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April 20, 2019


The book of roo

Luke 21:34-36


Hi all, sorry it’s been so long since I’ve last written, I just been so busy I’ll be honest I just haven’t had much time to sit down and write for the blog because any writing I been doing has been for the book, but I do feel bad about leaving you all hanging for such long periods of time, so I’m thinking of starting a podcast and doing short little messages once a week. I am thinking for right now, till the book is done it might be my best way to still share my heart with you all and also still update you all about how I’m doing, and where I’m at in the book without having to sit down and actually write something out. I can just grab my microphone, say a few words like I’m grabbing my phone to call a friend and be done with it. When you have sat at a computer screen for hours at a time working on a book than the last thing you want to do is get back on at night and start writing all over again, just being honest lol. I love you all but that is a lot of writing lol, but like I said I also feel so bad for leaving you all hanging for 6-7 months at a time, so I’m thinking the podcast thing is the best way to go for me to still connect and keep my relationship with you all. I am not saying I’ll never write for the blog, I will still do articles here and there like I’m doing now, but I’m thinking a podcast could be something I could do more consistently. So there’s my thoughts on that, but you all tell me what do you think? Good idea or bad idea? now that we got that out of the way let’s move on lol.

I know you all are probably wondering how I’m doing health wise, well unfortunately I lost my winning streak of not having any hospital admissions 😢 as you all know, when I wrote you last I told you I had gone almost 2 years without being admitted into any hospitals, but I also told you I was not sure how much longer that roll would last because even though I hadn’t been in the hospital for an admission, it did not mean I wasn’t having medical complications, to read more about the complications I was having at that time just  click here but anyways like I said, because I was having those complications I knew there would be a hospital admission in my future some time soon, it’s not that I was being negative, it’s just when you been dealing with certain health issues for as long as I have, you come to know your body very well, and even though I have faith, that doesn’t mean I have blind folders on, like I’ve said in many of my articles, there is a difference between having faith and living in denial.

Turns out my suspicion of knowing I could end up in the hospital was spot on because Christmas night, yes you heard me right, CHRISTMAS NIGHT! I was sick literally all day on Christmas but I was still able to function and it was still controllable, than about 11:45ish at night, I had literally just gotten in bed, had only been in bed less than a hour, but when I got in bed I said ok let’s try to fight this just till morning so my Mom could at least get a nights rest, because she had been running around like a crazy person trying to put a nice Christmas together for us all, well like I said, thankfully I got through the actual Christmas without any real damage being done to Christmas. I will admit though, that day was one of the hardest days of my life, and I never fought something off as hard as I did that day. I was trying to make it one more day because I had a friend coming over the day after Christmas and he was traveling like an hour out of his way just to see me and we had literally been planning this visit for years, this person has been there for me whenever I’ve needed and truthfully I never had a friend stand by me the way this person has, so that visit was extremely important to me, so between trying to let my Mother rest and recover and me trying to fight to stay healthy to see my friend, it just all got to much for me, about 11 that night I called my friend practically crying telling him I had to cancel our visit, and what was worse about canceling these plans is, he does not live in the same state as me, he was only here to visit family for Christmas and see me, so I knew if I canceled I’d probably be losing the opportunity to spend time with him, But I also knew with how I felt I just had to cancel, because I didn’t want him driving 1-2 hours out of his way to see me and than me be laying on the floor puking on myself and being so sick I couldn’t speak, and I knew by how I felt already that there was a huge chance that would happen, so I called him all upset, of course he told me not to worry, just focus on my health and we will figure out how to meet up another day, he promised me that because he was going to be in Ohio (which is where I live) for another 2 weeks that he’d find a way for us to visit even if he had to visit me in the hospital, so I said ok fine I surrender, let’s cancel our visit for now. Literally I don’t even think it was 15 minutes after I talked to him that everything just came crashing down on me. I was still trying to fight it till morning so that my Mom could get some sleep, but by 11:45pm I knew I could no longer fight this on my own and I knew I was about to throw up, and being alone when feeling like I have to vomit can be very dangerous for someone like me, because I cannot sit-up so I could literally choke to death if someone isn’t with me, and I knew by how I was feeling that was going to happen, so I immediately grabbed my phone and called my Mom, of course I said I know this is the worst timing possible but I’m going to throw up, trust me it’s going to happen! At first I’m not sure she took me to seriously because for the past few months prior to this moment I had a lot of false alarms, so I think at first she assumed this was another false alarm, than she turned my light on and seen how grey I was, and knew it was real. She grabbed me put me in the living room and within 20 minutes I was violently throwing up, and sadly it was bile that I was throwing up, which meant there was no denying it, what I had been complaining about for over a year, I was right about, my intestines were getting cut off again and I was not digesting food properly. After a few hours my parents got me to the emergency room, which the emergency room was a whole mess in it self but I’ll explain that story in a future article or podcast, but after a few hours in the emergency room they got me stable. The reality is unfortunately I’m going to go through this from time to time, and every day since that day has been a massive struggle, my body is so exhausted and beat up right now I can’t even go anywhere, I’ve only left my house twice since Christmas and both times it took so much out of me that I was breaking in to tears just finding out I had to go somewhere, it’s not easy when you get to a point where you are so sick that you break down in to tears when finding out you have something as simple as dinner plans or sone kind of outing where you physically have to leave your house to go to it, it is especially not easy for someone like me who was so active and social. I love going places, which is why I still try to fight to go out, but when your so sick that your body physically won’t let you enjoy the things you once loved, that’s a huge pill to swallow, and in the beginning I had a lot of sleepless nights and even kept calling Doctors and begging them to do something, but I had to finally accept that right now there’s just nothing they can do, so I had to learn to make a new normal for myself, and keep reminding myself this isn’t going to be forever, it’s just a season.

Thats another reason I haven’t wrote a article because I just physically haven’t felt well enough to do one. Besides the scar tissue literally taking over my abdomen, I also have these pockets of fluid still that are also taking over, and between the both of those things my stomach pushes out so much that I cannot even turn on my side easily anymore, so it all has become very overwhelming, but at the same time it’s crazy because even though I’m trapped in my house and my body feels like crap, I have never felt closer to the Lord and have never felt as thankful for life as I do right now, and I can honestly say even though I’m going through hell physically, I have never been more content than I am right now.

My book is almost done, I have an amazing group of friends, especially the one I mentioned earlier, who have all stood by me and literally have held me up, it’s crazy because I’ve never been more secluded than I am now, but yet there have been periods in my life where I wasn’t secluded like this, where I did travel to different churches and volunteer for stuff, and did have more of what society would call a “normal” social life but yet felt a billion times more secluded than I do now, because now I know who I am, and I fully one hundred percent whole heartedly know who Christ is and who I am in Christ, and I whole heartedly am just grateful for the moment I’m in, I’m not trying to push myself to see into the future but am just grateful for the present.

I posted a link  on my Facebook page the other day, I have a picture of the post below👇 It’s an article stating how a governor  in Ohio signed for them to pass a law to say that if a pregnant woman wants to abort their baby they can no longer do that if a Doctor can find a heart beat! Now let me make clear just like I made clear when I posted this on my Facebook page. I think this issue is a very complex issue and I do not think there is one right or wrong answer, and when I posted this, I was not trying to get into the politics side of this. I posted it because I wanted to focus on LIFE I wasn’t looking at woman’s rights, or even biblical views on it, I was focused on the the LIFE part of it, of course though everyone had to start attacking my post and they were so busy trying to get their point across that they couldn’t see anything else. I nicely told them all, hey I’m more than happy to hear your side of things, but say it once and move on because I do not want people arguing about this. Of course a few of them did not respect my wishes and I actually even had to block someone, which I hate doing, I hate blocking people, but I had to, this woman wrote 32 comments in 4 hours! So after all this went down the Lord kept laying this on my heart and he just continually kept showing me the LIFE aspect of it and continually kept reminding me how he is the one who breathed LIFE in to each and every one of us.

F772784C-1563-459B-A1CC-0C15DEBE5E52I than shared part of how I felt, I said I am someone who was supposed to die within the first ten days of my life and my parents were not prepared for a sick child, which most of you know all this, they thought they were giving birth to a healthy average baby, but after I was born and Doctors seen how severe I was they continually told my parents that there was no hope for me and there was no way they could care for me at home, and I’m sure some of these Doctors were probably saying all this too because they probably also figured what was the point of putting my parents and siblings through hell by bringing me home and trying to care for me and bond with me when the only out come they would all get was watching me die, but my parents did not look at the death part of it, they focused on LIFE! even though several Doctors throughout my life continually told my parents to put me in a facility because it be easier, my parents did not do that and even though Doctors could only see death, my parents seen life and fought for me to live Life, and because of that I believe that’s one of the reasons I’ve lived 32 years and still counting lol.

