position is going to take someone like me serious LOL. There’s no way she even has time for me. Not only is she this huge singer who as a kid was on Star Search, but has also been on numerous other tv shows/movies. I mean the first picture I found when doing my research. Was her posing with Smokey Robinson. Let’s not forget who her husband is too. He’s a huge Producer and song writer himself and has worked with numerous, very well known artists like, Mariah Carey, Whitney Houston, Beyoncé, Justin Bieber, Janet Jackson, Michael Jackson, Mary J Blige.  I mean that is just a few of the people he’s worked with. So why in the world would his wife and himself want to allow little ol me, not only interview her, but also feature her music on my site.

It’s a lot to get these people to trust you to let you use their songs. Because so many people in this world take this thing called the Internet for granted. And they take artists like her and plaster their songs all over the web. So for them to trust that I would not do that I know is big, and because she trusted me. If or when she reads this. I just want to say thank you. I never imagined you’d say yes to this interview. But then to also agree to allow me to interview you over the phone and not just through email, made it that much sweeter! The Lord definitely used you during this interview Joy, because it could not have come at a better time.

When I first contacted her like I said: I assumed shed agree to just interviewing her via email. I gave her the option to do skype or email, but I assumed shed choose email because only one other artist ever agreed to doing a Skype interview and honestly, well umm then that artist never showed up for the actual interview LOL. So I thought for sure a lady with her background would never allow anything more then a interview via email, and even that I thought was a long shot. But I believe Gods hands were on this and I believe Joy was obediant in allowing God to use her.

Because doing this interview taught me so much. When I realized who she really was. I so wanted to back out, because I was so imbaressed. I was like there is no way I can take up a lady as important as her time. She has 4 kids and this huge career and I’m just going to Facebook her and say: hey Im Jackie, I love music so can I interview you from my bedroom computer?? LOL. A little awkward don’t you think? LOL But the Lord has been pushing me to go out of my comfort zone a lot lately and I knew he was using this situation to do that once again. So as fearful as I was and as stupid as I felt I just kept telling myself, it’s ok you can do this, you can do this LOL. The good thing was once I got on the phone with Joy Enriquez I realized right away that she had a heart of GOLD and my fears were put at ease the second we started talking. (The only fear left at that point was my fear of Cameras LOL).

Ok that was the good stuff for August, now the bad stuff. As I briefly mentioned earlier  in this blog. I have been struggling with a lot of medical issues. As I think I mentioned in a previous blog. I have a pocket of fluid that keeps forming in my belly. That pocket of fluid along with a few other issues in my belly keep making me very sick. I keep getting extremely nauseated and can barely eat, and I  have extreme headaches. You see what’s happening is. Like I told you all before, my body may be small but all my organs are 30 year old organs. Plus I have a lot of major deformities (severe Scoliosis)  and then on top of that. I still have a huge amount of scar tissue that’s basically destroying my stomach and everything in that area. so in a nutshell everything is literally being crushed! Everything’s so overcrowded now that there isnt any room for my shunt to function properly. Remember the Shunt is what drains the Cerebrospinal fluid that continually builds up in and around my brain. The Shunt sucks that fluid up and drains it out into my stomach. But because there is literally no room left in my stomach. The fluid is now getting stuck in all the scar tissue, and is basically forming its own Bubble or Shell (pocket of fluid).

So the big question now is. If I’m running out of room in my own body to even hold a thin tube, then what do I do?? I have a few options it’s not a completely hopeless situation, nor is it a death sentence. But at the same time, the options that are available to me are very risky. I’ll be honest none of the options are good options and it’s all scary to think about. But at the same time, that’s what my entire life has been about, “Scary situations”. Like I told my family and primary Doctor. I’m not going to avoid what I need to do just because it’s scary or dangerous. My entire life has been about danger. So I will keep fighting, praying and believing, and will continue to figure out the smartest and safest way to treat all this. But at the same time, I’m not just going to sit on my hands avoiding the big questions and do nothing. I haven’t done that in 30 years so I will not start now!

The 30 curse! a lot of people do not know this, but in the world of OI (Osteogenesis Imperfecta) 30 is thought of as a “curse”. Because not only do the majority of people not even see 30, but the closer they get to it, and the ones that achieve it, go through hell! (Excuse the H word can’t think of any other word to use LOL) I have had so many conversations with both men and woman asking me aren’t you worried about turning 30? Aren’t you scared your bones are going to get weaker, or your going to get sicker? The answer I have is no, I’m not scared of any of that. The reality is yes I am following in those foot steps. I mean look at all the medical issues I just told you guys about. So I’m not going to deny that yes the older I get the more challenging things become, but why does that make me special? That’s life. The older anyone gets the more challenging life gets. I choose to not let OI take anymore then it already has, I choose to look at 30 as an accomplishment and blessing, not a curse.  And whatever challenges I face along the way, I choose to look at that as being life. You have your ups and your downs, your joys and sorrows. I choose to not look for an escape goat, and instead face things head on. Because through Christ I can do all things and with him comes victory. (Deuteronomy 20:4)  For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.” So when you read scriptures like that and when you know Your covered by the blood and know that when he died for you he not only saved you, but broke any curse that was ever placed!

Just keep fighting and moving forward. LIke  I said before, we have it in our heads how we imagine our life to go, but it’s not about what we want. It’s about him and the more we accept that, the easier life’s going to be. (Jeremiah 29:11) For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 I promise you if you keep fighting and trusting him, you will achieve victory. I’m going to leave you with this last scripture verse (Job 23:10) But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as GOLD. (Thank you Pasor Fah for that verse😜)

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TIME (Part 2)

May 5, 2016

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JEREMIAH 29:13

YOU WILL SEEK ME AND FIND ME WHEN YOU SEEK ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART.

Hi all. We have a lot to go over so I apologize right off the bat for writing such a long blog LOL. So oh boy where do I begin??  LOL. Well first of all I’d like to apologize for not getting the second part of this blog out sooner. I know I had promised you in the last blog that the next One would be written within Two Weeks. Well that Two Weeks turned into a whole Month, almost Two Months LOL.

I do apologize for that, but sadly I have a good excuse, and the reason I say sadly is because. My excuse for getting this blog out so late is. I was recently rushed to the Hospital, and ended up being there for Six Days. I’ll try to make this story short, but for those who do not know what happened.

