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MY DISABILITY DOES NOT DEFINE ME!

March 5, 2018

The book of rooMATTHEW 7:12

SO IN EVERYTHING, DO TO OTHERS WHAT YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO TO YOU, FOR THIS SUMS UP THE PAW AND THE PROPHETS. 

Hi all, I know it’s been awhile since I wrote but life has been pretty hectic lately. People may think I’m not busy because I do not leave my house much, but trust me I have my hands full. I’m up almost every Night till at least 2AM focusing on finishing this book! Plus I got about 6 different Companies that me and my Mom partnered with and sell products for. We are doing it not to “Make Money” but are doing it to hopefully earn a little extra cash to put towards my book because I do not always want to go asking you all for donations all the time LOL. Speaking of the book it’s going fantastic, we’re almost at the finish line, but I probably will be another two weeks behind schedule and that’s because it’s my choice to push the release date back and the reason why that is. Is because I got to know a lovely Lady who is a Christian artist and writer and she is willing to look over my book and hopefully be able to give me some feed back and constructive criticism to help improve what I have already written. So that you all could truly enjoy and understand my story!

As far as my life in general and health, things are great. GOD IS SO GOOD! he truly is a miracle maker. I’m not going to say I’m never sick, because I am, I’m sick all the time and it’s still a struggle to leave the house at times. But I also am not nearly as sick as I was two Years ago and I am finally able to occasionally leave my house and actually enjoy things when I do leave. And the best part and still hard for my brain to comprehend and even accept yet. But I have not thrown up in over a Year. Now a heathy “average” person who does not struggle with health issues may not fully comprehend how big of a deal that is, but it’s huge it’s like the ultimate blessing and gift that the LORD could have ever given me. I went from spending weeks, and months in the hospital to now going on almost two years without a single admission. If I make it to October I’ll have had no admissions for TWO YEARS! and if that happens it will be the first time in my entire life (31 Years) that has happened. If I do not make the two year mark it will be ok and I’ll understand and I’ll be grateful for the time I have had to enjoy, but a girl can dream can’t she? LOL.

Now as grateful as I am for being HEALTHY, did the word Healthy just come out of my Mouth? You bet it did BABY!! LOL but even tho im thrilled about that, as you all can tell LOL. That still is not the reason I decided to write this blog. Even though I love any opportunity I can get to come on here and chat with you all, I still do not come on for small talk. As I told you all from day one and continue to tell you every time I write. I do not come and write just when I feel like it. Any time I come on here it is because the LORD is speaking to me and laying something on my heart to share.

I had no idea I’d be writing a article this week, this wasn’t even on my radar. That is until the past 2-3 days. The LORD started speaking to me after an incident I went through with a fellow Facebook friend and “Customer”. You see about 4 days ago I was in the middle of a Facebook live. I go on Facebook live 2-3 times a week and a feature Jewelry. Paparazzi Accessories $5 Jewelry to be exact LOL. Some of you may have heard of this Company before. Honestly out of all the companies I have sold for I’m doing the best with this company, but that’s besides the point, let’s get back to my story.

So anyways I set everything up and I got on Facebook live and started showing everything I had for sale (some of you may have seen me on before) So I get on Facebook and I start doing my thing and I notice this one viewer who has come on my lives several times and who has tried several times to get my attention, but has never purchased anything. I respectfully Acknowledged this person every single time they came on, but at same time I always kept a wall up because I just felt in my gut this person was after something more than jewelry. I also couldn’t understand why they would come on every time and never buy anything. But than I yelled at myself for thinking that way and I told myself I was becoming to judgmental and I had to remember I didn’t know this persons circumstances. Maybe they couldn’t afford to buy anything, or maybe they just liked to watch. So I continued to allow this person to watch and every time they came on. I was very respectful, but still something kept telling me to keep my guard up. Than in my last live they finally requested to buy a few pieces of my jewelry and even said they might sign up under ROOS TREASURES (mine and my Moms business name) so than I felt really guilty. I was like oh my gosh I feel so awful for judging this lovely Christian person and I started to beat myself up about it. I kept saying how could I judge a Christian church going person like that! I was very embarrassed. Than after the live I sent this person a invoice, which is my routine and right away they answered me and started chatting me up and that’s when they told me they may sign up under Roos Treasures,

So when they said that, than I felt extra guilty and than they started giving me all these compliments and saying how much they would love to be a part of the company. But than in the same breath they made fun of my disability and even criticized how I do things. But I allowed this person to talk to me like that because I thought I was getting a big sale out of it. This person had the nerve to even make fun of my arms being bent and basically said I should have a helper because of it and basically told me I can’t handle doing this on my own because of my disability. Of course when I confronted them about this comment they than said that wasn’t what they meant. But I’m going to let you all be the judge. When a person says it must be hard with your T-rex arms how would you take that?