I know everyone’s not going to agree with me on this topic and that’s ok and honestly I even hesitated on writing all this but in the end I had to because I knew God was telling me to.  I think this is how we need to or should look at abortion, I am not saying I fully agree with the state telling you what to do, but if that’s our way to protect these unwanted children than maybe it has to be that way, I don’t fully know if that’s the right thing, that’s the part where I have mixed feelings, but I do know there has to be a better way, we have to be better. I know some times there are unimaginable cant even begin to understand situations that some woman are going through and are getting pregnant as a result of those horrible situations, and my heart does break for each and every wonan that’s gone through that kind of situation, I mean it broke my heart because just that post I did, that only had at the most 120 comments, but out of those 120 comments I had at least 4 woman open up and admit they were raped and 2 of them admitted of having a baby from being raped, those are only the woman who felt comfortable enough to speak about it, but that’s insane to me, to think that so many woman are going through that on a daily basis breaks my heart! It doesn’t only break my heart for the raped woman, but it also breaks my heart for the children who were created because of it, because I hate that we are becoming a society that can easily want to take the easy way out. Please know before I continue, if you are someone who has had an abortion, please know it’s nothing to be ashamed of, and I am not trying to make you feel shamed, and if you choose that your not a horrible person, your not, your doing what you feel is right for you! But at the same time there is a better way, it may be one of the hardest things you ever do but I believe if you did go through with having your child it would be worth it, because you’d be helping another human experience LIFE! I get your giving up your body for 9 months and a lot of having a baby is obviously more on the woman than the man and maybe part of that isn’t fair,  but the reality is that’s life, you want to take it out on someone take it out on Adam & Eve when you get to Heaven LOL. Jesus died for us, he bore that cross for us, so we could have life! I hate to say this in so many of my articles, but to many people want a get out of jail free card, we want to take the easy way out, but we need to stop that, we need to be brave, courageous and strong, and being brave is choosing the hard stuff. No matter what you choose I’ll love you, I’ll support you and I’ll hold you up no matter what, and Jesus will too by the way. I’m just asking before you do make your choice, try to focus on LIFE, not fear. My parents could have given up on me so many times, but they never did, they, especially my Mother, has given her life to care for me, and if she could do that for 32 years straight I know anyone could for 9 months, but there’s a flip side to that too, because if we as Christians are going to beg these woman to stay strong and do what we feel is right, than we better get off our you know what and start being a support, they don’t need prayer or a bible, they need someone to stand up and willing to either care for their kid if they can’t, or at least be a support, help guide them, Pay for their Doctor bills, pay for transportation, pay for clothing, food, something because if we want to say that these pregnant woman need help  than we need to come together as a community and help and stop waiting for the state to come in to help everyone, because they can only do so much. It is funny because as the Lord was speaking to me about some of these issues I came across a Facebook video, to this day I don’t know how I found it but I did, and it’s a video of TD Jakes giving these 1 minute sermons and their all awesome, but the first one really stood out to me and I really felt it was why the Lord brought me to that video, the first sermon he speaks on is called my Shot (I think) and he starts explaining a story in the Bible, I won’t go into the story because I’d never be able to explain it like he could, I mean of course I can’t that’s why I’m not a preacher lol, but the moral to the story is. When it comes time for you to “make your shot”, step out on faith and do something that maybe your scared of doing, don’t wait for God to do it for you because  God will never do it for you, you will never see him, for instance I’m writing a book, it’s hard, it’s scary, but no matter how hard or scary it is, Gods not going to do that for me, but he will guide me or you to the tools we need to achieve our goal, and so I’m going to tell you again, we can’t expect these woman who are, already scared to death to do the brave thing, if we’re not there to help guide them through the process, in situations like this were the tools, were the people these ladies need to help them achieve their win! We can’t say love like Jesus loves and not walk it out and walking it out is more than a smile on our face and a sweet prayer! We need to do the work.

I wanted to share one last thing than I’ll end. It will sort of bind this all together I promise. We just got through Easter right? What is Easter about? The resurrection of Christ right? It’s a day to reflect on LIFE, it’s a day to reflect on how precious LIFE is and how blessed we are that he gave his entire LIFE for us, he didn’t care what we did, he still don’t, he doesn’t care where we come from, he just loves like a child loves. When a child looks at us they don’t see our flaws, and I know that for a fact because about a year ago I was showing my niece some pictures of when I was a kid, now other than being about 20 pounds thinner I pretty much looked the same, just to give you a visual and a better understanding, back than in these pictures I was showing her, I was about 13 years old, now when I was born I was only about  12 inches long and now I’m still only 25 inches long so it’s not like I grew a whole lot during my childhood lol. So if you a average person seen these pictures of me from my childhood, I wouldn’t even have to say anything, you would automatically know it’s me, not only because of my size but also, how many people have bent arms and are laying in a pink wheelchair, not many LOL, and yes I mean laying because I cannot sit-up. So to you all, you would recognize me in a heart beat, but when I showed my niece these pictures,  which at the time she was 7, she just looked at me and my sister, (her Mom) and we knew she had no clue it was me and so I said to her Mira, it’s me, it’s auntie, see the chair and see my arms and I kept pointing out the things that would be most obvious to us, because let’s be honest when we see people we see the flaws before anything else, we see their diseases before anything else, and when this happened the Lord immediately spoke to me and he was like, she doesn’t see the disease, she sees auntie, she sees your heart, your soul, your mind, she does not see the disease, no child does, and he said: kids see people the way I see them,  they see through the eyes of love and only LOVE! I know to a certain level that might sound a little cheesy and a little to “Christian” but truly, the Lord sees you he does not see your mistakes or your flaws or your scars, he sees your heart he sees you!

So let’s love whole heartedly like he does, stop fighting and tearing each other down and stop trying to prove what you think is right, and just love. Oh also the song I added above, I did not have time to get ahold of the artist again so I couldn’t make my own video but it’s an amazing song and the artist herself made a YouTube video for everyone to hear it, so I just embedded that video into this article. But the songs called fighting for me, and the artist is amazing, her voice is amazing and the lyrics to these songs she sings are just insane, she’s a newer artist, but extremely talented and anyways again the songs called fighting for me, , and it’s basically a song where she’s singing how no matter what she goes through in life, God will still be their fighting for her, and with her, even if her faith gets weak he’s still going to fight for her love, and I think it’s just the perfect song for right now, it’s perfect because of everything I been going through personally, and it’s also perfect for everything we’re going through as a community and nation, because we can keep tearing each other to shreds but our father is still going to be there fighting for our attention, he’s still going to be whispering things into our heart, and I say heart deliberately because when our father speaks to us he doesn’t speak in our ear he speaks directly to our heart and soul! It is also why I chose to put Luke 21:34-36 because it’s saying to be careful, it’s basically admitting life is going to get messy and hard, but don’t get caught up in the ness and the fear of the drama around you, stay focused on what’s important and the only important thing is your relationship with Christ, and if you stay focused on that and don’t allow the mess of the world to get in your head, heart and spirit, than you will achieve your win and the win is being able to see the son of man, the one who created it all, us all. We’re getting to caught up in the world guys, we need to get back to what is true and pure!

GOD BLESS EVERYONE I LOVE YOU AND JESUS LOVES YOU, HE DIED FOR YOU, IF THAT DOESN’T PROVE HE LOVES YOU NOTHING WILL. anyone who truly knows me knows, I will never try to change you, but I will try to show you this amazing man named JESUS and I will try to prove his love to you. GOD bless and happy Easter! ✝️

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November 26, 2016

The book of roo

PSALM 116:3-4


Hi all. So this article should not be to long. I just really wanted a chance to update you on everything that’s happened since August and the victory I achieved once again!

Not to long after I wrote my last article (to read previous article Click here) all the medical issues I mentioned in that article got Ten times worse. So bad I finally told my Doctors I could not take it anymore and something had to be done! I was doing everything that was humanly possible to just fight through the symptoms. Because the options the Doctors had for me, were all extremely risky, and they all involved major Surgery. So we all, including myself, felt the risk was to high and not worth it. Everyone (including myself) felt, if I were to go through with most of the Surgeries they had on the table for me. They would probably have killed me, and if they did not kill me they definitely would have destroyed the life I have now. But than in July my symptoms just started getting so extreme I could not take it.

I was practically crying myself to sleep every Night for at least Two Months. Because I was doing all I could to fight through everything, and knew if I chose Surgery my life would probably end. Honestly if this was any other time in my life,.I would have been ok with that, not because I was ok with “dying” but because I knew where I’d be going and knew my ultimate goal in life is to be with him (Jesus) anyways . So if this was any other time I would have taken the risk in a heart beat, but in this moment I just felt if my life ended, it would have ended before it was supposed to. I had so many things in my life I was not willing to give up yet, and so many things I had worked so hard to achieve, like this Book. I felt like if I were to have died now, it would have been like loosing a race at the finish line. Everything inside me was just not willing to accept that my life could end. But yet I was very conflicted and I will admit I think I let fear grip me a little.

I tortured myself and my body for almost Six Months. Trying to fight these symptoms I was having. Because I did not want to go through another risky Surgery. But than in July things just got, like I said, Ten times worse. My Stomach felt like a Rock was inside it again, and the fluid that was building up in my Brain was getting so extreme. All I wanted to do was sleep, but yet I couldn’t sleep because I was so uncomfortable. I couldn’t watch tv, I couldn’t read and my eyes felt like they weighted a Billion pounds.  After awhile I had even realized my face was starting to swell a little too.

So after I wrote that article in August and after my 30th Birthday. I prayed, and after my time in prayer. I felt even though I didn’t want to, I had to go through with Surgery. So I sat down with my Parents and all my Doctors, and I told them I’m sorry but you have to do something, anything. I was willing to take the risk because I felt the Lord was telling me I was dying with or without the Surgery and at that point I felt. As risky as the surgery was, doing nothing was more risky. I had no doubt in my mind if they did not do something soon than that would be it, my life would have been over.

After having a long talk with my Doctors. I did finally get them to agree that something had to be done, and I was so relieved they were willing to try. At least I was relieved for about Twenty Seconds LOL. Than in the middle of the Doctors appointment as the Surgeons were telling me their plan. I hear the Lord saying: no, that plans going to kill you, tell them to do this….

The Lord than laid out this whole plan that he wanted me to suggest to the Doctors. I won’t explain all the details because most probably won’t understand it anyways LOL but bottom line really is. The Doctors wanted to move my Shunt and instead of having it drain in my Belly. They wanted to go in the Vein that’s in the Neck, the one that’s connected to our Heart.  They wanted to connect the Shunt tubing to that Vein so than the extra fluid in my Brain would just get absorbed into my Blood stream.

The Lord on the other hand kept telling me not to have them do that and instead have them go in my Belly and basically do the same Surgery they did in 2012. Which is go in cut as much Scar Tissue out as possible and than move the Tubing to the Shunt over a little. The Surgeons did not agree with that plan at all at first. Because the more you cut out Scar Tissue the worse it gets. The Doctor explained it as being like a Snake. You can cut a Snakes tail off over and over, but it will continually grow back.