Two Weeks after I wrote my last blog article I ended up going to the Doctors because I started to develop some really bad headaches. This wasn’t the first time I’ve gone through this, actually I been going through this for about a Year now. My Shunt, which is the tube that sucks the large amount of fluid that continually builds up around my brain (the thing that treats the Hydrocephalus) basically It keeps getting clogged. Between everything being naturally overcrowded from the Osteogenesis Imperfecta, and then also the large amount of scar tissue and adhesions that I have building up in my belly. It all just became to much for my stomach to handle. What’s happening is, between the scar tissue and my body eing naturally overcrowded. It’s all interfering with my Shunt.

What my Shunts supposed to do is suck the fluid up and then release it in to my stomach. But the issue I’m having is once the shunt sucks the fluid up and goes to empty in to my stomach. Some of it is not reaching my stomach and is getting stuck at the tip of my Shunt, and that then is basically forming its own little water balloon sort of speak. This all is causing me to get sick and have extreme headaches. We thought we figured out a solution that was easier then replacing the Shunt, because replacing the Shunt is major surgery.

The solution was to go in every few Months and have a Doctor perform a procedure. Where they would insert a needle into my belly. Where they then would suck up the bubble of fluid (abscess) that keeps forming. This most recent procedure ended up not going as planned though. This was now my Third time going through this same procedure. So I thought I had it in the bag. I even told my Mom that Morning, that this procedure was as easy as getting my Teeth cleaned. Boy was I wrong, and I should have known better then to say that. 

When the Doctor was in the midst of doing the procedure I felt this burning sensation that I had never felt before.  but as fast as I felt it, it was gone. So I did not think much of it, and went on with my Day. When I went home and as my Day went on. I did start to also question how sore I felt. But again I did not think much of it and ignored everything. Then about 7:00 that Night I started to feel this major, I mean major rush of sharp pains continually go through my stomach.

At that point I didn’t know what to do. Deep down I knew something bad was happening but yet I kept telling myself I was over thinking things, and that I needed to stop acting like a baby and realize I was fine, I was indeed not fine though. Even though I was not nauseated in that moment and had more pain then anything else. I still felt we were headed down a dangerous road, and knew deep down that I needed a Doctor. I was trying to ignore it because I did not want to go to the ER at 10:00pm at Night, I hate going to the ER, especially at Night.

So I decided to suck it up and try waiting till Morning before fully freaking out. But I knew deep down something was happening. So that Night I asked my Mom if we could sleep in the Livingroom. Which I think confused her because even though I was in pain, I wasn’t nauseated. 

The only time I ever want my Mom to sleep next to me is when I’m nauseated. So the fact I wanted her to sleep next to me was hard to understand, and honestly I didn’t even understand why I wanted that. But I knew I did, and knew the Lord was guiding me to do that.

Thank GOD I listened because at 3:00AM I immediately opened my eyes and just started puking my guts up. I don’t mean to get graphic on you all. But that honestly was the worst I’ve felt in Years! I never threw up the way I did that Night. Every time I think about it now all I can do is just say THANK YOU JESUS. Because I have no doubt in my mind the Lord saved me that Night. I was throwing up so much, so fast that I would of never had time to call my Mom if I had slept alone. I have no doubt that if my Mom wasn’t there I would have choked to death. Because of the fact that I cannot hold my head up on my own.

This isn’t fully confirmed yet, but by the looks of my tests. The Doctors think that the Doctor who performed my procedure may have accidentally nicked my bowel or intestines. Thankfully I did not need Surgery and it healed on its own. Although the bad news is that I needed what’s called a NG tube put down me.

NG tubes are GOD awful. It was the first One I ever had and I promise you it will be my last LOL. Basically what a NG tube is, is this big tube that goes down your nose past your throat and all the way to the stomach, it feeds you and cleans you out. It was definitely the most intense thing I’ve ever had done to me while being fully conscious.

I got through it all though and after being in the Hospital for Six Days I was sent home. My only struggle now is. The NG tube kind of irritated my lungs. So if you all could pray that my lungs start to recover id appreciate it.

Ok now that I told you my horror story for the Week, let’s get down to business. What was the question I left you all with in the last blog? Anyone remember???  My question was. If JESUS paid the price for all our sins and If he set us free. Why don’t we always feel like were living in freedom?  That’s a Biggy I know and there are so many explanations for why we feel like that at times.  But I was listening to a really good teaching by a Pastor, a lot of you may know of him. The guy’s name is Louie Giglio.

He was giving a teaching called, it’s never to late for a comeback. He pointed out that 99.9% of the bible is about stories and people making a comeback. There are so many stories in the bible that represent heartache, confusion, anger, hopelessness, carelessness, and pain. Most of the stories are about people who struggle between their flesh and what they want for themselves, and what the LORD wants for them. This Pastor pointed out how it’s always us who are fighting the will of GOD.

You know a lot of times I tell people. It’s sad because we start looking at the Lord like he’s this genie in a bottle. Like all he’s good for is to grant our wishes, or excuse me I mean “prayers” LOL. a lot of people also lose sight in what being a Christian means, and even the whole sinners prayer thing.

The One thing non believers will ask is. What’s the point of living a biblical lifestyle if all we have to do is say the sinners prayer to be saved. Why can’t we do what we want and then just say the sinners prayer daily to protect or “save” ourselves?  Good question and truthfully I kind of agree. Why do we need to live a biblical lifestyle if all we have to do is pray, and things will magically fix themselves.

I’d love if that were true, but here’s the thing people forget or lose sight of. We’re not just focusing on the destiny we can achieve in Heaven. We also need to focus on the destiny and the kingdom we can achieve here on Earth. And our “sinful behavior” does not just effect our destiny in Heaven but it effects our destiny that we can have here on Earth.

I hear so many Christians say: I can’t wait for the Day the Lord calls me home so I can finally have my castle or my dreams, and wishes granted. I am sorry, but I think that’s just so sad to hear Christians say. Because we should not be looking forward to the rapture or death to achieve our dreams. Yes I can’t wait till the Day the Lord calls me home, but it’s not because of the rewards I think I’m going to get in Heaven. I can’t wait till he calls me home so that I can finally spend my Days praising/worshiping him, and also see my loved ones who have gone before me.

Every choice we make affects our future. The bible says in (Jeremiah 17:10) “I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward each person according to their conduct, according to what their deeds deserve.” I hear so many people crying and questioning why this or that isn’t happening for them. Why do I feel stuck? Why isn’t the Lord using me? Why can’t I achieve the kingdom that every Christian brags about? Those are all good questions and we all have a right to ask them.

