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2020 HAS IT BEEN A BLESSING OR CURSE?

December 24, 2020

MATTHEW 2:10

WHEN THEY SAW THE STAR, THEY WERE OVERJOYED.

Hi all, long time no see. I been writing just not for this website/ blog LOL, I been working my butt off for my book it should be out around May, if all goes the way I’m hoping than around May 6th . Even though I been busy focusing all my spare energy on my book I did want to get one blog article in before this new year started. Especially since it’s been such an incredibly crazy, insane but yet great year!

I know a lot of people are probably rolling their eyes as they read this because your all probably thinking one of two things. Number one, I’m either blind to the chaos and pain our world and country is enduring, or number two, that I’m being rude, thoughtless and disrespectful by seeming like I don’t care about what everyone’s endured this year, and if I’m right and you are thinking those things, I’d like to set the record straight right now and say you are WRONG! you couldn’t be any more wrong! The thing is, yes I do see everything that is happening, EVERYTHING! Not just the pain and darkness but I see everything, the full picture.

And the full picture is we are far more blessed than we realize. I know there is not one person in this world and especially our country (USA) who hasn’t gone through their own personal version of hell this year. I know we all have felt like we just woke up one day and our worlds just crashed down around us, I get it, I understand it.

I have gotten several letters, especially from woman begging me to pray for them because they have lost their husbands to covid or their sibling or parent. I’m getting messages from people begging me to pray because their loved ones are on ventilators and they can’t be with them, I’ve had people even tell me how heart broken they were to have to watch their loved ones take their last breathes over a stupid smart phone or tablet because they couldn’t physically be with them, which to me, someone who has physically been at deaths door. I don’t know if I could have ever handled that as well as these people have. All I did this year was pray that God held me and that I didn’t end up sick, because I did not want to end up in a position like that. One of the things besides God that has kept me going during times like that is the love and support I’ve had from my family and friends and the fact that they were all physically there and able to surround my bedside with love. Having their love and support and having them to lean on is what gives me peace and I believe God has kept me safe this year because he knew all that.

I have also had people begging me to pray for them because their losing their business/jobs, or homes and people are scared because they can’t even put food on the table to feed their family and especially kids. These are just some of the heart breaking stories people have sent me. People are hurting, I get it, I feel it, but the thing that hurts me most is seeing how angry our world has become, how we’re all wanting to fight one another, and that’s so, so sad because here’s a news flash for you all. BEING THAT ANGRY AND HATING EACH OTHER IS ONLY GOING TO MAKE OUR LIVES THAT MUCH MORE DIFFICULT! Every time I have posted any postings that were joyful or optimistic I have gotten slammed with hateful comments and messages, it was getting so bad that after awhile I just stopped giving my opinion because I knew if I fought back with these type of people than I’d be stooping to their level and I knew God created me to be better than that. So for awhile now I haven’t said much on my pages, I’ve just prayed and loved on people.

This past week I opened my Facebook and seen all kinds of posts about the “Bright Star” On December 21. So I started doing research on what this meant, basically the way I understood it, Saturn and Jupiter align into a beautiful “bright star”, and what’s more incredible is some people believe this is what happened and is the star that shined over Bethlehem and over the exact location that Jesus was born and this star was how the wisemen found Jesus. By the way this phenomenon hasn’t happened and hasn’t been visible in 800 years, 800 YEARS PEOPLE!

Not only that but I don’t know if you all noticed but there has been several rainbow sightings caught on camera this year, much more than I’ve ever seen, and they all have been so beautiful and picture perfect! So by now you might be saying: ok Jackie that’s all sweet but what is your point? What does all my pain and heartache have to do with stars and rainbows?

My answer is, it has EVERYTHING TO DO WITH IT! the star was in a way our guiding light and we all know rainbows are a sign from God. When Noah built his ark and God flooded the earth and destroyed everything after it was all said and done God promised Noah he’d never allow that to happen again and he showed him a rainbow and said that the rainbow would be our symbol from God that he will never let us endure a flood that big again, he will never let us drown,

It took 800 years for Saturn and Jupiter to align just perfectly enough for the bright star to appear, not only that but the weather also had to be just right for it to become visible for us to see it! Do you not comprehend how amazing that is yet? Do you think it was a coincidence that God allowed that to happen in 2020 of all years! Of all years he chose to have it be visible this year! I believe he purposely set that star to shine this year to give us hope, to prove to us that he’s there guiding us, his star is guiding us. He is walking with us, he is hurting with us.