That is how Scar Tissue works, the more you cut it, the more it will grow back. The Doctors were also worried about how little room I have left inside my Belly. I have so little room left inside my Belly. That they were worried they may not be able to even fit their instruments in there to be able to cut Scar Tissue out. Without the risk of damaging my Organs.  The Doctors also did not want to go through with that plan because it was not a “fix” it was basically just a way to buy time. But the Lord kept telling me it was ok. Because number One, no matter what treatment plan I chose nothings technically a “fix” every plan on the table was just a way to buy time. But the important thing at this point is what plan would benefit me the most.  The Lord kept telling me I did not have to worry about the future, I just had to worry about this moment.

After the Doctors gave their plan I than nicely asked them and my Parents why we couldn’t do the plan I knew the Lord was showing me. Of course I didn’t tell them it was what the Lord was telling me. I just asked why we couldn’t cut the Scar Tissue out? That’s when the Doctor told me about it growing back faster and stronger the more you mess with it. So I just shut up at that point cause I didn’t know what to do and I felt they were going to do what they wanted no matter what I said. Because their the Doctors and they know better than me.

After the Doctors got done giving their plan they asked if they could leave the room for a Minute. They wanted to go look at my Scans One more time. So while they were looking at the Scans I just started praying and I told the Lord. Lord of course I trust you more than anyone but I don’t know how to get them to trust you, or me for that matter. So if this plan that you keep telling me about really can help me live. Than speak to those Doctors Hearts yourself and change their Mind.

The Doctor comes back in and is continuing to say that they want to go through my Neck and to the Vein connected to my Heart. And as their talking I’m just saying to myself oh come on Lord speak to these Doctors Hearts. Than all of a sudden the One Surgeon sits down and starts staring at my Belly and says: well if you really want to go in the Belly, I guess I’d be willing to try, but I can’t make any promises. Now let me remind you when he said all this I hadn’t said One word, I never asked them about going through my Belly again, all I did was pray LOL. I knew the Minute the Doctor said he was willing to try. Than that meant the Lord was working it out already but just to be sure I responded by saying. Well your the Doctors you know best and he looked at me and said no this is team work. You and your parents know you’re body better than any one of us. So please don’t be afraid to say stuff we will listen. In that moment it’s like I felt an instant break through and I knew the Lords hands were on this. (Psalm 118:8) It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in humans.

(As I told you all awhile back. When I hear certain songs, sometimes I get just as encouraged, ministered to or even learn from them as I do from hearing a good teaching or from reading the Bible and while I was in the midst of writing this article I found this album by a group called Unspoken. Two of the songs on the album are perfect for this article. When I heard a song called Miracle on the album I knew I had to share it in this article, it’s soo beautiful and powerful. Unfortunately I cannot post the song in the article like I’d usually do because I don’t have any rights or permission to do so, and I didn’t have the time to work my magic and try to get a hold of them for permission. But I at least wanted to share the lyrics with you all. This is lyrics to a song called Miracle by Unspoken, I encourage you all to go listen to this song)



Have you stopped reaching?
No longer seeking greater things
Have you forgotten you have a father listening?
He tells the sun when to rise
Gives the wind it’s breath
Swings a door wide open and moves in a moment you least expect

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

How many chances?
How many answers pass us by?
You know it takes faith to step on the waves when you’re terrified
So when you’re packed in a corner
And can’t wait any longer

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

Feels like the presents the words you’ve spoken
They go unnoticed like drops in the ocean
Just beyond the veil of your vision
Your mountains are moving, moving on
Remember the works his hand has done
Where you once were and how far you’ve come

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

You’ve got to speak the impossible
Pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

Pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing

The past Two or Three Years have been a rough one, not just physically but mentally. I have lost a lot of people who I never thought in a Billion Years would have passed before me. A lot of these people were people that had been praying for me and my life for Years. So I had a lot of anxiety about that too. Because I kept thinking, if these people who were healthy and strong died, than how could I think I’d live? I mean even the person who I considered to be my Pastor and who I had been following for Years passed away just Two-Three Weeks ago (Kim Clement).  He had been sick for over a Year. He had a lot of major health issues going on but it all started with a Brain Bleed. I remember just Days before he had his first Bleed. Actually I remember exactly when it was, Three Days. Just Three Days before He had his first Brain Bleed. I had contacted his team to ask if they all, including Kim, could please be praying for me. I explained to them how I was having issues with my Brain and how I was at risk of going through major Brain Surgery and also how I was at risk of my Brain being damaged. Never in a Million Years did I expect to open my Computer and find out that everything I was in fear of happening to me would happen to him. And now sadly this Month I found out he did lose his battle, and yes I know the good news is that he’s with our Lord Jesus Christ. But the bad news is it all happened way to soon. He had so much ahead of him. This man and his team had prayed me back to life more times than I could keep track of.

Sadly I have so many stories of people that passed away to soon and people who took part in helping me fight, people who helped me live. I’m not going to sit here and try to give some Christian cliche to try to explain it all.  Because the truth is I don’t know why this happened, I don’t know why it happened to Kim or the 6-7 other people I knew who lost their lives these past few Years. But One thing it did teach me once again, is how precious life is! I know you are all sick of hearing me say that by now, but it truly is. It also reminded me how even in the midst of a storm my God is still faithful!

When your someone like me, whose been battling life for Thirty Years. After awhile it becomes your normalcy. And after awhile no matter how serious things get you just assume or expect to make it through. Because you have made it so many times before. After awhile it’s almost like you become numb to the reality of how serious you’re health is. And it wasn’t until all these people had passed that I truly realized how fast life can be taken from us. Truly in a heart beat you could just be gone!! And I’ve realized that more lately than I ever had.

(Mark 13:32-37) “But no one knows about that day or hour. Not even the angels in heaven know. The Son does not know. Only the Father knows. Keep watch! Stay awake! You do not know when that time will come. It’s like a man going away. He leaves his house and puts his servants in charge. Each one is given a task to do. He tells the one at the door to keep watch.

“So keep watch! You do not know when the owner of the house will come back. It may be in the evening or at midnight. It may be when the rooster crows or at dawn. He may come suddenly. So do not let him find you sleeping.  What I say to you, I say to everyone. ‘Watch!’ ”

I had so many mixed emotions when they were wheeling me off to Surgery. In one breathe I was relaxed and calm. Because any time I kept thinking negatively. The Lord would give me visions, of me waking up after Surgery and being perfectly fine. In the visions I seen I was ok but yet I kept thinking of all these people I knew this year who believed just as strongly as I did and who were gone. Even in that very moment of me getting ready for Surgery. I had Doctors on every end of my Bed. Basically explaining all the different ways I could die! It took them exactly Fifteen Minutes to explain Six different ways that I could die, or be stuck on machines for Months, to  where I’d still eventually die! I mean we were so sure this time that some thing could actually happen. That I even made a list of all my Personal information, like passwords to all my accounts and where I had placed certain things. That’s how much I let fear grip me. And I have to admit after Surgery I was pretty disappointed in myself. Disappointed that I allowed myself to think such negative things and most importantly that I allowed the devil to almost win.

It was also very confusing because like I said. I had all these Doctors and my family preparing me for the worst. But yet every time I closed my eyes and pictured what life would be like after Surgery. I was perfectly fine, I was better than fine, I was better than I had ever been after a Surgery. Every time I’d start crying or I’d get scared, the Lord would give me that same vision. I just could not get that vision of me waking up laughing and talking and being perfectly fine, out of my head. I kept telling the Lord, Lord I don’t get it. All these people are telling me I’m basically dying but yet all you keep showing me is life! Even when they placed me on the operating table, I went to start crying again and I couldn’t because this wave of peace just came over me and all of a sudden I kept hearing a song (it is well with me) play in my head and every time I’d close my eyes I’d see myself waking up after Surgery and being totally fine. In the vision I could even hear myself saying: I don’t get it, this was supposed to be one of the worse Surgeries I’ve had, but yet I am totally fine I’m not even drowsy from the anesthesia!

(Psalm 121:7-8) The Lord will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

(Lyrics to the Second song by Unspoken that I mentioned earlier. That I felt was perfect for this article. So I just had to share them too, and again I encourage you all to go get this album. It ministered to me so much this week)


“The Cure”

We’re all related, brothers and strangers,
The king and the beggar bleed the same.
We’ve all got a sickness, a terminal condition,
We medicate it but the pain won’t go away.

See the eyes of a million faces,
Looking forward in a million places,
Only one can save us, Jesus.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

You are the doctor, healer and father,
To the orphan without a home.
We feel in the darkness, lost till you found us,
You are the remedy we’ve been looking for.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

Cure for the broken, the hope for a hopeless world.
The meaning, the purpose, the peace that will make us whole.

Don’t have to search no more.
Don’t have to search no more.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

You are the cure, cure
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.
You are the cure, cure
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

When I came out of Surgery I experienced the exact same things the Lord showed me in that vision, even down to saying what I heard myself say about how amazed I was that I wasn’t drowsy. When I woke up I was totally fine, I wasn’t in pain, I wasn’t drowsy, I wasn’t anything but myself. When I went in to Surgery they told me to expect to wake up in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) but because I did so well after Surgery they ended up bringing me straight to a regular room! Not only did they bring me to a regular room, but they also told me, I was doing so good they felt I could have probably gone home if I wanted to. Thank God they didn’t actually send me home, because I did end up having a small reaction about Fifteen, Sixteen Hours after the Surgery. But even the reaction I had, had nothing to do with the Surgery. It more had to do with the fact that I had gone so long without eating or drinking or taking my medications that I take on a regular basis. That My body just kind of spiraled out of control for a Minute.

I had gotten so sick before Surgery that I went without eating anything for a good Four Days! So between not eating or drinking or taking any of my meds. Things just kind of caught up to me. But as far as the Surgery went, I was One Hundred percent fine. Me and my Family and even my Doctors were on top of the world. They were just as relieved as I  was and once again they all just shook their heads wondering how I did this once again. How did I fight sickness and death again? They all keep telling me how strong and how much of a miracle I am and I agree my life is a miracle. But as far as me “Jackie Yafanaro” being a miracle. Heck no, I’m no miracle, but I do know the miracle maker and that’s my Lord Jesus Christ. He is my life support and he continually saves me and keeps me breathing and because of that I will never doubt!