But we all have to remember it goes back to that word the Lord gave me about TIME. What we choose to focus our TIME on can greatly affect our destiny. We always think the only thing that can affect our destiny is if we’re “saved” but it’s about so much more then that. Being a Christian is about more then just praying the sinners prayer. It is about the condition of ones heart.

That Pastor that I meantioned earlier started talking about a guy named Samson. It’s a story from the book of judges. It talks about how a Woman (Samsons Mom) desired to have a baby so badly, and she had prayed and believed for One for years. Till finally One Day an Angel of the Lord came to her and told her. Her prayers would be answered, and she would soon have a baby Boy. That baby Boy was obviously Samson, and the bible says Gods hands were on Samsons life from the Day his Mom became pregnant with him. God had a huge destiny in store for Samson. Samson was like no other man, God blessed him with a supernatural strength. It says at One point that this man killed 30 men all on his own. He did so many other incredible things, it is kind of unbelievable all the things this man was capable of.

But even though he was blessed with this supernatural power, and even though he had a great relationship with God. It still was not perfect. There was One downfall Samson had. He had a little bit of a wondering eye, and even though he was blessed by God, his desires for woman and sex were stronger then his desire for God.

One Day Samson met this beautiful woman who kind of in a way hypnotized him. His desires for her distracted him from the will of God. Even though there were signs everywhere proving that Samsons new wife was up to no good. Samson did not see it.

Delilah was Samsons wife’s name, and she was all about Money. And at that time there was a army that was after Samson. Because they were dying to figure out how Samson was so strong, and once they figured out Samsons weakness was woman they sent Delilah in Samsons path.

Samson fell for their trap and after a short time Delilah finally got him to admit what made him so strong. For those who don’t know the story. His strength had to do with his hair. His entire life he had never cut his hair because God told him that’s what made him strong. Of course once Delilah and the army of men that were after Samson figured all this out. Delilah snuck in his bedroom while he was asleep and cut all his hair off!…

Of course when the army stormed in Samson tried to fight them off but sadly he was defeated. His supernatural power was gone! He was no longer in the will of God. And anyone who looses their path and isn’t in Gods will knows life can get scary and doors open for bad things to happen. Bad things happened to Samson, they locked him up, beat him and even gouged his eyes out, and he lived the rest of his Days in the dark. But during his storm, peace and mercy appeared. Even though Samson put his earthly desires before God, God still forgave him. Not only did he forgive him but he also gave him his power/strength back! Samson had such an amazing gift and because of that gift he had such an amazing future ahead of him, but because Samson took for granted his powers. His life and his TIME on earth were cut short. God may have forgiven Samson but because of the choices he made, those choices affected the future and destiny that God originally had planned for him.

Whenever life don’t go our way our first excuse is that the devil is attacking us. But wait if Jesus is our Father, and if he paid the price, and if we our bought by the blood of Jesus. Then how is it possible for the Devil to even touch us? It’s possible because of the choices we make. Yes the Devil is real and his job is to kill and destroy, but were supposed to be free and untouchable, and were supposed to have authority over all Evil. So if were untouchable how can the Devil touch us?  He can because our choices affect our future and when we focus on us and not him (Jesus) that’s like opening a door and telling the Devil welcome to my home come right in LOL.

We have to be smarter, we have to stop worrying about our needs and our desires. Our desires are the main thing that get us all in trouble. We always assume we know what we need more then God. We have to have faith that the Lord knows what we truly need long before we know what we need.

(Psalms 5:10-12) Declare them guilty, O God! Let their intrigues be their downfall. Banish them for their many sins, for they have rebelled against you. But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you. Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

TIME is short, we are only here for a moment, if you blink you will miss your chance. Don’t worry about your desires because I promise you the future the Lord has in store for you is much greater then anything you can imagine.

When he died it was for us, for our sins, our pain, our heartache, he died for all that and more. Every battle you go through remember he paid the price for that. So don’t worry about it, you have already won because in him we have victory.

People ask me all the time how I can truly be happy living the life I’m living. They ask me all the time how I can be in as much pain as I’m in and live my life in hospitals and always sick but yet be as happy and joyful as I am? How can I not be angry and depressed? How can I not feel like the Lord failed me? They say there’s so many things I can’t experience because of the diseases I battle. But here’s the thing, I don’t look at anything that way. I don’t feel like there’s anything I’m missing out on, any dream I have. Sick or not, if I truly believe Jesus is my Father,which I do, and if I truly believe he won the battle, which I know he did, then how could I feel like he failed me?

When I was born I was told I would not live past ten days! I was told I may never speak or read. Death was spoken over me in more ways then just a physical death. My parents were told I’d basically be nothing. But they didn’t focus on the Doctors prognosis. They focused on the word of God and believed that in him we’d have victory.

(Matthew 6:25-34) “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

This scripture is basically saying don’t dwell on the useless, petty  invaluable things. Because God is greater then anything this world has to offer. If we truly start focusing our TIME on him, and truly start believing that we truly do have victory in him, then anything can be possible. Don’t ever say any things impossible or that you can’t do something because that’s a lie. You can do all things through Christ.

So truly believe that. So many people know that scripture verse but do they truly believe it? Do we truly believe that through him we can do anything? I said anything!! Anything is possible so start believing that and start truly trusting in the destiny he has for you and remember when feelings of doubt or hopelessness start to take over. Remember he paid the price for that exact moment that your in.

Whatever your battling today. Remember to surrender to his will because he has you right where he wants you. It’s funny because when I was doing research for this article I came across this YouTube video, and the name of the video was. If God brought you to it he will bring you through it. The Minute I seen that headline I knew it was God speaking to me. It was like my own personal little note from the Lord confirming that this was what I was supposed to be writing on this week LOL.

Even if your going through the worse pain of your life, remember your in that place for One of Two reasons. One because the choices you made in your life brought you to that place, or Two because God himself put you in that place. So he can build you up to be the strong men/woman of God he knows you can be. When he looks at us he sees our soul, he sees the real us. So don’t try fighting him because he knows parts of us that we don’t even know exsisted.

There is a song that I heard by Hillary Scott. She’s actually One of the singers from Lady Antebellum, and she has this song (it’s listed in the top of this article) She literally just released this when I was writing this article, and the song is called Thy Will. It is a beautiful song and it blessed me so much, and I just knew I had to share it with you all. So please watch the video above. More importantly focus on the words to this song because there beautiful.

