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I ALMOST DIED OF COVID 19!

December 8, 2023

Psalm 119:30

I HAVE CHOSEN THE WAY OF FAITHFULNESS; I HAVE SET MY HEART ON YOUR LAWS.

VLOG I FILMED EXPLAINING VERY BRIEFLY HOW I BATTLED COVID19

Hi all, it has been one heck of a month, it’s all a blur to be honest. I give a pretty in-depth explanation in this video but let’s break it down even further.

In the beginning of November I developed God awful stomach pains, the worst stomach pains I ever had in my life. The pains were getting worse and worse so I finally broke down and went to the EMERGENCY ROOM. It took them not even forty minutes to realize the pains I was feeling were kidney stones! I know when everything went down everyone kept warning me that it could be my appendix and I appreciated those warnings, you all were so sweet, but we knew it wasn’t that because I do not have an appendix lol. My appendix was taken out years ago. So because we knew that, we also were able to pin point pretty quickly that it was kidney stones. So ok great kidney stones, not the best news but not the worst. I took the news like a big girl and got myself connected with a urologist and at the time we decided to try to treat it with meds and once the holidays were over we’d go in and remove the one for sure because the one is pretty large and so they know that’s going to take a miracle to break up the way we need it to and also do it within a timely manner because the longer I sit with this thing the way it is the bigger chance I have of infection and sepsis and once sepsis starts you are on the clock, you literally have minutes to get it under control or you could die.

At the time I made a deal with urologist to just let me get through the holiday than they can do what they have to. At the the time they agreed that was a reasonable request and so they agreed and we’re giving me my time.

Than all hell broke loose lol. First they screwed up my pain meds when I was admitted and so I wasn’t even getting 50% of what I should have gotten, what I usually get. So because I wasn’t getting the correct painkillers I was spiraling out of control and going through severe withdrawals. Once they got that under control I realized my eyes were burning and swollen and I just did not feel like myself and I stated several times. You guys I think I caught Covid 19, everyone kept telling me I was letting my imagination get the best of me and that I was fine and if anything I was just having a allergic reaction to the kidney stone Medications. I never really bought into that theory but I figured they are the doctors so they know best. The reason I was so adamant in saying I had Covid is because a family member had just gotten over it and they had all the symptoms I was describing. Now I was no where near this family member but I still felt that what I had was the same, but I had no way of proving it so I just kept letting nature take its course.

Finally the weekend after thanksgiving the crap hit the fan sort of speak and I was drowning. .I woke up at around 2AM on, I think it was Tuesday and I told my mom, we have to get to the ER I am dying! It hit me so fast though that at first she didn’t even know what to think, but she knew something was up so she took me in and immediately they saw I had a pretty high fever and I had so much fluid building up inside my body that I was literally drowning!

The hard part though was proving why I was drowning because my Covid test came out negative at first. My mom is actually the one who saved my life. For 2 days we kept begging them to re-test me because we knew Covid was the only logical explanation for what was happening to me. I was so swollen I could not open my eyes and my arms were so puffy I could not bend them. Thankfully my mom ended up being my saving grace because even though they wouldn’t re-test me they would test her lol and immediately when she got tested she was positive!

Once we knew she was positive we than took those results back to my doctors and told them re-test me now!and sure enough when they re-tested me I was indeed positive and so we than got me back on antibiotics and I am on them to this point. I finally finished the IV version Monday and they transitioned me over to pill form and I will be on pill form till almost the 1st of January! Which sucks lol. One thing I hate is how antibiotics make you feel but I can’t complain because it could have been much worse.

Ok so where does this lead me? I honestly don’t have that full answer yet, I do think I am going to be left scarred for awhile. I may not ever get the normal I had, this just might be my new “normal” but right now I’m not sure. Right now I’m just enjoying the fact that I am alive and not looking into the future to much.

What about the kidney stones? What about them? Lol again I honestly don’t know, one thing I know is my body cannot physically handle surgery right now, I am very clear on that so for now I’m just taking baby steps and Praying God protects the kidneys / stones. What could I use from you all? Prayer! Please pray the Lord

continues giving me strength because I need it lol. I am exhausted, this took everything out of not only me but also my mom, and I am heartbroken that she couldn’t even rest and recover from COVID like a normal person because she was to busy keeping me alive. Your amazing mom. I will never forget what you went through this week nor will I forget what another family member did for me.