Thank God I know who created me and I know I am created in his PERFECT IMAGE! and people like this do not make me feel any less of a person. My parents along with the LORD raised a FIGHTER! this persons comment and what they put me through next (Because yes there’s more to this story) but it did not make me sad or upset, it made me ANGRY. And made me not only want to stand up for myself but also stand up for all Special needs people, especially Adults! Which is why I’m writing this blog.

Out of respect for this person I am not putting their name or even if they were male or female, because my intentions are not to blast them on social media. But my intention for this article is to share my story to help, and encourage others, disabled or not!

After that person made the comment about having T-Rex arms and stating that because of my T-Rex arms I wasn’t very organized or capable of handling this. They than asked if they could give me a “word” you know a word from God, a “PROPHECY”. Yep you heard that right, let’s try to break someone’s spirit in one breathe and the next give a “word”.

Of course the “Word” they gave me was nothing different than anything others have said to me. Jackie I see God stretching your arms and legs! I must have gotten this same “word” over a dozen times. With as many times as people said GODS going to “stretch” me. I should be about 8 feet tall by now LOL. To anyone who sees a person in similar conditions as I’m in. I know your first instinct is going to be to go over to the person and give them a word just like this and I know you mean well. And when I say this I’m not trying to be disrespectful to any of you, please know that. I say this with nothing but respect. But don’t waste your time giving that word. Number 1 most people in my condition have much more to worry about than our hight and our bent arms and legs. How about our heart conditions, our constrictive lung issues, or digestive system issues. The list goes on and on. But my point is we have a lot more to worry about than our bones being small and bent. So GOD needs to do a lot more than grow us. We need a Miracle, not a “healing”. There’s a big difference between those two things and I totally believe the LORD could do it for me and anyone of us. But here’s a newsflash, as far as I go, he has done a miracle on me. I am a living breathing 24/7 miracle, and like I told that person on Facebook. God already took what was broken and made it Beautiful. He made me and my life a beautiful living miracle. So you all can keep your straight arms and legs I am who I am supposed to be! Because the outer shell is not what makes me Jackie! It’s what’s in my heart, my soul, my spirit. And GOD has done a miracle in that time and time again.

After that night with that person on Facebook.. 48 hours passed and of course they still didn’t pay their invoice for the jewelry they supposedly wanted. So I went to them and nicely asked them what they wanted me to do. At first they told me oh don’t worry hun I definitely want them I just can’t pay till Thursday. So I said ok no problem and continued to wait and also hold on to the pieces they supposedly wanted (that I could have sold to someone else). Than Thursday came and at 1AM I get a message from this person stating that they were sorry but that they won’t be joining the company under Roos Treasures. They decided to join under another seller. If this person would have said that and nothing more I would have been fine with it. Them not joining under Roos Treasures is irrelevant to the story. But what they said next is what got me angry. They said I just feel your not organized and that you can’t really handle this! I said: wow that’s a little rude but ok! They said: oh hun I’m not trying to be rude I just have to make money and I’m not going to if I join under you! I need someone that can mentor me.

Now the sad thing about everything this person said is number 1, they never asked me how I ran things or what my routine was. They also never asked what Roos Treasures numbers were as far as sales. But judged me by how I look. No one in my condition and under my circumstances is more organized than me. I live in a very small house and I only have so much room to showcase things. I also cannot put things to far away from me because of the fact that I can’t sit up or walk. So for a 25 inch lady who can only put stuff in a circle around them and who can only put it about a foot away from their body. I think I’m pretty gosh darn organized and good at this. I’m not saying I don’t have things to learn because we all can improve. But I’m doing gosh darn well for someone in my condition! I know every single piece Roos Treasures owns and I have everything numbered and bags for each person so when they buy I know exactly where it all goes. But that person didn’t see what I was doing behind the scenes because I can’t fully have the camera on me because I focus the camera on the jewelry which is what we’re there for. I will be honest I feel very bad for that person on Facebook because whoever they go with has made them think certain things that sadly aren’t true. Their sales ladies they make you think their going to be there for you and help you make a million dollars. I don’t play that game I’m honest and realistic. I mentor and Guide Roos Treasures team no matter how much they have in sales, where sadly these other ladies only pay attention and encourage you if they see your sales building high.