I may not understand why I keep living when all these other people around me passed away. But like I said in my last article. I do not need to have all the answers. When my time finally does come and I do see my kings face. I’m sure all those questions will be answered, but for now, I not only believe, but I know he is faithful and even during times of uncertainty he’s still faithful. Sure I may have a lot of questions about certain things but I don’t and never will have doubt. How could I after all he’s done for me and all I’ve experienced in life.

There are so many people in this world who I see who are focusing their time on nonsense, who are letting fear take hold of them and hiding behind pointless garbage. And it is so sad to see because I just want to say, if you’d only trust. That’s all it comes down to, trust. I know I said that in my last article too, but again I’ll say. As simple as that sounds that truly is what it’s about  TRUST, trust even during your storm. He loves us so much and I feel it more now than I ever have.. times so short don’t waste a second of it. Get beyond your fears and doubts and do what your called to.

Thats really all I have for today, like I said I just really wanted to update you all and tell you the miracle that is LIFE!

( Psalm 63:3) Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.

Ok guys just a few announcements before I go. As I himted earlier in the article I am writing and publishing a book and I am planning to begin the publishing stage at the beginning of the new Year. But as I have said before publishing a book is not cheap LOL. Thankfully because of the amazing Birthday party my family had for me in August. I was able to raise a little more then half the funds I need for the book. So now I truly am SOOOOOO CLOSE!!! So if anyone that reads this could find it in their Hearts to become a part of my Patreon Campaign I’d really appreciate it.

The Patreon campaign is basically a partnership. There’s different dollar amounts you can commit to giving. There’s one as low as $5.00 and what I like about this program is, it is not just about giving,  it’s about giving and receiving. To all those who commit to giving. There are different prizes/gifts you all get in return for giving. For example: Anyone who commits to donating $50 a Month. I will send you a THE-BOOK-OF-ROO magnet, a OI CAN DO ALL THINGS wristband and I will give some Perfectly Posh Products . That’s just the $50 level rewards but there’s some other great rewards on the site too (plus anyone who joins no matter how much they commit to giving. They will automatically be among the first to receive my book)  So check it out Patreon Partnership Page.

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October 4, 2016


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Hi all. Boy has it been an eventful few months! Let’s start with the good stuff first. I had a Birthday!!! I am officially 30 years old! OMG (oh my gosh) does it feel good to be 30. I had a huge celebration with my family and loved ones. The festivities began with My parents along with my siblings throwing me a 30th surprise party! So that was so much fun. 80 people were invited and over 100 showed up LOL (Gotta love my neighborhood) LOL.

All my family came in from out of town to celebrate with me. It was so much fun and such a blessing to have shared that moment with the people who truly love me and who I love. Each person that was there, truly were people who made an impact in my life. I am so grateful to each and every person who took time out of their busy lives to celebrate such a huge, important and special Day.  It was so amazing entering that restaurant and seeing pictures of me from birth till now all over the place and then seeing that the theme of the party was GOLD (I think you can all figure out why the theme was GOLD) LOL. Of course seeing all that meant the world to me, but what meant more to me then anything, is seeing the hearts of everyone around me. Seeing how important it was to my family to do some thing that would bless me, seeing them crying and laughing and just, the pure joy and accomplishment we all felt in that moment.

Thankfulness is the only word I can think of to describe it all. Thankful to have lived 30 years, thankful to have a family who truly loves and supports me, thankful for having parents who love me so much that they would truly breathe for me if they could. This was not just a Birthday for me, this was a goal achieved, this was the proof of how AMAZING God is. I mean even my own Doctor called me and said how amazing this Birthday was for me, and how he himself don’t understand how I’ve lived 30 Years.

As you all know, when I was born I was not supposed to live Ten Days! Ten Days people!  But yet I just celebrated, no scratch that because I don’t fully like using the term “Celebrated”. Because me turning 30 is so much more then a “Celebration”, it’s an accomplishment! I just accomplished 30 years of life. When I was continually being told I was going to die.

In that moment it self. Life (Enemy) was trying to take me down, and not only stop me from achieving that Day but also from celebrating with my family.

I have been going through some major, major medical issues, and honestly I’m being told once again that I’m running out of options and I could possibly die. The Night before my surprise party, and also that Morning. I was extremely, extremely sick and the Morning of my party, I even made the comment. I felt so bad that there was no way I was moving off the Livingroom floor. I told my family you all go do what you want. I don’t care what you say I feel like crap Today so I’m not leaving this floor (I obviously didn’t know about the party yet) LOL. Later that Day my Mom talked me into taking a bath. After my bath my meds had kicked in a little and my niece was at my house along with a few other cousins. So since I started feeling better my Mom then talked me into taking a “walk”. She said lets go take the kids to the park to run off some steam. Because they were starting to get, in the words of my Grandfather “Rambunctious”, LOL, so I agreed to go for a walk. It was awesome even my 5 year old niece was in on this scheme, the little snot , (obviously I’m joking people) LOL. She was screaming park, I can’t wait to go to the park, please can we go?  Of course they all know no matter how crappy I feel, I’m going to give in to her. The only time I say no to her is if I’m puking and physically cant function LOL.

So we head to the “park” and some how half way up the street as were walking to the “park” my Mom makes a fast u-turn and ended up in the back of my cousins restaurant. Where all my family and friends were waiting, and of course at that point the jig was up LOL. So we had the party and then of course continued on with a yearly August/Birthday tradition “THE FEAST”. For those who do not know, “the feast” is an Italian/religious festival that’s in my neighborhood. This festival or as they call it “Feast”.

FYI  (they get very offended when you call it a festival. So to all those (Neighborhood people) who read this, I’m not calling it that to be disrespectful. Just trying to explain to the “outsiders” what it’s like LOL )

“The Feast” is always celebrated in August and it’s always around or on my Birthday. It is always centered around the 15th of August. It either starts or ends on that Day every Year and it is called a religious holiday because it’s all about honoring Mary (Jesus Mom).  This “Feast” lasts for Four Days. So we had Four Days of festivities, and most of my out of town family decided to stay since they were already in town for my party. On top of all that I also did some other really fun stuff but I won’t bore you with every detail, but bottom line is. I had one amazingly fun not just Birthday, but BirthMonth (I know I’m spoiled) LOL

During all that, if that wasn’t amazing enough. The Lord blessed me even more! From April to now. I have been listening to this lady named Joy  Enriquez ,her album “The Call”. During all of April, May, June and July I just could not stop listening to this album. Then when my medical issues started getting worse and I went through that whole NG tube thing that I mentioned to you all in the last blog I wrote. ( Link to previous blog ) her album was a huge part of what got me through all that.  Like I told you all in the last blog. That whole experience was intense and was definitely a struggle for me to not only get through but get over. And after all that went down I had a lot of sleepless Nights, and a lot of time where I just spent one on one time with God. Because I was like Wow ok Lord what the heck just happened? Did I really go through all that? And why? I had a lot of  unanswered questions and truthfully a lot of anger in me. I was very angry that the Lord didn’t do anything to stop all that from taking place. I felt like he just sat back and let all that happen. But like I said in the last blog. He gave me the answers I so desperately needed to understand all that, and as I said before, I did make my peace with it all. So I’m not going to repeat myself and explain all that again, but  for those who did not read my previous blog. Go read it and hear about all the things God brought me through.

Joy Enriquez album “The Call” was a huge blessing for me and almost was like a form of therapy. The majority of the songs on that album are all about trials and how we may be weak but he is strong. After I realized how much that album blessed and impacted me. I said: ok Lord I have to get this woman’s attention and I have to feature her on my website.

Theres a song called “Conquer” off her album and OMG (Oh my gosh) I felt like that entire song was just the story of my life right now. I mean the first two paragraphs of the song are this.

 My feet may fail, but you won’t let them hit the ground
And I know you’re there, ev’n when the doubts in my head gets too loud, too loud
Oh fight after fight I would pray, I would say there’ll be better days up ahead
But night after night I’m amazed at your grace I was saved by faith and now I stand.Brighter than the fire I’m fighting
Higher than the mountain I’m climbing
Shout louder than the thunder, I’m stronger
No matter what I’ll conquer, I will conquer
Brighter than the fire I’m fighting
Higher than the mountain I’m climbing
Shout louder than the thunder, I’m stronger
No matter what I’ll conquer, I will conquer.

Thats just the beginning of the song “Conquer”, but look the rest up its beautiful. Then there’s another song called “Walking on Water” and of course the song I feature in the interview, “Shelter” and their all about when the storms rage don’t worry because he’s got you. So let whatever happen because he has the final say. These songs were truly what got me through these past few Months. Because I’ll be honest there were times I was not sure I could keep doing this. My body was (and still is) exhausted and there were so many Nights I just kept crying out to God, looking for answers. And I’d put on these songs and they would minister to me so much. And every time when I’d get done listening I’d realize. I’m ok because I don’t need to know all the answers. All I need to know is that when I call on him he’s going to be there. My life story is all living proof that when you call on him and surrender to his will and just trust. I know I say that in my blogs so much, but that truly is what it’s all about TRUST. (Proverbs 3:5-6) Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

When you fully surrender to his will and fully understand how to have a child like heart, and trust God like that. I promise you, every bit of anger, exhaustion and fear, will just melt away. Because when you trust like that he’s going to come running with open arms, and he’s going to take whatever negative feelings your having and wipe them away.

Our problem is we want to analyze everything to much and we expect to much. We have it in our heads the way we think our lives our supposed to go and the Minute that vision gets rattled a little bit. We don’t know how to react, what to do or where to turn. (John 15:16) You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. I think that scripture sums it up pretty well don’t you?