Ok that’s all I have for today now it’s on to the announcements, then I promise I am done LOL again so sorry for writing another long blog. Ok the first announcement is I’m pretty much done writing my book. So now it’s on to the raising money stage. As I said from the start of this journey, to publish this book and get it to where I want it. Will cost me over $10,000, and me not being able to fully work and being on a fixed income. Obviously $10,000 will not be easy to afford. But with God and with an amazing loving group of people like you, I know we can make this possible.

I know if I truly trust in him and allow him to take the wheel it can and will happen.  But there’s a few things I have do in order to achieve my goal. One of the things I feel the Lords guided me to is the Patreon website. I had told you all in the past that I may do a Kickstarter /indiegogo campaign. But once I set it up and was looking at it. I truly felt like it just wasn’t supposed to be part of Gods plan.

So I just sat on it for awhile and kept praying, then One Day I was directed to the Patreon website. Basically it’s a website for anyone who has a creative, artistic way about themselves. You direct people to your page and they sign up and commit to giving you a certain amount of money each month to help you achieve your goal. I’m looking at it as  you all signing up to a partnership.

Anyone who signs up will get a bunch of rewards. There’s different levels of the partnership. Like the person who gives $20 a month will get more then the person who gives $10. I have already thought of some really great things for you all to receive if you join my patreon page.

All who join are basically going to be my “board” sort of speak LOL. You all are going to help me finish creating this book. For anyone who joins. You not only will get a sneak peak of the book, but you also are going to help me finish writing it.

For anyone who joins. I want you to give me your opinion on things you want to see in the book and also give ideas on what you want me to write here on the-book-of-roo blog. You all will get to help me pick the cover for my book, and you will get to give your opinions on how I should publish it.

Also as a thank you the first two people who commit to giving the largest amount will get a painting from me, not just any painting, a painting that I myself created. You all will also get little gift cards and other surprise gifts here and there and also for all my patreons. I will do a vlog once a Month, just for my patreons though. Anyone who knows me, knows making a vlog will be One of the hardest things I’ve ever done, because I have a huge fear of cameras LOL. But I’m willing to get beyond my fears for you all, because your support means the world to me. And I truly feel if I could get even Ten people to commit to giving a donation each Month, then we can easily make this happen. The link to my Patreon page will be listed below. It’s very easy to join just follow the step by step instructions.

My second announcement is. The-book-of-roo finally got its own PO BOX. Which means anyone who wants to contact me or mail me anything (like a donation) LOL, you now can! I know a lot of my followers do not have or know how to work PayPal and were upset that it was my only way to receive donations. And I know a lot of you guys wanted to give but didn’t know how to reach me, well now you have no excuse LOL. I have a PO BOX now, so all you have to do is send me whatever you want to that address, and I promise I will receive it. Please remember though if you send a check, write it out to cash or Jacqueline Yafanaro. Do not write it out to the-book-of-roo. The PO BOX address is listed below.

My Third announcement is that I am also selling a small amount of Jewelry. A very sweet Lady sent me a very generous donation. It’s a large package of very nice, expensive Jewelry called Premiere Designs. This lady worked for Premiere Designs and used to sell for them and recently stopped and was left with Two brief cases filled with this Jewelry. So she decided to give it to me to sell for my website and book. So how I’m going to do this is list One item a Week. I will auction off One item a Week on Facebook, and also for those who do not have Facebook, don’t worry I’ll also post it on my Roo’s Treasures page here on the-book-of-roo (it’s located on the right hand side of this website). You all then can look at the products and see if there’s anything you want to bid on. You can pay using PayPal or send a check to my PO BOX.

My last announcement is. Tomorrow is WISHBONE DAY!!! (O.I AWARENESSS/OSTEOGENESIS IMPERFECTA AWARENESS DAY) I am selling O.I CAN DO ALL THINGS wristbands for $5.00 50% of the proceeds go to the O.I foundation.. You can purchase these wristbands in one of two places. You can go to my THE-BOOK-OF-ROO Facebook page and click on the shop button where then you will see them. Or you can go to ROO’S TREASURES page and that’s located on the right hand side of this website. It is listed right under the main pages tab and right above MY LIFE AND WHO I AM tab.

I also want to say HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to all the Moms out there and especially to my Mommy. You are amazing, you have given your all to me and I am so thankful for you. I love you ❤️

Patreon link: https://www.patreon.com/Thebookofroo?ty=h

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4496 Mahoning Avenue #911 Youngstown, OH 44515

THATS IT FOR TODAY. THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST. BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ALSO ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY. JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 😇 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY. SO IF YOUR FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO JUST CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM, THATS IT. PLEASE KNOW I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN. GOD BLESS. I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU. KEEP ON SHINING ❤️

 

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TIME!!!!

March 21, 2016

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REVELATION 3:11 

I AM COMING SOON. HOLD FAST WHAT YOU HAVE, SO THAT NO ONE MAY SEIZE YOUR CROWN.

 

Hi all. I hope everyone’s had a good few Months and I’m sorry I haven’t touched base, but like I said from Day One. I never want to write things just to fill space. I always want to make sure I’m writing things that I know are coming from my heart and more importantly the LORDS heart.

Over the past few Months he honestly has been laying things on my heart to write about but I just never felt it was for me to do right in that moment. The best way for me to describe it is.  I felt like over the past few Months he was gradually painting this picture, and at first it may have looked weird and distorted but little by little, piece by  piece it all started to come together and formed itself in to this beautiful masterpiece.

So the question your all probably wanting answered is, what did he show me right? LOL.  What he showed me was the word TIME!!! As I wrote in my previous blog at Thanksgiving.  I not only was going through a lot of scary medical and personal battles myself.  But I also mentioned how I had a lot of friends who were going through some scary stuff themselves, and to be totally honest.  I am sorry to report that not only did One of those people I had mentioned back in November lose their life.

But I also had another friend. Who like me battled Osteogenesis Imperfecta and she lost her life too. Then there was also a 16 Year old Girl who lost her life to Osteogenesis Imperfecta just this past Week.  To be totally honest though the LORD started showing me stuff on TIME long before my friends had passed. Their passing only accelerated what the LORD had already started showing me.

Really this whole idea of TIME started entering my mind when I was writing my book.  Sitting there and not only thinking about all the battles I’ve overcome. But then also thinking about how I was coming up on my 30th Birthday. And how at One time thinking of me being 30 was nearly impossible to imagine.