One thing I can say still holds true and that is that you learn who you can count on during moments like this and I can honestly say there’s only one person I truly knew had my back besides my mom so to them, thank you and I love you 😘💋

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I THINK THATS IT FOR TODAY. THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST. BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY. JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 😇 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER AS I SAID EARLIER, RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY. SO IF YOU’RE FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO. WE HAVE MANY OPTIONS NOW BUT THE EASIEST OPTION IS JUST TO CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM. PLEASE KNOW I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN NO MATTER IF ITS THROUGH THE PATREON PAGE, PO BOX OR PAYPAL. GOD BLESS, I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU. KEEP ON SHINING FOR CHRIST ❤️

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IS HIS LOVE ENOUGH?

September 22, 2023

JOHN 21:15-17

WHEN THEY HAD FINISHED EATING. JESUS SAID TO SIMON PETER, SIMON SON OF JOHN, DO YOU LOVE ME MORE THAN THESE??? “YES, LORD,” HE SAID, “YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU.” JESUS SAID, FEED MY LAMBS.” AGAIN JESUS SAID, “SIMON SON OF JOHN, DO YOU LOVE ME?” HE ANSWERED, YES, LORD, YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU.” JESUS SAID, “TAKE CARE OF MY SHEEP.” THE THIRD TIME HE SAID TO HIM, SIMON SON OF JOHN, DO YOU LOVE ME?” PETER WAS HURT BECAUSE JESUS ASKED HIM THE THIRD TIME, “DO YOU LOVE ME?” HE SAID, LORD YOU KNOW ALL THINGS; YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU.” JESUS SAID, “FEED MY SHEEP

Hi all I am back…. Lol I know it’s a world record, see how much time I have on my hands now that I don’t have a book to write, I can go back to focusing on all of you wonderful people 🤪 why am I back so soon you might be asking

Well if you watched the Vlog, which is featured above ☝️☝️☝️than you will already kind of know why I am here. I am back because the other day in my, online “group” (Bible study kind of thing) the pastor was teaching about love, not just any love but “agape” love. For those who do not know, agape love is a term used in the world of Christianity to describe the truest form of love that you can have, or be.

The reason why I say: have or be, Is because it works both ways. We not only receive that kind of love daily from Christ Jesus but as a believer in Christ we are also supposed to show and give that type of love back out into the world, not just give it out to Christ, but to the world.

Which is why I opted to use the scripture (john 21:15-17) above as my featured scripture in this blog/vlog, because in that scripture that’s exactly what Jesus is trying to get across to Simon, he’s basically saying to him, listen buddy you can be as “Christian” as you want, you can speak about how much you love me, as much as you want, but if you are not living it out than it means nothing to me.

That’s part of what I was trying to get across in my Vlog. Love on its own isn’t enough, just talking about it, just even giving our time to churches, raising our hands or even praying with people is not enough.

We need to be love and being love is going out in your community and feeding those who cannot afford food, judging them on their life choices, but just being a helping hand when they need it.

Now there’s a flip side to that too, because I am not telling you to be naive and let people take advantage of you, or to give out of your own means, I am not saying to do any of that. The Lord teaches us to have wisdom in all things but at the same time don’t let that become your excuse to not help people too.

Because I know plenty of people who claim they cannot give a helping hand, but yet I know for a fact they can. I also know people who have been in need of help but than when they go to receive it, they blow it because they take advantage of the person helping them. So that’s what I mean by there’s a flip side to it and you just have to use wisdom and really have to be in tune with the Lord, not go by “feelings” but go by the word of God and if you feel like you don’t fully understand the word of God or feel confused by it, that’s ok. That’s what the church is for, let your church, your pastor, your mentors in Christ, let them all help guide you through and once you start growing in him (Jesus) you will learn which advice is good authentic advice and which advice just doesn’t sit well with you, because you will get that type of advice even from your church and mentors, but once you start to grow you will realize what works and what doesn’t work for you. Also if a pastor or mentor does ever give you advice that maybe doesn’t sit well with you, it’s ok no need to get an attitude with them, it doesn’t mean they aren’t hearing from Christ, or that they aren’t living “right”, it just means they are human too and they are growing in their walks just as much as you are, so please let’s stop putting church people on a pedestal and let them live their lives…

Like I said in my video some times love isn’t enough, at least not in the way we desire it to be. Some of us expect love “agape” love to be like a pill . We just take it once or twice a day and magically it’s just going to melt our troubles away, melt our trauma away. Sadly that’s a false teaching if you ask me, because even “agape” love is not going to “cure” us, at least not in the way that some of us are led to believe.

Someone like myself who deals with 2 terminal and yes I said terminal diseases. “Agape” love is not going to melt away the diseases, because I have the love of Christ I am not going to wake up one day and magically have straight bones and be 6 feet tall LOL, it just won’t happen, even with “agape” love.