I got side tracked so let me reign this in LOL. After the Lord used these songs to minister to me I knew I had to contact Joy. But after I did research on her and realized how big she was and all that she’s accomplished. I’ll be honest I was a little intimidated and thought. There is no way a lady in her position is going to take someone like me serious LOL. There’s no way she even has time for me. Not only is she this huge singer who as a kid was on Star Search, but has also been on numerous other tv shows/movies. I mean the first picture I found when doing my research. Was her posing with Smokey Robinson. Let’s not forget who her husband is too. He’s a huge Producer and song writer himself and has worked with numerous, very well known artists like, Mariah Carey, Whitney Houston, Beyoncé, Justin Bieber, Janet Jackson, Michael Jackson, Mary J Blige.  I mean that is just a few of the people he’s worked with. So why in the world would his wife and himself want to allow little ol me, not only interview her, but also feature her music on my site.

It’s a lot to get these people to trust you to let you use their songs. Because so many people in this world take this thing called the Internet for granted. And they take artists like her and plaster their songs all over the web. So for them to trust that I would not do that I know is big, and because she trusted me. If or when she reads this. I just want to say thank you. I never imagined you’d say yes to this interview. But then to also agree to allow me to interview you over the phone and not just through email, made it that much sweeter! The Lord definitely used you during this interview Joy, because it could not have come at a better time.

When I first contacted her like I said: I assumed shed agree to just interviewing her via email. I gave her the option to do skype or email, but I assumed shed choose email because only one other artist ever agreed to doing a Skype interview and honestly, well umm then that artist never showed up for the actual interview LOL. So I thought for sure a lady with her background would never allow anything more then a interview via email, and even that I thought was a long shot. But I believe Gods hands were on this and I believe Joy was obediant in allowing God to use her.

Because doing this interview taught me so much. When I realized who she really was. I so wanted to back out, because I was so imbaressed. I was like there is no way I can take up a lady as important as her time. She has 4 kids and this huge career and I’m just going to Facebook her and say: hey Im Jackie, I love music so can I interview you from my bedroom computer?? LOL. A little awkward don’t you think? LOL But the Lord has been pushing me to go out of my comfort zone a lot lately and I knew he was using this situation to do that once again. So as fearful as I was and as stupid as I felt I just kept telling myself, it’s ok you can do this, you can do this LOL. The good thing was once I got on the phone with Joy Enriquez I realized right away that she had a heart of GOLD and my fears were put at ease the second we started talking. (The only fear left at that point was my fear of Cameras LOL).

Ok that was the good stuff for August, now the bad stuff. As I briefly mentioned earlier  in this blog. I have been struggling with a lot of medical issues. As I think I mentioned in a previous blog. I have a pocket of fluid that keeps forming in my belly. That pocket of fluid along with a few other issues in my belly keep making me very sick. I keep getting extremely nauseated and can barely eat, and I  have extreme headaches. You see what’s happening is. Like I told you all before, my body may be small but all my organs are 30 year old organs. Plus I have a lot of major deformities (severe Scoliosis)  and then on top of that. I still have a huge amount of scar tissue that’s basically destroying my stomach and everything in that area. so in a nutshell everything is literally being crushed! Everything’s so overcrowded now that there isnt any room for my shunt to function properly. Remember the Shunt is what drains the Cerebrospinal fluid that continually builds up in and around my brain. The Shunt sucks that fluid up and drains it out into my stomach. But because there is literally no room left in my stomach. The fluid is now getting stuck in all the scar tissue, and is basically forming its own Bubble or Shell (pocket of fluid).

So the big question now is. If I’m running out of room in my own body to even hold a thin tube, then what do I do?? I have a few options it’s not a completely hopeless situation, nor is it a death sentence. But at the same time, the options that are available to me are very risky. I’ll be honest none of the options are good options and it’s all scary to think about. But at the same time, that’s what my entire life has been about, “Scary situations”. Like I told my family and primary Doctor. I’m not going to avoid what I need to do just because it’s scary or dangerous. My entire life has been about danger. So I will keep fighting, praying and believing, and will continue to figure out the smartest and safest way to treat all this. But at the same time, I’m not just going to sit on my hands avoiding the big questions and do nothing. I haven’t done that in 30 years so I will not start now!

The 30 curse! a lot of people do not know this, but in the world of OI (Osteogenesis Imperfecta) 30 is thought of as a “curse”. Because not only do the majority of people not even see 30, but the closer they get to it, and the ones that achieve it, go through hell! (Excuse the H word can’t think of any other word to use LOL) I have had so many conversations with both men and woman asking me aren’t you worried about turning 30? Aren’t you scared your bones are going to get weaker, or your going to get sicker? The answer I have is no, I’m not scared of any of that. The reality is yes I am following in those foot steps. I mean look at all the medical issues I just told you guys about. So I’m not going to deny that yes the older I get the more challenging things become, but why does that make me special? That’s life. The older anyone gets the more challenging life gets. I choose to not let OI take anymore then it already has, I choose to look at 30 as an accomplishment and blessing, not a curse.  And whatever challenges I face along the way, I choose to look at that as being life. You have your ups and your downs, your joys and sorrows. I choose to not look for an escape goat, and instead face things head on. Because through Christ I can do all things and with him comes victory. (Deuteronomy 20:4)  For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.” So when you read scriptures like that and when you know Your covered by the blood and know that when he died for you he not only saved you, but broke any curse that was ever placed!

Just keep fighting and moving forward. LIke  I said before, we have it in our heads how we imagine our life to go, but it’s not about what we want. It’s about him and the more we accept that, the easier life’s going to be. (Jeremiah 29:11) For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 I promise you if you keep fighting and trusting him, you will achieve victory. I’m going to leave you with this last scripture verse (Job 23:10) But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as GOLD. (Thank you Pasor Fah for that verse😜)

Ok guys just one last thing. I hope you all remember I am writing and publishing a book and as I have said that all is not cheap LOL. Thankfully because of the amazing birthday party my family threw me. I was able to raise a little more than half the funds I need for the book. So now we truly are SOOOOOO CLOSE!!! So if anyone that reads this could find it in their hearts to become a part of my Patreon campaign I’d really appreciate it. The Patreon campaign is basically a partnership. There’s different dollar amounts you can commit to giving. There’s one as low as $5.00 and what I like about this website is its not just about giving, but it’s about giving and receiving. To all those who commit to giving. There are different prizes/gifts you all get in return for giving. For example: Anyone who commits to donating $50 a Month. I will send you a THE-BOOK-OF-ROO magnet, a OI CAN DO ALL THINGS wristband and I will give some Perfectly Posh Products. That’s just the $50 level rewards but there’s some other great rewards on the site too so check it out.  Patreon Partnership Page

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August 14, 2014

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PSALMS 23:4-6


Hi all. I been trying to think of things to write about and I had been praying and praying but the LORD had given me nothing, and so that is why I have not wrote, because I told you all from day one I only want to be writing what GOD lays on my heart to write, and so all week, really all month I felt guilty for not writing,

Than Sunday morning came, I had been planning on celebrating my birthday that day, because my birthday was august 13th, but because august 13th fell on a wednesday, me and my family decided to get together on Sunday to make it easier, so anyways, Sunday as I was waking up and doing my usual praying and thinking in bed, before my crazy italian family decides to flood my day LOL. I kept thinking back to those very first hours that I was born, and kept thinking about those words the doctors told my parents and those words were: she will never live past 10 days!!!!

and for some reason that kept ringing in my ear over and over and than all of a sudden a question popped in my head, I wonder how many days I actually have lived this far??? excuse my language but  I suck at math and so I immediately went to my facebook for the answer and I said: I GOT A VERY IMPORTANT QUESTION FOR ALL THE SMART FACEBOOK PEOPLE. HOW MANY DAYS EQUALS 28 YEARS, I NEED THE ANSWER ASAP.

LOL Of course my amazing facebook friends and family immediately responded and we came up with 10,227 days!!! when I seen that number I just could not help but see a miracle. I was told over and over, you will be dead in 10 days, or you will be dead in 6 months, 1 year, 2 years and so on and so on. But I am here  celebrating my 28th year on this earth, and in doing that I just could not let this day go by without saying, no matter what Love always wins. He always wins, which is why I chose psalms 23:4-6 because I have lived those scripture verses out more than once.

You know when I started getting inspiration from the LORD to write todays blog, after I seen 10 days turned in to 10,227 days, GOD than kept giving me the word freedom and at first I was very confused by that, because I was like, okay GOD I get why you had me ask how many days equals 28 years, but I don’t get why you keep giving me the word freedom?

Than the answer finally came to me. When A lot of people see me, I know what they see, I am not dumb, and I definitely know what they may say: How can she give GOD so much credit? how can she talk about freedom? look at her she suffers every day of her life, and barely can move but yet says she’s grateful to GOD and says she’s free?  how is she free when she is tied down by two diseases every day??

I am here to tell you, if anyone thinks that, which lets be honest with ourselves, I know theres one or two in the bunch who do think that, and thats ok your human, but I am here to tell you, your one hundred percent wrong!!!. O.I (Osteogenesis Imperfecta) and Hydrocephalus do not tie me down,  I have been set free from them. You maybe thinking I am crazy for saying that, because to you being set free means the sickness must be totally  gone, but I am here to tell you I don’t agree. I agree GOD can heal anyone and anything, but freedom doesn’t always mean healing in the natural.

My body may not be healed, but my heart and spirit are, I am not controlled by the diseases, I do not plan my future around these diseases. Even though I walk
through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me your rod and your staff, they comfort me, and well you know the rest of that scripture 🙂 

Jeremiah 29:11 says: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. It does not say that scripture holds true to only the “healthy” it says: For I know the plans I have for you. GOD has a plan a destiny for each and every one of us, we just have to be willing to have the willpower and stamina to fight for and with the LORD to obtain that destiny. The LORD never said life would be easy, he just said it be worth it.

1 Corinthians 2:9 Says: : “What no eye has seen,what no ear has heard,and what no human mind has conceived” the things God has prepared for those who love him. For years, to this day even all I kept hearing from everyone, was death, you won’t live, you won’t talk, you won’t hear, everything was negative, everywhere me and my parents turned there was negativity being thrown at us, but we chose and I chose to do what the bible says, and it says  your faith might not rest on human wisdom, but on God’s power.