I know I’m going to get people that will say, well why couldn’t he just take our pain away instead? why couldn’t he just take covid away, or why couldn’t he just save my loved ones, or save my job at least, I’d much rather have that than some star. To all those people, I get it, I get your frustration, I get your anger, I get it, I really and truly do, but some times faith isn’t easy. Relationships in general are not easy, we all have stuff to learn about our friendships, our partners, our loved ones and people forget Jesus is our partner too. He is our friend just like our natural “earthly” friends are our friends and so we still have things to learn and we don’t have all the answers with Christ just like we don’t have all the answers with our natural friends. Relationships are hard, trust me I know lol, and the reality is our relationship with Jesus can be just as hard.

As some of you may remember from reading previous blogs I have many stomach/digestive issues and over the past few years those issues have become more difficult, gradually these issues have basically taken over my social life. When this all first started it took a lot out of me to go out, but I would not accept that I had to give certain things up. I felt if I kept pushing than eventually I’d be fine. I had jesus and so all I had to do was keep fighting and magically it would all get better. I kept going back and fourth to my Doctors crying out to them, begging them to do something, than when I was I want to say around 31-32 maybe (I’m 34 now), I went to a doctors appointment and in a nice way my Doctor basically told me it was time to suck it up and accept what was happening and face that there was nothing more they could do at that time, of course I’m paraphrasing it all and of course he’d never speak to me that rudely, but in his nice, sweet “Doctor” way I knew that’s what he meant, and the second he said it I knew in my heart he was right because the Lord had already started showing me that. So I remember after the Doctor spoke to me I went home and just prayed for days and I begged the Lord to work on my heart and show me what was happening, I remember I told him, I don’t understand this, I know I’m not dying but yet I feel so awful that I also wasn’t able to fully live! And that was starting to make me very angry.

So I asked the Lord, Lord why are you keeping me alive just to basically rot, because that’s what I felt I’d be doing at that moment in time if I couldn’t actually do things and enjoy life, but than the Lord spoke to me and started showing me the most incredible lesson he’s ever taught me and that was to surrender!

Some times as Christians especially we think we’re not being strong “Christians” if we’re not continually fighting, but the thing Gods been teaching me is that some times just surrendering and accepting the battle around us is the way to win the war. I had to learn to accept that I couldn’t do the things I once could. If I’m able to leave my house once every 3-4 months that’s saying a lot, and yes in a way it still does hurt and can still be frustrating but also learning to accept that and not forcing myself to fight so much has been such a blessing and I think it’s actually given me more life than taken it. Because before I was fighting so much and pushing myself so hard that I think I was making my sickness worse, I think because I was continually trying to fight it, it was getting my body so run down that I couldn’t fight anymore and so it was making me go into these vomiting attacks more and more, to the point I was making myself so sick and running my body down so much that I was being rushed to the ER 2-3 times a week! Till finally I just said that’s it I had enough! Eventually I ended up having surgery to clean my stomach out a little bit, which I know some of you probably don’t understand what that means but that’s ok, not important to the story LOL. The point is I had surgery to help relieve some of the discomfort, did the surgery “cure” me? heck no, did it help a little bit? yes, but what really helped is me accepting that I had to stop fighting. I have kept myself out of the hospital for 2 years and I believe it is all because of the fact that I stopped pushing myself so much. Do I miss doing things, at times? yes, but honestly if it’s between doing stuff again and going back to putting myself through that trauma just so I could say I was “doing things”, it’s just not worth it to me anymore, instead I just learned to change my point of view. Find ways to feel like I’m “doing things” without leaving my house. It’s why I do Facebook lives, it’s why my mom and me sell jewelry to earn money for my book, it’s why I diamond paint, it’s why I met people in disabled groups and yes I’m careful on who I meet, but honestly I feel like I’m more fulfilled now and busier and have a better and bigger social life now than I ever did, I’m more content now than I ever was. So what I’m trying to say through my very long winded story, it’s that some times we have to just step out in faith and blindly walk with him and just trust!