Don’t get me wrong I am not saying healings aren’t real or that I don’t believe in them, I totally believe in them, just read my book and you will see there’s several stories in that book where I share the Lord did miracles and even “healed” me. But the reality is those miracles are once in a blue moon, and I think the reason why they are is because a lot of times he (Jesus) wants us to walk out those trials and hardships because he wants us to grow and evolve and learn how to go through hardships.

I know what you are thinking, but Jackie JESUS DOESN’T WANT US IN PAIN OR WANT US TO STRUGGLE! And if you are saying those things you’d be right, but he also doesn’t want us to be spoiled brats who just magically have everything handed to us. Could we really be happy and fulfilled if we lived like that? Nothing would be special, we would not appreciate anything we have. We wouldn’t have an understanding of pain, hope, kindness, generosity, heartache and so many more emotions or characteristics that exist that I can’t even think of at the moment, but we wouldn’t achieve any of those things without our hardships, so yes I don’t believe the Lord wants us to go through some of these trials or hardships but I do believe he allows them to happen for a reason, for a purpose. It is not our job to ask the why, where, when or how, it is just our job to walk it out and trust that he is holding us.

That’s agape love. Agape love isn’t to magically expect our traumas or hardships to go away, it’s to expect that when we go through them he is going to hold us and guide us. Even in the darkest of valleys we have to know that we know, that we know he is going to lead us to the light!

When you go to certain therapy or even character building sessions or conference type events that are centered around building a good relationship with your spouse or even siblings or even good friends or even a coworker. What is one of the activities they will do with you to try to get you to understand a form of trust and unconditional love, or as us Christian’s call it “agape” love, does anyone know? It’s a trust fall, they will have your spouse or loved one stand behind you and they will tell you to fall backwards and by doing that they’re hoping that not only will your loved one catch you but that also they are strong enough to hold you up. That’s real love, that’s agape Christ centered love. It’s not that he’s going to magically come in and erase your problems, which he still might, but the point isn’t to expect that, or even have that be a part of our thought process. Our point to have that type of true authentic love is so that when we fall he’s there to catch us, or when the storm comes you have him to hide under. And when these trials come you automatically know he’s there, you don’t have to even ask because your so connected to his heart that you can automatically feel and sense his presence.

Me for example, when a storm like that comes I just sit back and sayLord this terrifies me but I know with you I’m covered, I know this is going to be a long walk, it might even feel like hell on earth, but I also know that because I have you holding me, I will be ok, I will get through this, I know you will get me through this.

There are so many people in this world especially Christians who go through these hardships and get so discouraged and disappointed when the Lord doesn’t instantly fix their problems. I’ve known people who battle sicknesses who will sit there praying for years for healings and nothing happens and they get so discouraged that they give up. They give up on life and they give up on Christ and they totally miss the point that Christ never guaranteed any of us a healing in any way, physically, mentally, emotionally. None of it was guaranteed, but what he did guarantee was that he’d be there to walk us through it and because he’s there walking us through it, that’s what makes us okay.

In john 21: 22-23 it basically shows us how people hear what they want to hear and see what they want to see and how terribly we can miss interpret the most basic of things and make things into these elaborate stories.

John 21:22-23 22 Jesus answered, “If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me.” 23 Because of this, the rumor spread among the believers that this disciple would not die. But Jesus did not say that he would not die; he only said, “If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you?”

I’m bringing this to your attention because this is exactly how we interpret the love of Christ at times, some times we make into things that it just isn’t.

When we are going through those darkest of valleys we can praise Jesus, we can pray to him, we can give all our money to the poor and we can do all these other amazing things that we have convinced ourselves that if we do all these things and if we are the perfect little Christian than that will be our ticket to freedom, that will be our ticket out of the darkness. The reality is 99.9% of the time that isn’t true, you can do everything right but if you’re expecting your freedom to come from all this than you are not only missing the point of all this but also you’re going to be greatly disappointed.

Because, again I’ll say, some times it isn’t about being set free, some times it is about growing your faith and strengthening your relationship with Christ. Some times his priority is to make sure you grow in your walk with him and some times in order to grow you have to go through some stuff.

Again I will say think of a natural father, or even any parent in general, sone times they will make us (their kids) do things to help us grow. For example for years when we are tiny little babies and toddlers and even kids our parents will clean up after us, we can drop our toys wherever we want, food wherever we want and so much more, but than eventually what happens? There comes a point in time where our parents stop picking up our messes and start teaching us to clean them up for ourselves. Why? Because they want to see us grow, they want to see us evolve so that one day we can stand on our own two feet and take care of ourselves. That’s “agape” love, that’s real love.