I may not have everything figured out, but one thing I do have figured out is GOD has kept me going for 10,227 days and thats all the answer I need to know that he is alive and still hears our prayers and carries me through every single day.

Years ago I had a major infection that spread thru me like wild fires and to make a long story short, if there ever was a time where I thought I was dying that was it, I truly had nothing left in me to fight and one night during all that I was so ready to go home to the LORD, my mom had laid in my bed that night and had seen the pain I was in and seen how much I was struggling, so that night she had told me it was ok to let go and be with the LORD, and I was very relieved when she said that, because I was ready, I knew where my home was and I was ready to pack my bags go, and so after she went to bed, I barely could open my eyes but I did because I felt something rubbing my head and I assumed it was my mother, I assumed she had gotten back up and was the one touching me and so I went to look up at her, but when I looked up she was not there, no one was there and than the LORD reminded me that someone earlier that day told me she seen an angel at my bedside and that angel was rubbing my head, and so I than started crying because I knew what I was feeling on my head was an angel rubbing me and I assumed the angel was there to take me home and so I started praying to GOD and basically was like ok GOD lets get this party started get this angel to take me home LOL.

The LORD than told me this angel was not there to take me home, but was there to strengthen and encourage me, and he told me to be prepared because my battle was not even close to being over, but that it would be worth it, because the destiny he had planned for me was not fully fulfilled yet and ill be honest when he first told me, he was not there to take me home and that my battle was not even half over, I was pretty depressed LOL, but than when he assured me that what he had in store for me would be worth it and would be beyond my wildest dreams, I gave in and basically just said ok LORD let your will be done.

Saying that and giving up total control and letting the LORD be ruler over me and my destiny was the hardest thing I have ever done, but the best thing. The LORD was right that battle lasted 4 months, and honestly my body never fully recovered from that battle, but the LORD was so right, it was worth the fight to stay and live, because I held out, I got to see my brother and sister get married, I got to see my sister have her daughter, I got to experience life as an auntie to my beautiful niece and I get to write and publish my own book and thats only a small portion of some of the stuff I have gotten to do since that day.

The JOY I felt and the strength I felt when that angel was touching me, there are no words for how amazing that moment was, and I thank the LORD every day for allowing me that intimate moment with him and his angels. I really wanted to post a video of me singing in christ alone, because the words to that song fit perfectly with this blog but in order to have made the video I would of had to wait to post the blog until next week, because we have a full house right now, I have family in town from florida and I just would never be able to get enough quiet time to be able to make the video, but I am begging you all, go listen to that song for me, because the words fit perfectly with what my hearts sharing today and also I promise the next blog I post will have a video of me singing  🙂

I really wanted to avoid you all hearing me sing, but I really feel the LORDS telling me to do that, so that will be my goal next blog singing!!! PLEASE BE PRAYING FOR ME BECAUSE ILL NEED ALL THE PRAYERS I CAN GET FOR THAT ONE LOL.

A fast update before I end the book is almost done, and I really could use any donations your willing to give, because publishing a book is going to cost money, money I do not have LOL so please help support my dream and thanks in advance to anyone who does. remember if you want to give a donation just click on our facebook tab and than donate, or you could send it by clicking this button Donate Button with Credit Cards

 Also please most importantly pray! pray for this book, pray for me, pray for this website, just pray!!!! please pray!!! LOL.

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December 9, 2013


1 PETER 3:8


Hi all I am back!!! LOL (laugh out loud) I am so so sorry I haven’t wrote in almost a year! But I have a good reason why I haven’t wrote and for once it has nothing to do with my health, thank you JESUS!!!.

Before I get in to why I have not blogged, and where I have been all this time, let me first start off by saying: I have been doing amazingly well health wise, at least for me its amazingly well LOL. It has been almost an entire year since I have been admitted in to any hospital, and again ill say: THANK YOU JESUS!!!!.

I had one little scare about two months ago, where I did have one of what I call my,” stomach attacks” but thankfully I did not have to be admitted for that, it did take a lot out of me though, because it was the first time, that had happened since my surgery in January of 2012. So my body was not used to feeling that way, so it did take a few days to get back on my feet, or in my case, I guess it be, my wheels LOL.

So the big announcement!!!! where has Jackie been for almost a year, if she was not sick???? Jackie has been working her butt off, thats where she’s been LOL. As you all know, my one dream and one of the reasons I even started this website, was to write my own book. so thats what I have been doing over the past, id say 9 months. I have been writing a book and it hasn’t been easy LOL.

And sadly my blog has kind of been pushed to the back burner sort of speak, because by the time I am done writing for my book its already about two in the morning and a girl does have to sleep at some point LOL, but honestly and truly, I have not forgotten my blog or any of the people who follow it, but there truly is only so much time in one day and as I said from day one, I would focus on whatever I felt the LORD leading me to do, and as of about April of last year I really felt the LORD starting to pull at my heart to start moving on this book and so I am happy and most of all proud to say: I obeyed and started writing it and am hoping it will be finished by the new year!!!!

Now I am not saying it will be printed by the new year, I am just saying ill be done writing it by the new year LOL, having it printed is a whole new story and another journey ill be traveling down very soon, but I have decided even if I have troubles getting it printed, which means if I have trouble finding someone that would be willing to help get physical copies of it printed up, than I will go down the road of just turning it in to a ebook, until I find a publisher. So thats the story of where I been and what I been up to and all that good stuff LOL.

Now lets get down to business shall we? awhile ago, ill be honest, a long, LONG!!! while ago LOL, the LORD started giving me this word to share with you guys, but I did not feel I had his blessing, sort of speak, to give this word, up until now!!!.

WHERE DID OUR COMPASSION GO???? I felt GOD laying that question on my heart a few months ago, when I experienced two incidents on  facebook. One incident was a good one and one was a more negative one. I will share the negative one first, one day I shared something on my THE-BOOK-OF-ROO facebook page.

Here is a screen shot of what I had on my facebook page:


This was a post KCTV posted awhile back, they were asking people to please help this little boy who was extremely sick, and over time I had been really inspired and touched by this kids story, so all I did was share that post and put please read. Well little did I know what drama that post would start for me LOL.

After I shared that post, I was not at all focusing on where the post had came from, all I was focusing on is this poor sick boy who had no one, and the fact that he needed help. I received some very angry comments about this particular post, because the second people seen this post, they focused on every thing but the story.

When I shared this post all they (my followers) seen was where the post came from, and where that post came from was KCTV, which stands for KIM CLEMENT!! some may be asking at this point who is this Kim Clement guy??? and some may be rolling their eyes as they see me writing his name. You see when it comes to Kim Clement people either love him or they hate him LOL,

For the record I love him and his ministry, and I do all I can to support it, but that is not the point or moral of this story. Kim Clement for those of you who do not know of him, he is a prophet, yes you heard me right, a prophet! LOL. I know there are many debates over prophets, and who believes in them and who doesn’t, but I am not here to get in to that debate with you, so no one start sending me letters debating on if you think this guys a man of GOD or not, because frankly I don’t care what you all think about him LOL. I am mentioning this, not because of the prophet, but because of the kid in this photo, and how some of you reacted when you seen this kid.

The sad thing of when I posted this, not one person stepped up and said: what can I do?, or even a, I will pray for this boy. All most of them focused on, is where the post had originated from, and what that guy (Kim Clement) stood for. That is so sad to me, I want to throw up just thinking about it. Have we become so religious that we forgot what we stand for???

That post was not about Kim Clement, it was about a young boy stuck in china with no family who was literally dying!!!, and that man, Kim Clement, that a lot of you yelled at me for supporting, him and his wife and his family were the ones who ended up taking that boy in along with 3 other special needs kids.

Jeremiah 9:1 says: Oh, that my head were a spring of water and my eyes a fountain of tears! I would weep day and night for the slain of my people. This is how we should be towards our people. GOD created us to be able to look in every direction, he did not create us to just look straight ahead.

People including Christians have become so competitive, and I swear its getting worse instead of better LOL, we all want to be noticed, or be number one, and don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with perfection, but don’t become so close minded and so focused on perfection that you lose sight of whats really important in life, and most importantly, don’t lose sight of  GODS heart.

I hate to mention her again, but here I go LOL. I love the meaning of Beckah Shaes love glasses and I love how in her own creative way she’s teaching kids every day to look with love. I am begging you all wear those love glasses, don’t look at things with such anger and judgement, but look at them with LOVE.

We have to get our compassion back for one another, I have seen so many situations over the past few years that have left my head spinning, because I cant believe how close minded we have become and how focused we are on me, me, me. I have to have the perfect kids, the perfect house, I mean even in the church we try to be the “perfect Christians” and give that “perfect family” image and we get so focused on all that, that we forget to look and see whats happening around us.

go beyond your four walls and your little “perfect world” that if we all were honest with one another really isn’t so perfect anyways, because no one has it all figured out LOL.

The second thing I seen on facebook that made me ask where did our compassion go, was when I seen a post that Jack Shocklee posted awhile back after he had come back from a mission trip. I am sure you all know who Jack Shocklee is, but incase someone does not know who he is, Jack Shocklee owns shae shoc records with Beckah Shae, he is a producer, he produces Christian music for many well known artists, he is also Beckah Shae’s husband (obviously) and has produced all her songs as well.

A while ago, after him and Beckah came back from one of their mission trips, I seen him post a picture of a beautiful little baby girl, and he  commented on how much he loved this baby and how cute she was, and even though thats some thing sort of small, it really touched my heart and blessed and inspired me, because I thought to myself, wow here is this big time producer bragging about how much he loves this baby who he just met and who he has no attachment to.

And it made me think, if everyone had a heart for people like those two have, where would we be??? if we all just stopped with the me, me, me attitudes and just looked beyond ourselves, how great would life be? would there even be poor people?? Now don’t get me wrong, I am not saying they (Beckah and Jack)  are perfect LOL, I am sure they have flaws, haven’t seen any, but I am sure they have them LOL, but all Im saying is we need to get beyond ourselves and get back to our roots, and having a compassionate heart, is part of our roots.