Its funny because my best friend always tells me I have rose colored glasses on and I just need to take those off and realize the reality of the times were in and every time he says it I just laugh and he hates when I do that, but the things is the reason why I laugh is because, my what he calls “rose” colored glasses are my guiding light, they are what gives me peace, because it’s not that I’m wearing, what he calls “rose” colored glasses, but instead I’m wearing “love” glasses baby, and there is nothing better than that.

I will continue to be guided by love, his love hasn’t failed me yet so I will wait on my father, because I know he has a plan and a purpose and I know his ways are higher than mine. The JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH AND I PRAY IT IS YOUR STRENGTH TOO.

Ok all that’s it for today. Thanks for reading and please have a very blessed Christmas and New Years and please be safe,and remember to keep focusing on love, joy and faith because I promise you, that’s all you will need to get through this pandemic and Year…

One last thing, if you all could please be praying for my friend and fellow “OIER” (Osteogenesis Imperfecta friend). This friend of mines name is Michaela Davert and right now she’s going through one of the hardest battles she will probably ever go through. She’s having a spinal fusion, (I think that’s what it is called, I apologize if I’m wrong) but it’s a very intense and major surgery. This woman walked around with like 10+ nails, large nails sticking out of her head, it looked like a crown of thorns like what they stuck in Jesus head, she had these giant nails sticking in her head for over 3 months and that was the easy part of the process she says. The dangerous part is what she did today, so dangerous that there was a chance she could die on the table! She and us all are believing for a complete and perfect recovery process. We’re praying surgery goes perfectly. She believes she had to have this surgery to extend her life expectancy. Without the surgery she was losing lung capacity so she felt she had to have it to extend her Life, and she has many dreams and desires, she’s young yet and has so many things she desires to do with her life and I believe she will accomplish every one of her dreams as long as she keeps fighting and believing not only in herself, but also in the Doctors and most importantly in Christ. So please be praying for my friend because as she says, life is worth fighting for😁

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I THINK THATS IT FOR TODAY. THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST. BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY. JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 😇 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER AS I SAID EARLIER, RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY. SO IF YOUR FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO. WE HAVE MANY OPTIONS NOW BUT THE EASIEST OPTION IS JUST TO CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM. PLEASE KNOW I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN NO MATTER IF ITS THROUGH THE PATREON PAGE, PO BOX OR PAYPAL. GOD BLESS, I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU. KEEP ON SHINING FOR CHRIST ❤️

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WHY ARE GIFTS IMPORTANT AT CHRISTMAS?

December 26, 2019

 

The book of roo

Romans 12:10

BE DEVOTED TO ONE ANOTHER IN LOVE. HONOR ONE ANOTHER ABOVE YOURSELVES.

Hi all sorry it’s been awhile since I wrote a blog, been busy getting THE-BOOK-OF-ROO podcast off the ground and also the book! I finally have the funds to publish it. I am just making sure it’s totally edited, spelling is correct, grammar is correct and just making sure it reads well before I hit the trigger, because once I hit that trigger there’s no turning back. But I’m officially hitting the trigger (which means sending it to publish to approve) next week! So be praying the publisher approves it all and that there’s no copyright issues. I truly cannot wait for you all to read this book, it truly is my baby and my labor of love.