Not this magical Carpet ride, genie in a bottle, Charlie and the chocolate factory, la la land world kind of thing we got going on in our heads when we think of Christ and Christ’s love.

His love and the relationship that you can build with him, is so much better than this magic carpet ride, riding on unicorns kind of thing were trying to sell to people nowadays. I am sorry I am not trying to disrespect anyone’s beliefs or teachings but I think it’s just crazy how messed up we have allowed ourselves to interpret certain things that our in the word (the Bible)

I know this blog/vlog is a bit long and I apologize for that, I just really felt the Lord forcing me to share my heart with you all especially about this particular topic. I pray you all understand what I’m saying and most importantly I pray I was able to convey what I know the Lord was guiding me to say and most importantly I hope you all are blessed by it and that you learn some thing from it.

We are so focused on feeling “good” when we leave church nowadays that we forget. The motive or purpose of church wasn’t just to help us feel good, it was to educate us, to strengthen our walk and relationship with Christ and we do that through educating one another. It’s not always about getting a “word” (prophecy) or getting someone to lay hands on us, or be slain in the “spirit”. Don’t get me wrong I am not saying there isn’t a time or place for that of course there is, those things are important too, but I think we have started to become addicted to those things like a person becomes addicted to drugs or alcohol. We are so focused on these things that we than forget the real focus should be growing in Christ and growing in Christ isn’t always learning how to pray over people or prophesying.

It is growing in your connection with him, learning how not to let fear consume you in times of darkness, or learning when you get in a argument how to control your anger and walk in love, and also learning the difference between walking in love and than standing up for yourself and not allow people to walk all over you.

Learning to have confidence in yourself and in your walk with Christ and not feel like you have to repent every time you breathe wrong! this is all a part of “agape” love, because it’s all about intimacy with Christ and intimacy with Christ, again is a part of “agape” love.

Alright all I could go on and on about this topic but I’ve wrote way more than I had anticipated I would write so I apologize for such a long blog/vlog but I hope you enjoy…..

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GOLD THE LORD IS MY LIGHT BY JACKIE YAFANARO

MY BOOK

Hey all don’t forget about my Patreon Campaign. A Patreon Campaign is basically a partnership. There’s different dollar amounts you can commit to giving. There’s one as low as $5.00 and what I like about this program is, it is not just about giving, it’s about giving and receiving. To all those who commit to giving. There are different prizes/gifts you all get in return for giving. For example: Anyone who commits to donating $50 a Month. I will send you a THE-BOOK-OF-ROO magnet, a OI CAN DO ALL THINGS wristband and a THE-BOOK-OF-ROO Tote bag and maybe some jewelry or something. That’s just the $50 level reward but there’s some other great rewards on the site too plus anyone who joins no matter how much they commit to giving. They will automatically be among the first to receive my book. So check it out.  Patreon Page Click here

THE-BOOK-OF-ROO has options now! If you all are looking for a way to reach me on a more personal level, or maybe want to send a cash donation you can do that now. Please send any cards/Letters/Gifts to this PO Box. PO BOX: THE-BOOK-OF-ROO

4496 Mahoning Avenue #911 Youngstown, OH 44515

Please remember you can still also donate by clicking the donate button that is located at the bottom of this and all other articles located on THE-BOOK-OF-ROO.

I THINK THATS IT FOR TODAY. THANKS FOR READING AND SUPPORTING ME AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO. GOD BLESS AND PLEASE REMEMBER KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST. BECAUSE HE NOT ONLY LOVES YOU, BUT ADORES YOU. ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER IF YOU NEED PRAYER I AND THE-BOOK-OF-ROO READERS ARE HERE TO PRAY. JUST STOP BY OUR PRAYER PAGE AND POST YOUR PRAYER REQUEST AND I PROMISE WE WILL PRAY 😇 ALSO PLEASE REMEMBER AS I SAID EARLIER, RUNNING THIS WEBSITE AND WRITING/PUBLISHING A BOOK DOES ALL COST MONEY. SO IF YOU’RE FEELING LED PLEASE DONATE TO MY SITE. ITS VERY EASY TO DO. WE HAVE MANY OPTIONS NOW BUT THE EASIEST OPTION IS JUST TO CLICK THE “DONATE” BUTTON AND FILL OUT THE FORM. PLEASE KNOW I AM GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERY DONATION THAT COMES IN NO MATTER IF ITS THROUGH THE PATREON PAGE, PO BOX OR PAYPAL. GOD BLESS, I LOVE YOU ALL AND MORE IMPORTANTLY JESUS LOVES YOU. KEEP ON SHINING FOR CHRIST ❤️

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