Because there was no one that had a more compassionate heart than Jesus did, He gave his life for us, because he felt compassion for his people. He was willing to endure all that pain so we would not have to. Who other than Jesus would do that?? Im not saying to give your all, but I do think its about time we stop having that one track mind mentality and, that we start looking to the right and to the left and start seeing the pain that people are enduring around us, and I feel its time we start shinning the light in those dark places.

When I was writing this blog I kept feeling the LORD telling me to look up the definition of the “me generation” and at first I ignored that because I kept saying to myself, GOD thats just a saying, or a phrase people made up, how in the world would I look it up, and why? I already know what it means, and I kept feeling him pushing me to look it up, so I did, I googled it.

And when I seen what was on my search engine, I started cracking up. This is what it says, it says: the “me generation” is characterized by material things. It is time we get out of the “me generation” and start being what GODS called us to be.

Colossians 3:12 says:  Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.  Thats what were supposed to be kind, compassionate, gentle, patient, love, Thats what GOD has called us to be. So stop looking at your own situation, your own desires, and look at what GODS called you to be.

Last year when I was in the hospital, GOD was showing me again a situation, where compassion was lost. this was april of last year, I was having a very minor surgery on my arm, I wasn’t even admitted, I came home an hour after it, but while I was there and they were prepping me to go in to surgery, there was two other patients, one was to the left of me and one was in front of me.

The one to the left of me was a young teen maybe 14 at the most, and my heart broke for him, he was just about to go in to surgery for what I think was some type of exploratory operation. His bed was right next to mine and they did have the curtains closed, but with it being so close to me, it was hard not to over hear the situation, and the situation was this, the kid was in foster care, and you could just see the anger in this kid and you could see how unloved and hopeless he felt, and yet because he was only in his early teens, you could see the fear in him about going in to surgery.

And all you could see that this kid wanted, was someone to show him some compassion and love, he had absolutely no one there with him but a caseworker, and the caseworker was not very heartfelt, or compassionate towards his situation. You could see he was just a job to her and worse, I could see he seen it too. I don’t know the outcome of that kids surgery, when I came out of my surgery, he was gone, But ever since that day, I been praying for kids that are in his shoes, and praying that one day things will change, and people will learn to be more compassionate towards kids like that.

There was another kid in a bed in front of me, she probably was not even seven years old, and she had a Trach in her, which means she had a tube in her neck, which made her unable to speak, and it broke my heart, because this kid had no one by her side either, and you even heard the nurses whispering to one another, is this kids parents ever going to come?? because this girl was trying to act so brave, but yet you could see the fear in this child’s eyes. So here I am laying in a bed with two kids on each side of me, with no one, and yet near my bed I not only have a parent on each side, but I have them fighting over which one gets to wheel me in to surgery and place me on the operating table LOL.

And in that moment when usually, I am starting to get nervous, and upset, and usually feel every negative feeling you can think of, I felt complete peace and was so thankful for the life I was given and for the family I have. A friend asked me just the other day, if I have ever asked why me?? and I told him heck no, I am someone who was supposed to be dead within ten days after birth, so how could I feel anything but blessed and grateful to GOD that I experienced everything, that I have been able to experience.

The video I have featured above is all about the true meaning of Christmas, and how its not about gifts, but its about the love of CHRIST. the video features a Christian artist named Natalie Villa, she has been such a sweetheart to me and I am going to be featuring more of her music very soon along with an interview.

There have been four woman who have blessed me and showed me more compassion than anyone I know, (not counting my family) LOL Jill Parr, Beckah Shae, Kathleen Carnali, and Natalie Villa. Thank you four ladies for shining such a bright and loving light  on to me and for being so patient with me and allowing me to feature your music on my blogs and brag about you all and pester you whenever I need prayer or encouragement, it has meant a lot and I have truly been blessed by you all 🙂

One fast announcement before I end, as I am sure you seen in the video. I have teamed up with my friend Sean Giachetti and Rock water ministries, to help raise money to give a family, or families, in need a Christmas this year. We have started a fundraiser page called: THE HEART OF CHRISTMAS. Proverbs 3:28 says: “Do not say to your neighbor, “Come back tomorrow and I’ll give it to you”– when you already have it with you.” I know its Christmas time and our funds are low, but any money you could donate to that page we would greatly appreciate it, and more importantly the families that you will be helping will appreciate it.

I would really like to start a page like this, but make it last all year long, I would eventually like to keep blessing families through out the entire year not just at Christmas, but for now I am taking baby steps and am going to see how this goes and if it goes as well as I hope than I will carry it out all year long 🙂

Please know that, the family that you bless, we will do our best to get you a picture of that family, so you can be a part of the gift giving experience, but if the family objects to having their picture taken, than there is nothing we can do, but we our going to try our best to get you all pictures of the families receiving their gifts 🙂 this is the link to The Heart of Christmas Fundraiser page, please click and give      


FIRST PRAYER REQUEST IS FROM A MOTHER, HER NAMES FRAN, SHE SAYS:  My 19 year old has fallen into the humanism
School of thought. He’s been raised in a Christian home, made his profession of faith at a young age. He is at a Christian camp right now where many of the leaders are praying for him. Pray for a strong piercing transformation while he’s there, that Jesus would reveal himself to my son Blake.

SECOND PRAYER REQUEST IS FROM A WOMAN NAMED ANA, SHE SAYS:  Please pray for my Brother Randy ,He has a stage 4 Metastatic Esophageal Cancer and the Doctor told us that He has only 3-6 months to live,Last Month He had an esophagectomy Operation but they found out that His Cancer spread to His Liver…He is Only 43 years old and have 3 kids,her eldest. Is 8 years old and the youngest is 1 year old…and Please pray for my Brother Raniel Galvez,He is 42 years old and have Thyroid Cancer.Thank You very much and God bless.


Please pray for my girlfriend Angel and I. My girlfriend Angel and I haven’t talked to each other in about a week. I am not to sure what is going on with us. We have known each other for about 5 years and have been going out for 5 months. Things were going good between us as far as I knew before Angel moved. After Angel moved I tried to hang out with her at times, but Angel kept telling me that she was busy and didn’t have time to see or hang out with me. Angel does have 3 kids and recently hurt her arm and shoulder having her arm in a sling. Angel has told me that she does care about me, that I am a wonderful guy and that she wants to work things out between us. Lately it seems like she is either to busy or doesn’t want to hang out with me. I have been for the past week trying to give her some space and only sent her an email apologizing for possibly being a little to pushy maybe and bothering her by trying to hang out with her and find out what’s going on. I do like and care about her a lot and would like things to work out with her. I know that 2 of her kids have said that they don’t have a problem with me and that it doesn’t bother them when I am over their house visiting. Yes, Angel could be busy, but I find it a little hard to think that for the past couple weeks to a month that she is so busy that she can’t find anytime to hang out or let me come over and visit for at least 15 minutes. I would like for us to be in an open, honest relationship and have it work out. I also know that her kids father doesn’t care for me and has complained about me to Angel. I know her kids don’t like to listen to well and her oldest daughter is a little bit of a problem child. Please pray for healing for Angel, her kids and I. Pray that our relationship can be mended and saved from falling apart. That we can get through the storms and trails in our life together. Also, that we can be open and honest with each other. Pray that Angel will start showing more that she does care and want to be with me like she says she does. Pray that I can be patient and give Angel the space she needs. That Angel can get the help she need with her kids as well. that Angel and I can become one flesh together with Jesus at the center of our relationship together.