So before I get into why I decided to blog today let’s quickly give a update on me. Well health wise there’s not much new to report, medically “on paper” I probably look and sound better than I ever have lol. But physically and realistically I’m still bad, I’m probably actually the worst I felt since my surgery in 2012 I won’t lie😜 the nausea is indescribable, when it hits me it’s like a ton of bricks hitting me at once and some days are worse than others. All this month I was doing fairly well, I couldn’t leave my house much but as long as I didn’t move a lot, I did great LOL. Than all of a sudden about 6 days before Christmas (Dec 25th) I just felt this huge wave of nausea come over me. I was so nauseated that I physically could not speak. I was like great here we go another Christmas in the ER. I thought for sure I’d be in there, if you look at my personal Facebook page I even asked people to pray for me because that’s how bad this got. I just could not fight this on me own anymore and I knew that, I just knew I physically nor mentally could do this on my own. I knew the only way I’d overcome this is with prayer. So I had people praying, hundreds probably and than about a hour before we left the house (because Christmas dinner was at my sisters) I just made the decision I needed to focus my mind on living! And I needed to speak life into my body, so I said ok I’m going to push myself as much as I can, let me put a headband on, and let me do a little makeup. I figured if I act ok maybe my body will start to believe it lol. So that’s what I did, like I said I did my hair (not perfect but I did what I could) I filed my nails, I put on my makeup (again not perfect but I did it) and I put a new top on, which when I’m sick like this I never put new tops on I just stay in my pjs, I don’t care where I’m going as long as I’m comfy lol. The only thing I didn’t do is put nice pants on. I had to stay in my pj pants and the only reason that was is because my stomach could not handle anything tight around the waste, and for some reason the only pants that fit me loosely without falling off is my pj pants, so they have pretty much become my 24/7 pants LOL, I knew if I put jeans on or dress pants I’d be overdoing it, so I did not do that but everything else I did and amazingly enough I think that worked because I got through it all. Some times when your body feels like death you have to speak life into it, not only to your physical being but also to your soul.

Yesterday and this morning (dec 24th and early morning 25th) were extremely rough like I said, I could not even move my tongue because just moving my tongue to speak was nauseating me. I was also getting worried because it was now going on almost 7 days without any relief, so I thought ok God I can’t go on like this much longer something has to break. Than all of a sudden tonight when I was sitting at the Christmas dinner table I just felt everything ease up, it didn’t disappear but it eased up just enough to where I could at least function and feel a little more human, I was so thankful. I was even able to eat a few bites of food, which I hadn’t done in 6 days, other than that medically and physically there’s not much new to report. So that’s my update On my health now on to why I decided to blog LOL.

Back in like October I got in this, what I will call a heated “discussion” LOL with my siblings, and it was about Christmas and the importance in gift giving. Their thing was, why can’t we just buy gifts for my niece (my sisters 8 year old daughter) and that’s it, now when they suggested this I understood part of their point. Realistically it would make sense, we’re all adults, we have our own money so why buy crap that we don’t need for each other, in the natural, (mans eye) that makes total sense. But I got very offended by that to the point I think my poor brother is scared to even mention the word gift to me anymore LOL, but here is why I got upset. Now originally when I first had this “discussion” with my siblings I opted not to blog about it because I figured it was a family issue, but than everywhere I went I kept hearing more families saying the same crap, and having that same attitude and yes I said crap because thats what it is, that kind of attitude about Christmas and buying a $15-$20 gift for your loved ones is crap to me and it gets me very angry and here’s why. As adults we start to take more and more away. We want to take the things that are originally put in place to keep us connected thrown out. I get there’s a time to let the old go to welcome the new, but there’s also a moment where you have to cherish some things about your past to keep you connected to your present. We already don’t want buy each other birthday gifts, now we don’t want to buy Christmas gifts. So what moment will we all take aside in our lives to actually think of each other? And I’m asking this question to everyone as a whole not just my family or the people in my inner circle but I’m asking everyone? If we continue to minimize those special moments with each other than when will we take that moment to just say hey you know I think my aunt or uncle would like this, or I think my mom would enjoy this. We have come to a point where everything is about what we want what we need, what will make my life easier, it truly has gotten on my very last nerve this year. There’s only a few times a year where we take out to truly think about one another and if we exclude that what will there be left? And if you stop thinking about each other than what will be left to keep you connected to each other? It’s just another reason why so many families are separated because no one takes those moments to think about each other. It’s not about the gifts it’s about the fact that you took that moment to think about another person to show your appreciation for the fact that their in your life!