And during all that, and during a time where I was already thinking I’m blessed.  And thankful for the TIME I’ve had, in the midst of me thinking all that. These people that I mentioned had passed away and then the real smack in the face came. The thing that made me realize more then anything how not only meaningful TIME is, but also how fast it passes us by.

The thing that made me realize more about TIME then anything. Was a phone call my Mom received.  It was my Brother on the line and he was all upset and he explained that his Wife’s Brother had just passed away.  He was not much older then I am and no he was not sick.

I will be honest, I did not know him that well, but his passing made me realize the meaning of TIME more then anything else I had previously mentioned.  Which I know is crazy.  You think someone like me, who is already categorized as “terminally ill” and who has overcome death more times then I care to think of.  Would have already realized the importance of TIME more then anyone in this world right?

Well in a way of life course I did always know.  But I feel this gave me the smack in the head I needed.  Sitting at all these Funerals watching these people bury their loved ones was extremely hard.  I know what it is like to lose someone you love. I have lost my Uncle who was only in his early 50s and I not only lost my Grandparents but I also sat with them during their final Hours, especially my Grandnother. I basically watched her die. Which was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, and again that’s saying a lot for me because I’ve been through a lot LOL.

But thankfully I have never had to feel what it is like to lose a Sibling or a Son or Daughter, or Spouse. Please don’t get me wrong and don’t take what I’m about to say next out of contex, and before I even say it. Please know I’m not trying to belittle anyone’s pain of loss.

But in my opinion losing a Spouse, Child or Sibling is probably the worse kind of pain a person can go through. And sitting there at Two different Funerals.  Where at One I’m watching a Man bury his Wife after an extremely long, hard but also very sweet battle. And then just Weeks later having to go through that all over again. But this time watch a Mother grieving for her Son. Looking around the room and seeing all these young men grieving their just as young friend, I can honestly tell you all. There is nothing in this world that could prepare you for that.

And then also sitting there and looking at all these same people and realizing that their all the people who have been holding me up in prayer for Years and realizing that their prayers took part in keeping me alive. There’s just no words to even describe what that’s like. I mean even the lady that I mentioned who passed. She had known me since I was not even 10 Years old and She had prayed for me daily. And now I’m sitting in a room watching all her loved ones say goodbye. And then thinking about all the Years my Brother feared loosing me and yet now he’s sitting there burying his Brother in law, again there are just no words to describe that.

I have always been prepared for the TIME the LORD comes to take me home. I do not look at that as a negative or scary thing. We all have a TIME limit, we all have a TIME that the LORDS going to come for us.  Please don’t take what I’m saying the wrong way. Don’t think I’m sitting here waiting to die or even thinking about death. Because I’m not, that’s the farthest thing from my mind. I focus on life not death. But what I’m saying is we do have an expiration date and I think we choose to ignore that at times. And please know I’m not saying that to scare anyone or depress anyone.

But during all these trials the one thing that kept running through my mind was TIME…

We forget the importance of TIME and most importantly we forget the importance of LIFE. There is no better TIME to remind you all of the importance of TIME and the importance that each one of our lives play in this world.

We are not put on this earth just to be here or just to enjoy the things that it has to offer. Each and every one of us are here for a reason, for a purpose. We are not put on this earth just to have “fun” we are put here to make a difference.  To be a light in the dark.

Some people take certain things I say the wrong way and think at times that I’m harsh or judge mental or a “kill joy”. I’m not any of those things, but when your someone like me who has fought with everything they have just to breathe. You not only realize the importance of TIME. but also I think the LORD gifts people like me with the eyes to see others more clearly and when I see the potential that certain people have and the gifts they have to make a difference, but yet are wasting that gift.  It kills me and I just want to take those people and shake them to their core and tell them WAKE UP TIME IS RUNNING OUT.

Romans 13:11-14 says: And do this, understanding the present TIME: The Hour has already come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed. The Night is nearly over; the Day is almost here. So let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light. Let us behave decently, as in the Daytime, not in carousing and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and debauchery, not in dissension and jealousy. Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.

Ignore what the flesh is saying. Let’s all stop letting our desires take over. Let JESUS take over our heart. You think he wanted to be nailed to a Cross and tortured for Days?? Of course he didn’t, but he didn’t think about what he wanted. He knew his life had a purpose. He knew if he trusted in GODS plan and his destiny then he’d be taken care of. He had FAITH, FAITH in GOD and in the destiny that GOD told him was possible.

Were in a generation where everyone is so selfish.  It’s all about me and my needs. It’s   TIME for us to stop worrying about us and worry about LIFE, the true meaning of LIFE and the purpose for us all being here. Again we all have a destiny and a purpose. We all can make an imprint on this world if we just stop worrying about ME.

JESUS made the most of his 33 Years on this earth. It may have not been long, but he made the most of every Second he had. Because he knew the importance of trusting in GOD and also the importance in “TIME” he ignored his flesh and because of that, because of the sacrifice he made. We are able to live in freedom!

By the way I know the video above may look familiar to you all. You may remember I shared it in a blog a few Years back. As you all know I usually do not repost something on my site that I have posted in the past. But this video fit so perfectly with what I shared Today and truthfully I think we need to hear this video again. We need the reminder of how important life is and what we choose to focus our TIME on. And this video represents all that beautifully and the Minute I seen it I knew the LORD was saying to repost it. So please after or before you read this blog watch that video 😜

Why do I feel like I’m not living in freedom at times?? Good question and it’s one I’ll touch on in my next blog. There is so much the LORDS showing me on TIME and things of that nature and I can’t possibly write about it all in one blog. So what I plan on doing is making this into, let’s say a little mini series sort of speak hehehe😜  The next few Weeks I’ll keep writing on this kind of stuff so keep checking back. I do have a few announcements to share but since I wrote so much in Today’s blog and since I’ll be writing again in just a few short Days.  I figure it’s ok to wait and share my announcements in the next blog. So again keep checking back because I promise you will not want to miss these announcements….