This experience has taught me 4 things. Number 1 when you feel those alarms going off in your brain and when you feel someone’s bad news, listen to that warning. That warning is usually the LORD and is right on. I told you all from the start I knew that person on Facebook was bad news even though they didn’t give me any reason to feel that way, I still did. Don’t fall for the trap thinking you always need a reason to feel certain ways about people. The Lord knows each of our hearts more than we do, so he knows whose real and whose not. So if we start to hear those sirens going off in our brain we have to realize that’s him trying to warn us. Number 2 do not let people manipulate you with money. If anyone else would have made that comment about having T-Rex arms. I would have blasted them and the nice sweet CHRISTIAN Jackie would have went out the window, I won’t lie to you. I allowed myself to convince myself it was ok for this person to talk to me like that because I didn’t want to blow the sale. Seriously, is a $110-$115 sale worth all that? Yes that’s how much in sales I would have made because to join it’s $100 and than they wanted to buy 3 extra pieces so that would have made me another $15. But is it worth it? Is it really ok for people to talk to us like dogs just to get a $100 sale? I’m sorry but it’s not worth it to me, I value myself more than that.

Number 3 don’t let money blind you! And don’t let people control you. I believe that person on Facebook knew exactly what they were doing. I believe that person was trying to get my attention for months and I believe they finally found a way to get it. So they could not only be nosey and find out everything they could about me. But I also think they wanted that moment to have what I call their 5 minutes of glory! And what I mean by that is. Christians some times think of praying over people or “prophesying” like their moment, their 5 minutes of fame. Their moment to make themselves feel “spiritual”. Which is another reason I’m mad at myself because I have never allowed a Christian to get away with that with me. But I allowed this person to sort of do what they wanted and all because I wanted the sale! Really… Shame on me! I’m more mad at myself for allowing that all to go down, than I am at that Facebook person.

After this all went down I prayed about it all night and I said ok GOD what do I do to make the world aware of these issue? What can I do to make a difference? First I thought make a post on Facebook! Than I thought no I need something more. I don’t just want to share my thoughts, I want to teach these kind of people a lesson, I want to make a difference:. Than it hit me. Let’s try making a bad situation good. Let’s try to make the most in sales than I’ve ever made and let’s do it in less than one month! So starting today till March 25th I am going to work my butt off to try to get over 100 pv (Personal volume) 8 pieces of jewelry is 50 pv and our jewelry is only $5 a piece so this shouldn’t be to hard. My ultimate goal though is to go beyond the 100 pv. Because if that happens you all would truly make my dream come true. Because if that happens than what I’m going to do is this. Any money that comes in after hitting the 100 pv I’m going to give away to one lucky adult with special needs. I’m going to write up a application and have them all fill it out and whose ever story connects with my heart the most I’m going to share the money with them.

There’s three reasons I decided to try this. Number one: I want to prove to every judgmental person out there that I can do ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME and no man or woman will define me by my disability! Secondly I do not want to make the mistake that the person on Facebook made. What I mean by that is this. That person on Facebook had an opportunity to make a real difference, one that would have made a much bigger impact than praying over me or prophesying. They had an opportunity to build me up, to support me, to encourage me, to stand by me. To truly show what the love of Christ is supposed to look like and be! In my opinion they chose the selfish way. Which is why I’m choosing to try to earn enough money to bless someone.

It’s sad because when your a child with special needs you get all the attention in the world and no one would dream of saying the things that person on Facebook said to me. They would have done everything In their power to build me up if I was a special needs child. But it’s sad because it’s like when we become adults we don’t get the support we once had. It’s like people toss us aside. You barely see people doing nice things for an adult with special needs and that breaks my heart. Because. I’m blessed beyond words with people and a family who loves me and who hold me up. But sadly that’s rare, because most special needs adults have no one. Because either their family passed away or their family got tired of caring for them and tossed them in a nursing home, (I’m not saying that to sound harsh I’m just giving the facts). Either scenario is heart breaking to me and I thank GOD every day that I’m not in their shoes. But just because I am not in their shoes does not mean I don’t understand and it certainly doesn’t mean it’s ok or acceptable. It’s like out of sight out of mind! I won’t allow that. I have the ability to make a difference with your help. So I’m giving you all 3 options. Option number 1. Share this article everywhere, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram. Anywhere you can think of share it, even share it at your local Church. Secondly go to the link below and buy off my website. Even if it’s just one piece, one piece is only $5. Or you could contact me via FB and purchase a piece from my home stock, and the advantage of that is you won’t pay as much for shipping and also you won’t pay tax! Shipping on the website is like $6. Shipping through Roos Treasures (Home stock) is only $3.50. So if you’d like to buy on the site the links below. Also Roos Treasures Facebook page link is below too. So if you want to buy from my home stock just click on there to contact me and if you don’t have Facebook just contact me on here. Come on my Roosters please help me achieve this goal! Again it’s not for me it’s for us all. Let’s prove people with special needs can achieve more than just breathe an give “inspirational speeches”. Let’s also prove that when we rally together as a community we can achieve anything!