The older I get the more that Clock gets shorter and shorter, and I know it does for everyone but for someone like me that holds true even more. And it’s really sad to me because the only thing people are caring about anymore is vacations or drinking and partying and all the things that in the end are not going to mean crap to you. I hate to continue to go back to this so much but I can’t help it. When you are taking your last breathe do you think your fancy house or your bills or your cars or your jobs or even your friends, and I’m not referring to good friends, family, ride or die type friends. I’m talking to your “party friends” you know those people you call friends who won’t do crap for you but  you continue to call them a “friend” so you can look good or cool because you think their the popular ones, come on be honest we all know we got them, I am not talking about those friends. I’m talking about the friend who will lay their life down for you, I’m talking about the friend who will go through pain and heartache with you, who will actually have compassion for you and actually show they have it, not just say they have it. Like I always tell people your actions speak louder than words. Those people the ones who will lay their life down for you, those are the ones your going to think about when you take your last breathe and that moment, that memory is going to be the only one that matters in the end and I promise you that memory  is not going to be you sitting in the bar chugging back a few shots, those are not the memories your going to think about. The memories your going to think about are ones like I had this week. Sitting in the living room while I watch my mother bake cookies for 4 days straight, or watching my dad pound a plate of veal out and watching him act like he’s a professional one minute and the next hearing a plate shatter in our kitchen because he wasn’t watching where he was slamming the hammer and well on the second pound instead of the meat getting the hammer our dish got it LOL.  Or watching my niece get excited while she opened her gifts, and watching her walk around all grown up taking pictures of everyone, and thinking back of how much she has grown and matured in just 1 year. Or taking those few moments out of our day the past few weeks to buy and plan everyone’s gifts. All 3 of us as siblings hadn’t spoken to each other as much as we did this month, and yes that’s sad but life gets busy everyone has careers, spouses, houses to take care of, kids and everything else, I get it, I’m just as guilty, but my point is that’s why families like ours need to keep these what may seem “stupid” traditions alive because without them we’d have nothing. And moments like these are going to be what are important in the end, so as much as we don’t want to, because trust me I didn’t want to either this year. This was one of the hardest Christmases to get into. I have never struggled getting into the spirit of Christmas but for some reason there was just something in the air this year. Their was so much heaviness and I just could not get into it until Christmas Eve, and I’m not the only one who felt that way, everyone I spoke to said it, heck even tv shows were portraying that on tv LOL. But in the end I’m glad I fought to keep our tradition alive because in the end these little moments are going to be all that matters 😍🥰

I probably don’t even need to explain this now, but that’s why I chose Romans 12:10 because I know when people read that their minds going to go right to their spouses or boyfriends or girlfriends, but its not referring to just that. It’s referring to each other as a whole, we need to be devoted to all the people that are important to us, because we truly do not know when our last moment will be.

I have a friend who lost her husband at 1 in the morning on Christmas. On Christmas morning she had to wake up to tell her kids that their father was gone. Could you imagine having to tell your kids that on Christmas morning? Again I can’t say this enough, LIFE IS SHORT AND THE NONSENSE THAT WE WORRY ABOUT IS NOT WHATS IMPORTANT, WERE IMPORTANT, THE LOVE AND MEMORIES AND RELATIONSHIPS THAT WE BUILT WITH EACH OTHER IS WHAT IS IMPORTANT. THE BEST GIFT IS THE GIFT OF TIME! THATS IT FOR TODAY, GOD BLESS AND MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS! LETS GO IN TO 2020 GLOWING BABY!

PS SORRY IF THIS ISN’T WRITTEN OUT PERFECTLY I WROTE IT REALLY FAST LOL.

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THE-BOOK-OF-ROO has options now! If you all are looking for a way to reach me on a more personal level, or maybe want to send a cash donation you can do that now. Please send any cards/Letters/Gifts to this PO Box. PO BOX: THE-BOOK-OF-ROO 4496 Mahoning Avenue #911 Youngstown, OH 44515

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I THINK THATS IT FOR TODAY. THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST. BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY. JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 😇 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER AS I SAID EARLIER, RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY. SO IF YOUR FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO. WE HAVE MANY OPTIONS NOW BUT THE EASIEST OPTION IS JUST TO CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM. PLEASE KNOW I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN NO MATTER IF ITS THROUGH THE PATREON PAGE, PO BOX OR PAYPAL. GOD BLESS, I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU. KEEP ON SHINING FOR CHRIST ❤️

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