THATS IT FOR TODAY. THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST. BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ALSO ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY.  JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 😇 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY. SO IF YOUR FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO JUST CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM, THATS IT. PLEASE KNOW I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN. GOD BLESS. I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU. KEEP ON SHINING ❤️

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A THANKFUL HEART

November 27, 2015

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2 CORINTHIANS 4:15-18

ALL THIS IS FOR YOUR BENEFIT, SO THAT THE GRACE THAT IS REACHING MORE AND MORE PEOPLE MAY CAUSE THANKSGIVING TO OVERFLOW TO THE GLORY OF GOD. THEREFORE WE DO NOT LOSE HEART. THOUGH OUTWARDLY WE ARE WASTING AWAY, YET INWARDLY WE ARE BEING RENEWED DAY BY DAY. FOR OUR LIGHT AND MOMENTARY TROUBLES ARE ACHIEVING FOR US AN ETERNAL GLORY THAT FAR OUTWEIGHS THEM ALL. SO WE FIX OUR EYES NOT ON WHAT IS SEEN, BUT ON WHAT IS UNSEEN. FOR WHAT IS SEEN IS TEMPORARY, BUT WHAT IS UNSEEN IS ETERNAL.

Hi all. I know I just wrote a blog not to long ago but I felt the Lord placing some things on my heart that I knew he was leading me to share with you all, and I thought there was no better time to write this than right now during Thanksgiving weekend.  I promise you all since I’m writing another blog so soon after the last one I will make sure this is short.

During Thanksgiving what is the one thing you hear constantly from people? You hear them talking about what their most thankful for right? if you go on any Twitter, Facebook, Insragram or any other social media page that is out there you will see their loaded with Thankfulness. Which don’t get me wrong it is awesome and I truly do love seeing that.

But my question is, why don’t we see that every day? Why do we need a holiday to express our thanks? Over the past two to three years I have not only gone through a lot in my own life but I have also watched many of my loved ones (family/friends) going through some of the worse and hardest battles you can ever imagine and many of these people have even lost their battles and even lives. I had over ten people with O.I alone who I called my friend whose lives were taken way to soon, and right now at this very moment. I know of another four people who are in the hospital as we speak fighting for their own lives. All that is not counting my own personal battles.

I know you all have to be sick of hearing me talk about this but Im going to again. I live my life never knowing where I am going to be or where life is going to take me. Am I going to wake up my normal happy Jackie self? or am I going to wake up sick? or worse am I not going to wake up at all? or am I going to wake up and learn I have new health issues that maybe I have never dealt with? or will I wake up to find another one of my friends lost their battle to O.I (Osteogenesis Imperfecta) or any disease. Don’t get me wrong I know this is stuff everyone in this world lives with, but for someone like me who is categorized as being terminally ill these kinds of issues, and struggles are multiplied, by like a million.

But my point to saying all that isn’t to get you to feel sorry for me or others in my shoes. My point to saying that is, I do not need a holiday to be reminded of the gifts that the Lord has given me. I am reminded 24/7 how precious life is, and how important it is, and how easily it could be taken away. Revelation 16:15 says: I come as a thief. Blessed is he that watcheth, and keepeth his garments, lest he walk naked, and they see his shame.

I am not here to judge or make anyone feel bad were all going to screw up, or “sin” were human. I am not here to point out all your wrongs, but the bible does say: Luke 21:34 Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with carousing, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you suddenly like a trap.  I may not be here to point out your wrongs, but I am here to remind you how short life can be. And to remind you that we are not put on this earth just to do what makes us “feel good”, we are put on this earth to be the best person we can be. We are not here to prove were perfect we are here to make an impact (imprint) on this world. We are here to be the light in the dark. 

You may think you have all the time in the world to do what you want in life but trust me you don’t. 1 Thessalonians 5:2 says: for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. So lets truly be thankful for life and show our appreciation for life. Not just by our words, but by our actions BECAUSE LIFE TRULY IS A PRECIOUS GIFT FROM OUR LORD. THATS IT FOR TODAY, THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST, BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ALSO ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY, JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 🙂 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY SO IF YOUR FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO JUST CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM, THATS IT.  PLEASE KNOW, I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN. GOD BLESS, I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU ❤
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DO WE REALLY HAVE EQUAL RIGHTS?? 

July 1, 2015

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 Romans 8:37-39

NO, IN ALL THESE THINGS WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS THROUGH HIM WHO LOVED US. FOR I AM CONVINCED THAT NEITHER DEATH NOR LIFE, NEITHER ANGELS NOR DEMONS, NEITHER PRESENT NOR THE FUTURE, NOR ANY POWERS, NEITHER HEIGHT NOR DEPTH, NOR ANYTHING ELSE IN ALL CREATION, WILL BE ABLE TO SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD THAT IS IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD.

 

Hi all sorry it’s been so long since I have wrote but I promise I haven’t forgotten any of you.  I have just been so busy, writing and publishing a book is not as easy as it looks LOL.  But before I get into all of that I’d like to first talk about what led me to write this blog.

As I’m sure you all have heard the Supreme courts have made same sex marriage legal in all 50 states!! Now before you all start rolling your eyes and start assuming I’m going to come at you in a biblical way don’t worry, calm it down because I’m not going to, at least I’m not going to right this second LOL.  Seriously though I usually don’t even bring this topic up, I usually avoid it like the plaque because I know people know my love for the bible,church and GOD and when people know that they usually get very judgmental and defensive and usually already have their swords up before I even say anything, but I’d like to warn you don’t waste your time getting in attack mode. This does not have to do with my biblical beliefs or what I think is right or wrong.  This has to do with society and how they shut their eyes to the disabled.  While everyone’s celebrating equal rights where’s ours??

I do believe what the bible says and the bible does clearly state marriage should be between man and woman just read Genesis 2:18-25 , and as the video I have above states our country was founded on the bible and biblical ways, but but even though I don’t agree with this ruling does not mean I hate the LGBT community. I am not here to be their judge what they choose is on them and me coming at them and smacking them in the head with the bible or scriptures or saying things to them that are judgmental and down right rude is not going to fix anything and if any Christian does go to attack these people or judge these people than you all are sinning just as much as they are.  So if we’re going to speak about the word and “sinful behavior” than get ready because I’m going to come down just as hard on you the “Christians” as I would anyone else in this country.  Also let me add I have many gay and lesbian friends so to any of you that read this please know this blog is not to attack you all I love and respect each of you just as much as I do any of my friends ❤

But like I said from the beginning I’m not going to debate the bible with you all.  You all know the bible just as well as I do and some of you may even know it better than I do so let’s not waste our breaths debating on what we think the word of GOD says, because we all have our own interpretation.  But why I’m writing this is because I read an amazing article on a disability website and I’ll actually put the link to that article at the end of this blog so you all can read it 🙂 the article was basically talking about how hard it is for us disabled people to get married,  Now when I say that some of you are probably thinking that I mean it’s hard for us to find someone to marry, but no that’s not what I mean at all.  Yes the LGBT got what they wanted and that’s awesome for them again I’m not here to attack them.