I know this was a touchy subject to write on and I truly hope you all understand where I’m coming from. I’m not attacking Christians nor am I saying I don’t believe in the spiritual side of things. I totally do and like I said from the start I do believe in miracles! But at the same time miracles in this way are rare. So if your going to give someone that kind of prophecy you better know that you know that you know your hearing from the Lord and not going on feelings. Don’t react just because you see someone who you think needs that word. Gods got it covered and if their meant for that miracle or a miracle like mine. Than the LORDS going to tell them Long before you!

That’s it for today all, sorry for writing such a long article today LOL. Keep being that light in the dark and please remember showing the love of Christ is more than raising your hands in church and praying over people and tossing bibles at them. It’s encouraging them, it’s helping the hurting and I mean truly helping. Paying someone’s phone bill, buying someone whose is cold a winter coat, holding someone’s hand when their scared, sitting with someone who feels lonely. Those are true examples of showing the love of Christ! GOD BLESS AND THANKS FOR SUPPORTING ME TIME AND TIME AGAIN KEEP SHINING FOR CHRIST😘

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DEATH HAS NO GRIP ON ME…(THANKFUL FOR HIS SAVING GRACE)

November 26, 2016

The book of roo

PSALM 116:3-4

THE CORDS OF DEATH ENTANGLED ME, THE ANGUISH OF THE GRAVE CAME OVER ME; I WAS OVERCOME BY DISTRESS AND SORROW. THEN I CALLED ON THE NAME OF THE LORD: “LORD, SAVE ME!”

Hi all. So this article should not be to long. I just really wanted a chance to update you on everything that’s happened since August and the victory I achieved once again!

Not to long after I wrote my last article (to read previous article Click here) all the medical issues I mentioned in that article got Ten times worse. So bad I finally told my Doctors I could not take it anymore and something had to be done! I was doing everything that was humanly possible to just fight through the symptoms. Because the options the Doctors had for me, were all extremely risky, and they all involved major Surgery. So we all, including myself, felt the risk was to high and not worth it. Everyone (including myself) felt, if I were to go through with most of the Surgeries they had on the table for me. They would probably have killed me, and if they did not kill me they definitely would have destroyed the life I have now. But than in July my symptoms just started getting so extreme I could not take it.

I was practically crying myself to sleep every Night for at least Two Months. Because I was doing all I could to fight through everything, and knew if I chose Surgery my life would probably end. Honestly if this was any other time in my life,.I would have been ok with that, not because I was ok with “dying” but because I knew where I’d be going and knew my ultimate goal in life is to be with him (Jesus) anyways . So if this was any other time I would have taken the risk in a heart beat, but in this moment I just felt if my life ended, it would have ended before it was supposed to. I had so many things in my life I was not willing to give up yet, and so many things I had worked so hard to achieve, like this Book. I felt like if I were to have died now, it would have been like loosing a race at the finish line. Everything inside me was just not willing to accept that my life could end. But yet I was very conflicted and I will admit I think I let fear grip me a little.

I tortured myself and my body for almost Six Months. Trying to fight these symptoms I was having. Because I did not want to go through another risky Surgery. But than in July things just got, like I said, Ten times worse. My Stomach felt like a Rock was inside it again, and the fluid that was building up in my Brain was getting so extreme. All I wanted to do was sleep, but yet I couldn’t sleep because I was so uncomfortable. I couldn’t watch tv, I couldn’t read and my eyes felt like they weighted a Billion pounds.  After awhile I had even realized my face was starting to swell a little too.

So after I wrote that article in August and after my 30th Birthday. I prayed, and after my time in prayer. I felt even though I didn’t want to, I had to go through with Surgery. So I sat down with my Parents and all my Doctors, and I told them I’m sorry but you have to do something, anything. I was willing to take the risk because I felt the Lord was telling me I was dying with or without the Surgery and at that point I felt. As risky as the surgery was, doing nothing was more risky. I had no doubt in my mind if they did not do something soon than that would be it, my life would have been over.

After having a long talk with my Doctors. I did finally get them to agree that something had to be done, and I was so relieved they were willing to try. At least I was relieved for about Twenty Seconds LOL. Than in the middle of the Doctors appointment as the Surgeons were telling me their plan. I hear the Lord saying: no, that plans going to kill you, tell them to do this….