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November 13, 2012

JOHN 11:25


 Hi all my, THE-BOOK-OF-ROO peeps, I am so sorry its been ages since I wrote a blog I know, but I have some good reasons as to why that is and actually they kind of go hand in hand with what I am centering this blog on LOL (laugh out loud).
AS you all know from my last blog, I went through a pretty excuse my language, but hellish year LOL (LAUGH OUT LOUD) thats the only word I can think of to describe the year I had. But even though I had a crazy insane year I would not of traded it for anything, and when I said in one of my first blogs in the beginning of the year, that this year would be a year of blessings and one of the best yet, I meant it and I still do mean it.
Because even through the struggles GOD continued to bless me and had his hands on me the entire time, and after I wrote that last blog a few months ago, I felt the LORD telling me to take some time off of blogging and grow, so thats what I been doing these past few months, I been learning a lot about how to run and design websites and how to make and produce videos and most importantly how to write, and youtube has become my new best friend LOL (laugh out loud)
Since I think, july of 2010 GOD has put the word DESTINY on my heart, what does the word destiny mean?? and do we even realize the importance of that word, do we even comprehend what that word means or how strong of a word that is???
Over the past year or longer I have been trying to understand how strong that word DESTINY is and why GOD had laid that word on my heart so deeply.  The Lord really knows how to make me laugh, during this whole time of the LORD laying that word on me, I found out Beckah Shae, and yes im bringing her in to the picture once again LOL (laugh out loud), I found out she was releasing a new CD and the name of that CD would be called DESTINY!!!!
So I decided to make a video about two songs she did on the destiny album the songs are called, are you ready?? and of course the other is called DESTINY and is what the whole album is based on, so please watch the video along with reading this blog or you wont get the full effect of what im taking about LOL (LAUGH OUT LOUD).
So what does destiny mean? Well I think it depends on the person, but heres what the definition of the word destiny is.
It says: it is a predetermined course of events.  So heres what I get out of it, yes GOD holds our destiny, but we determine our steps, which than determines what GOD does.  Proverbs 6:32 says:   But a man who commits adultery has no sense; whoever does so destroys himself.
When we read that scripture we mostly focus on the fact that they are talking about committing adultery right? Well for today I dont want you to focus on that word, or the fact that they even said the word adultery, I want you to focus on the fact that they are talking about a choice man is making and how that one choice can interfere with their destiny.
In a way think of it as a choice between good and evil, GOD says a man that commits adultery has no sense and whoever does so destroys himself, destroys himself!.  Can you believe that one wrong decision in life and you can literally destroy yourself??
The point im trying to make is that people take choices in life for granted, but our choices are what makes us. People my age always give excuses and when they make the wrong choice they say: oh well im young, or im just having a little fun, or the best one I have heard them say is, im trying to find myself.  Hearing that kind of crap kills me, because its not that easy or that simple your choices effect your future, your destiny.
Even the small choices in life can affect our destiny, its time we wake up and stop taking advantage of our lives and start really thinking about the choices we make in our lives.
Philippians 3:18-19 says:  For, as I have often told you before and now tell you again even with tears, many live as enemies of the cross of Christ.  Their destiny is destruction, their GOD is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is set on earthly things.
Dont be like this, stop setting your minds on earthly things, life is to short for that, set your mind on the destiny GOD has for you, not man.  I been hearing so many people lately complaining about the future of our country and how they think one man can just destroy everything we worked so hard to build, Christians are the ones saying this kind of stuff and it is devastating to me, because if we are “SAVED” ( a Christian) than are we not covered by the blood of Jesus? isn’t that why Jesus died for us to protect us from this kind of thing?
Listen I dont know the president personally and so I dont know whats in that mans heart and either do any of you, there are many, many evil people in this world, im not saying the president is one of those people, but lets just say for a minute that he is, ok than what??? do you really think that one man can change the course of our destiny?? no only GOD and our flesh can change the course of our destiny.
Stop living  in fear!!! I always say life’s a battle so fight, and just for the record, I actually am for president Obama,  but the president does not own us or our destiny, so again ill say shut up and stop your whining and live your life to the fullest and live it joyfully Because as a child of GOD we can make a difference just as much as the president can.
Which brings me to my next point, what have you done in your own life to make a difference in this world?? what have you sacrificed?  No matter if you agree with Obamas decisions and choices or not, you can not deny that man and any other man that has gone before him has not sacrificed their lives to make our country the best it could be, may be they have stumbled along the way a little, but dont we all?? Oh but Jackie hes the president he should know better, no hes a human being just like the rest of us, he has flaws just like the rest of us, he has scars just like the rest of us, he bleeds just like the rest of us, and why, because again hes a human being, thats the difference between man and GOD.
Thats why Obama is called the president of our country and the LORD is called the LORD over all things.  So may be you dont agree with everything, but hey at least the mans trying, im not saying we should all try to be president ok LOL (laugh out loud) but im saying every one of us can choose things that can make a difference in this world, but do we always do that?? I know I dont, and I think its time that changes, we need to stop being lazy and pull out that armor!!
Habakkuk 2:2-3 says: Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it.  For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false.  Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay. when I read that scripture it reminded me of when I was growing up.  You see years ago my dads dream was to start a landscaping company, and his dream was to have a tractor and a red truck and many other things that you obviously need to start a landscaping business, and at the time he had no clue how to make all these dreams come true. He was young, never finished school and definitely did not have many people in his life that could guide or encourage him, all he pretty much had was his faith and GODS word, and my mom LOL (laugh out loud). But that was enough for him, he started his business the same year I was born, which honestly that did not make it any easier. When I was born and both him and my mom realized how sick I was they could of both said hold it, we cant do this, its to risky right now, But they did not walk in fear, they did not let the shock of my birth or the many challenges we faced stop them, they still went through with it, and when they made that choice to start Alpha & Omega landscaping and snowplowing my dad carved a scripture on a plack that said.
Hebrews 11:1 it says:  Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.  And when he made that plack he than went and found little toy trucks and tractors and placed them in front of that sign and every day he looked at that sign and believed in faith that those toy trucks and tractors would become reality one day.
And you know what everything he prayed for and everything he stood on faith for and patiently waited for, GOD gave him, exactly like he wanted down to the color of the trucks even LOL (laugh out loud)
Now dont get me wrong im not saying he did all this and it instantly happened, it took years to achieve everything he achieved, but he did it, even though he had many people thinking he could not do it, he did, he started a landscaping business from the ground up.
And that landscaping business is what not only put food on the table, but is also what gave us everything we have.  Why am I bringing all this up you ask? to show you that if you stay on GODS path and follow the destiny you know he has for you, it will come to pass.
It may take years like my dads did, but it still came to pass.  I and my parents were told time and time again from the day I was born that I would never have a future or a destiny, and that I would be dead within weeks, but we stood on GODS word and his promises.
I stood on scriptures like, Proverbs 17:22 A merry heart does good, like medicine, But a broken spirit dries the
bones, or Philippians 4:13  I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and any time I felt like I was battling this disease alone I would be reminded of, Isaiah 49:16 that says this,  See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;  your walls are ever before me.
Our country has gone through so much this month with hurricane Sandy, and if that didn’t teach us how instantly our life’s could change than nothing will, enjoy life, dont dwell on it.
Proverbs 18:10 says:  The name of the Lord is a fortified tower the righteous run to it and are safe.  You all know a lot of my story and especially what I had gone through over the past winter, and it started to get very stressful as I had said in a past blog, and it came to a point where I was at a loss on what to do and I had started to question the destiny GOD had for me.
And it came to a point where I had to do exactly what proverbs 18:10 says I had nothing else left in me and all I could do anymore was just literally run to GOD and give him it all.  I remember right before that last surgery I felt so uplifted I truly did feel GOD holding me in that room.
Even though the surgery did not work out perfectly and yes I still get stomachaches from time to time, I still believe it did help in a way, I have been sick here and there, but I have not had to be admitted in to any hospital since Easter, and for me thats like a world record LOL (laugh out loud).
The past few weeks I had been praising GOD and really just trying to get my mind back on focusing on this website and you know some times when things are going really well for you and your filled with joy, the devil can try to take that away from you, and I dont know how you all believe ,that read my blogs, but I believe you can have spiritual encounters and some are good and some are bad and I think you have to determine whats, what.
And recently I was half asleep and half awake and all of a sudden I seen this ugly looking thing, that I dont even know if it was male or female, im thinking female but I dont know LOL (laugh out loud) and this thing kept smirking at me and started whispering the word death to me.
And when it first appeared it was all the way in the corner of my room and it kept moving closer and closer to me till it was standing over my bed and it went to put its hands around my neck while saying the word death and I forced myself to fully wake up and I just started praying.
And I was like ok what the heck was that about?? Even though I had experienced this creepy thing I wasn’t in fear, I prayed and the LORD started showing me what this was about, and what it was about is this.
Some times when we go to achieve things in our destiny we become crippled in fear and that is so, so sad, the devil does stuff naturally every day to cripple us, to disable us, and yes I know interesting choice of words coming from me LOL (laugh out loud) but its true there are things in every corner of our lives trying to disable us, when that devil tried to speak death over me, I could of let fear take over and I could of said oh my GOSH, am I finally dying?? but I didn’t, when that thing said the word death, I didn’t even react to it, because I knew it was a scare tactic,
I knew it was trying to take some thing that it knew I was sensitive about and use it against me and I knew to be smarter than that.  We have to be strong and know that we are covered by the blood of JESUS and no man nor devil can put fear in us or speak death over our lives ever, so next time you feel fear kicking in,  or someone starts speaking death over you, do what I did and kick it to the curb.
Ok just two fast announcements and than im done, part of my journey these past few months has been figuring out what way GOD wanted me to expand this website, and I finally received my answer.  As you all know I love writing, not just about my life but also about music, so what I am going to do is start a page where I interview different artists that have touched my heart over the years
And actually I already have three interviews started with three amazing christian artists and I cannot wait to share them all with you.  Also the second thing the LORD had been showing me is that, this is becoming not just a website not just a business not just a blog but also a ministry, and I dont mean this in a disrespectful or rude or selfish way, but building  a business or ministry can become very expensive at times LOL (laugh out loud) and so one of the things I started on here was a online store.
The LORD has been giving me different ideas over the months and my first creation is these lovely bracelets below and they say O.I CAN DO ALL THINGS and of course what that represents is Philippians 4:13 but also what it represents is the disease I am battling, which is called O.I (Osteogenesis Imperfecta) and is another reason why the bracelets say O.I instead of just I CAN DO ALL THINGS, also the reason why they are yellow, is because yellow is what most people with O.I use to represent O.I.  You can find these bracelets on the side of my home page or on my facebook page, which again is THE-BOOK-OF-ROO I also have added a link at the bottom of this blog that will bring you to the store page, just to warn you though, as of right now we only accept paypal.
The money I collect from these bracelets will go partly towards the O.I foundation or rainbows babies and children’s hospital here in Ohio.
Also if you do not want to buy a bracelet but yet feel led to give a donation to THE-BOOK-OF-ROO you can on the facebook page, just click the box that says donate, again though please be warned THE-BOOK-OF-ROO only accepts paypal as of right now.
The reason im also trying to raise money, is not only to build the site up and help other foundations, but my dream or my goal, is to one day have enough funds raised to start my own foundation,  to help others, so that is also why im doing all of this LOL (laugh out loud).
Well this is another long blog but I really hope you enjoyed it and I really hope you keep reading and following me.  Ill end with this and than ill shut up I promise LOL (laugh out loud), I was having a conversation with a friend a few weeks ago and GOD reminded me of one of the first scriptures we learn in the bible as a kid in children’s church, Do you know what it is?? its
1 Samuel  17:49  it says: Reaching into his bag and taking out a stone, he slung it and struck the Philistine on the forehead. The stone sank into his forehead, and he fell facedown on the ground.  It is talking about David and Goliath.  The LORD reminded me of this because he wanted to prove to me once again, how he wants a fearless generation.  He wants people that are small and weak in the natural, but that are huge in the spirit to get out there and fight like david.
Complaining and expressing your feelings on facebook isn’t fighting for your destiny, GOD wants you to be brave and fearless we need to be a david generation and get out there and fight for our destiny.  Anyone that knows me can tell you I have given every ounce that is in me to fight for my destiny and I will continue doing so all the days of my life.  GOD BLESS YOU ALL THANKS FOR READING REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND AM PRAYING FOR YOU ALL AND PLEASE DONT FORGET TO SEND IN YOUR PRAYER REQUESTS TO MY PRAYER REQUEST PAGE. AND REMEMBER JESUS LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.  Below is the link to bracelets and facebook page




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