But all I keep seeing on TV, magazines, internet and every other social media outlet you can think of, is how because of this ruling we all have equal rights.  But that’s not necessarily true and what I’m about to point out I did not even realize myself till I read this article, I mean I knew this information but yet it didn’t really click in my brain till I read the article, and what that information was is the fact that the statement of saying we have equal rights is not true, not true what so ever.  Because if it was true than people with disabilities would not struggle as much as we do.

What I mean by that is for us disabled people, the ones like me especially.  The ones who cannot work and who have to be on government programs.  If we fall in love and want to get married we basically have to choose between marriage or living.  For instance if I or someone like me were to get married and we married someone with a job we would lose everything, at least in most states this is true.  If I were to marry, and don’t freak out people because I’m definitely NOT!!!! I am not insane LOL. But for pretend let’s say I was. I would lose most or all my medical insurance, I’d lose any extra programs like home health care., because for someone like me in order for me to be able to just get out of bed and get fed I’d have to have a nurse because  remember I am totally wheelchair bound and my spouse would not be able to care for me because he’d have to obviously go to work. I’d also lose help with things like money for food, I’d also lose ssi If I didn’t totally lose that I guarantee it be cut down to almost nothing. I’d also lose help with medical equipment, things like oxygen, feeding tubes, medicines, ramps, wheelchairs. Walkers.  These are all things people in my shoes would lose or at least struggle to get if they married a healthy hard working person.  And to lose these things would basically be like loosing our life because without this stuff we would not survive.  So as I said in the beginning does this seem fair?? And more importantly does this seem equal??

Ok now that I’ve said all I had to say about that lets update you on how I and the book is doing LOL.  The book GOLD is doing awesome I am officially done writing it and now am in the editing stage!! I have been a very busy little bee these past few months LOL.  Not only did I finish writing the book but I also did research and figured out how much it will cost me if I published the book on my own, and honestly it’s looking like I’m going to have to go that route because it’s very hard to get a publishing company to say yes to publishing a book especially if your a first time writer like myself.

So if I were to publish this book myself it would cost me anywhere from.  You ready for this?? $10,000-$12,000 when I seen those numbers I think my eye balls popped out of my head for a brief moment LOL.  But even though I know it will cost that much it still does not mean I am giving up, there is no way, (in you know where) I’d give up now.  I did not spend three years of my life writing a book to place it on my shelf LOL.  So after I seen that number $10,000-$12,000 I said ok GOD what now?? And immediately I felt him telling me KICKSTARTER BABY LOL.  So that’s my goal this fall to get either a Kickstarter campaign going or a indiegogo campaign, their basically both the same just one may be a little cheaper than the other.

But the bottom line is I need to do something to raise some money and im not the type of person to take people’s hard earned money for nothing.  I am always the giver and I do not like having to ask for handouts, which is why I came up with the indiegogo campaign because it’s a way for me to raise money for my book but also give back.  So that is the plan this summer to organize the campaign and get some people to donate some prizes.  That includes my the-book-of-roo readers, if any of you own a business or sell a product please think about donating to my campaign I’m looking for anything, I know I have a few artists who read my stuff so signed CDs would be great. Hats, tshirt, posters, gift cards. Anything that could be given out as a indiegogo prize. If your not familiar with what a kickstarter or indiegogo campaign is than please google it to find out LOL.  Just so everyone knows I’m planning on starting this project in the end of September or mid November.

As far as me personally, like my health and stuff, I cannot complain I’m very blessed. Today I am celebrating one year since I’ve been admitted in to any hospital!!!! Thank you JESUS YOU ARE AWESOME. This is only the second time in my life I’ve been able to say I’ve made it an entire year without any admissions and honestly after the four year roller coaster I was on, with the whole scar tissue and adhesion mess. I truly thought I’d never get to Say I’m celebrating a year with no admissions ever again.  The first time I celebrated it, it was miracle in it self, but now to have done that again and after everything I had gone through. It’s beyond amazing and truly shows how awesome my GOD is and more proof of how powerful and faithful my GOD IS. Now here’s where I’m going preach to you LOL.  When people see miracles like me how could they ever Deny Christ??  I wasn’t supposed to live beyond ten days but here I am just one month shy of 29 years, it has not been easy but yet so worth it.  His grace is the answer.

My final update is that I have a second job LOL.  Besides my writing career I decided to give sales a try, so about three weeks ago I became a Jamberry consultant.  In case you do not know what Jamberry is, it’s a company that sells nail products particularly nail wraps.  All Jamberry products are all natural no chemicals so it’s all completely safe for everyone to use including kids.  The real reason I started this is not only to give me something more to do with my time because I like to stay busy and keep my mind occupied but I also decided to do this so that I could try making some extra cash to put towards the publishing of my book, so if there’s any ladies reading this and like to do their nails check out the link http://roostreasures7.jamberrynails.net.  And also keep checking my facebook consultant page https://www.facebook.com/roostreasures because besides selling the nail wraps I also create my own nail wrap designs and right now I am selling ones particularly for the book. Their called coming out gold and I’ve made them totally in honor of my book.  You all can also come up with your own designs or even your company or school logo just send me your idea or picture and I’ll make it and ship it out to you.  So don’t forget to check all that fun stuff out while your waiting for my campaign to start or book to come out.

THATS IT FOR TODAY, YOU WILL BE HEARING FROM ME AGAIN SOON I PROMISE BUT AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP ME AND MY BOOK IN YOUR PRAYERS AND THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR ALL THE PRAYERS, LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU THROW MY WAY EVERY DAY. PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AM HERE JUST STOP BY MY PRAYER PAGE, AGAIN THATS LOCATED ON THE RIGHT HAND SIDE OF PAGE 🙂 ALSO PLEASE KNOW JESUS LOVES YOU AND I DO TOO LOL ❤

P.S PLEASE REMEMBER EVEN THOUGH IM BUILDING A INDIEGOGO CAMPAIGN DOES NOT MEAN YOU HAVE TO WAIT TO GIVE.  IF YOU WANT TO GIVE NOW TO HELP SUPPORT MY DREAM OF PUBLISHING MY BOOK, OR EVEN GIVE TO JUST HELP KEEP THIS SITE GOING, BECAUSE TO RUN THIS SITE COST MONEY TOO,  SO IF ANY OF YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEND A DONATION TO SUPPORT MY WORK, NOW YOU CAN DO THAT BY CLICKING Donate Button with Credit Cards

here’s the link http://www.audacitymagazine.com/disabled-people-penalized-for-getting-married/ to the article I mentioned

THE GIFT OF LIGHT

December 20, 2014

 

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James 1:17

EVERY GOOD GIFT AND EVERY PERFECT GIFT IS FROM ABOVE AND COMES DOWN FROM THE FATHER OF LIGHTS, WITH WHOM THERE IS NO VARIATION OR SHADOW OF TURNING

 

 

Hi all sorry its been awhile since I have posted anything but am glad to be back and I kept my promise! There are two things I promised you all the last time I wrote, the first thing was, I promised to announce the name of my book and the second was I promised to make a video of me singing LOL.

Oh my was that hard to do, I liked singing in front of people when I was younger much better, when you are young you do not care how foolish you look LOL. But eventually I got out of my self centered ways and realized it didn’t matter how foolish I looked because it was not to honor you all (no offense) it was to honor my hero, my king of kings, my LORD JESUS CHRIST, and I thought what better christmas gift could I give not only you all but also him than to do the one thing I know he’s been begging me to do.

Also as I said in the video, the video that I pray you all watch. I am naming my book “O.I CAN DO ALL THINGS” and so like I said in the video I want to keep posting videos of things I have learned how to do over the years. to show that if we are strong minded and determined and allow GOD to be our guide, than we really can do all things .

Other than the book and the video, I would also like to talk about the holidays. Particularly Hanukkah and Christmas, and I know you are all thinking what the heck, why hanukkah?? you are not jewish, and you are right I am not  jewish LOL, but I do hold some of their traditions close to my heart.

And there are a few reasons as to why that is, number one I think some of their traditions are beautiful and the meaning behind some of them is even more beautiful, and number two I always want to honor Jesus, he is my father and just like I honor my natural fathers traditions I want to do the same for my spiritual one.

And the fact is my Abba father (Jesus Christ) was raised jewish and did follow their traditions, and I want to follow his heart and some of these traditions are a part of him, its really no different than what I do in the summer time with my earthly family. I dont think I have ever told you all this but, I come from a small italian neighborhood called the little italy neighborhood, besides it being an italian neighborhood filled with italian traditions it is also a very religious neighborhood and the majority of the people who live here are born and raised catholics, I am like the one percent who is not catholic LOL, but even though I am not catholic that doesn’t mean I don’t honor and respect them.

It also doesn’t mean I ignore their traditions, like every summer around my birthday, there is an italian/catholic festival (although they hate the word festival) they call it the feast of the assumption, and basically the way my grandmother always explained it to me is, its a day to honor and “bless” the blessed mother (marry, jesus mother) and even though I am not catholic, I still participate because it is a part of my heritage and a part of me, just like Hanukkah is, because jesus is a part of me and so that means his heritage is too.

Now don’t get me wrong I do believe there is a little difference between following some of my catholic ways compared to following some of the jewish ways, because, I mean this as respectfully as I can, but I do believe there is a small difference because out of all the catholic traditions I have not found as many biblical meanings to the things they do.

Where on the other hand I am finding biblical things every day that stands for jewish ways, I am just trying to give you a picture of JESUS background. And how we have a heritage through him just like we do our natural family.

Celebrating Hanukkah and lighting the menorah is a beautiful thing, it basically means I am not ashamed of my faith and I am going to light these candles and place them near my window for all the world to see that I am not ashamed of GOD and his light will always be shining in my household.

Look it all these scriptures about light, I don’t know about you but I always want his light shining in me and thru me. Matthew 5:16. Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven. John 8:12. Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.” John 12:35. Then Jesus said to them, “A little while longer the light is with you. Walk while you have the light, lest darkness overtake you; he who walks in darkness does not know where he is going. 

I know where I am going do you????

There are a billion more scriptures that mention light and more importantly GODS light, but the ones I listed above were my faves 🙂

Just a few short announcements than I am done, because I know the videos a teaching in it self so I did not want to write to long today. first announcement is, yes Sean Giachetti and I are doing heart of Christmas fundraiser again and we really need your help, the family were helping is a family of 8 and they truly need our help they have been thru a lot, I don’t want to go into, to much detail, because I am not sure what the family wants private or not, so I do not want to say anything that would betray their trust in me and especially in sean, hes the one whose been communicating with the families we help. I mostly just help raise the funds to help them LOL. They are good deserving people so lets bless them ok???  http://www.youcaring.com/help-a-neighbor/the-heart-of-christmas-2014/264361 

I will be starting a fund me page for my book O.I can do all things very soon, but if you would like to give something now you can at this link below Donate Button with Credit Cards

 

And Finally If you do not know what O.I stands for it stands for Osteogenesis Imperfecta, which is the disease I battle, If you would like to learn more about O.I and my life please click on the. MY LIFE AND WHO I AM TAB, which is located on the right hand side of this website. Or if you just want to learn about the disease in it self click on the link here. http://www.oif.org/site/PageServer 

please remember to watch and share my videos and website and thank you so much for supporting and blessing me. If you would like to experience feeling GODS light shining on you then just repeat this prayer.  

Dear Heavenly Father, I confess my sins ___________ and ask you to please forgive me. I accept and receive the precious gift of your son Jesus Christ who came to release me from the penalty of my sin by dying a brutal death on a cross so that I may know L.I.F.E. I believe I am now forgiven and that you remember my sins no more. I choose to forgive myself and to live and walk in freedom from guilt and shame. Today I choose to forgive those who have hurt me or offended me. I choose to Love like you. I choose to extend Mercy like yours. I choose to give Grace like yours. I trust you and believe you make All things work out for the Good for those who love you. I love you. Please take my brokenness and make me whole, take my sorrow and give me joy, take my pain and give me peace, take all my questions and give me wisdom. I’m ready to Fly in the Mighty name of Yeshua! Amen.

THATS IT FOR TODAY, YOU WILL BE HEARING FROM ME AGAIN SOON BUT AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP ME AND MY BOOK IN YOUR PRAYERS AND THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR ALL THE PRAYERS, LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU THROW MY WAY EVERY DAY. PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AM HERE JUST STOP BY MY PRAYER PAGE, AGAIN THATS LOCATED ON THE RIGHT 🙂 ALSO PLEASE KNOW JESUS LOVES YOU AND I DO TOO LOL ❤


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