The Lord than laid out this whole plan that he wanted me to suggest to the Doctors. I won’t explain all the details because most probably won’t understand it anyways LOL but bottom line really is. The Doctors wanted to move my Shunt and instead of having it drain in my Belly. They wanted to go in the Vein that’s in the Neck, the one that’s connected to our Heart.  They wanted to connect the Shunt tubing to that Vein so than the extra fluid in my Brain would just get absorbed into my Blood stream.

The Lord on the other hand kept telling me not to have them do that and instead have them go in my Belly and basically do the same Surgery they did in 2012. Which is go in cut as much Scar Tissue out as possible and than move the Tubing to the Shunt over a little. The Surgeons did not agree with that plan at all at first. Because the more you cut out Scar Tissue the worse it gets. The Doctor explained it as being like a Snake. You can cut a Snakes tail off over and over, but it will continually grow back.

That is how Scar Tissue works, the more you cut it, the more it will grow back. The Doctors were also worried about how little room I have left inside my Belly. I have so little room left inside my Belly. That they were worried they may not be able to even fit their instruments in there to be able to cut Scar Tissue out. Without the risk of damaging my Organs.  The Doctors also did not want to go through with that plan because it was not a “fix” it was basically just a way to buy time. But the Lord kept telling me it was ok. Because number One, no matter what treatment plan I chose nothings technically a “fix” every plan on the table was just a way to buy time. But the important thing at this point is what plan would benefit me the most.  The Lord kept telling me I did not have to worry about the future, I just had to worry about this moment.

After the Doctors gave their plan I than nicely asked them and my Parents why we couldn’t do the plan I knew the Lord was showing me. Of course I didn’t tell them it was what the Lord was telling me. I just asked why we couldn’t cut the Scar Tissue out? That’s when the Doctor told me about it growing back faster and stronger the more you mess with it. So I just shut up at that point cause I didn’t know what to do and I felt they were going to do what they wanted no matter what I said. Because their the Doctors and they know better than me.

After the Doctors got done giving their plan they asked if they could leave the room for a Minute. They wanted to go look at my Scans One more time. So while they were looking at the Scans I just started praying and I told the Lord. Lord of course I trust you more than anyone but I don’t know how to get them to trust you, or me for that matter. So if this plan that you keep telling me about really can help me live. Than speak to those Doctors Hearts yourself and change their Mind.

The Doctor comes back in and is continuing to say that they want to go through my Neck and to the Vein connected to my Heart. And as their talking I’m just saying to myself oh come on Lord speak to these Doctors Hearts. Than all of a sudden the One Surgeon sits down and starts staring at my Belly and says: well if you really want to go in the Belly, I guess I’d be willing to try, but I can’t make any promises. Now let me remind you when he said all this I hadn’t said One word, I never asked them about going through my Belly again, all I did was pray LOL. I knew the Minute the Doctor said he was willing to try. Than that meant the Lord was working it out already but just to be sure I responded by saying. Well your the Doctors you know best and he looked at me and said no this is team work. You and your parents know you’re body better than any one of us. So please don’t be afraid to say stuff we will listen. In that moment it’s like I felt an instant break through and I knew the Lords hands were on this. (Psalm 118:8) It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in humans.

(As I told you all awhile back. When I hear certain songs, sometimes I get just as encouraged, ministered to or even learn from them as I do from hearing a good teaching or from reading the Bible and while I was in the midst of writing this article I found this album by a group called Unspoken. Two of the songs on the album are perfect for this article. When I heard a song called Miracle on the album I knew I had to share it in this article, it’s soo beautiful and powerful. Unfortunately I cannot post the song in the article like I’d usually do because I don’t have any rights or permission to do so, and I didn’t have the time to work my magic and try to get a hold of them for permission. But I at least wanted to share the lyrics with you all. This is lyrics to a song called Miracle by Unspoken, I encourage you all to go listen to this song)

LYRICS TO MIRACLE:

“Miracle”

Have you stopped reaching?
No longer seeking greater things
Have you forgotten you have a father listening?
He tells the sun when to rise
Gives the wind it’s breath
Swings a door wide open and moves in a moment you least expect

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

How many chances?
How many answers pass us by?
You know it takes faith to step on the waves when you’re terrified
So when you’re packed in a corner
And can’t wait any longer

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

Feels like the presents the words you’ve spoken
They go unnoticed like drops in the ocean
Just beyond the veil of your vision
Your mountains are moving, moving on
Remember the works his hand has done
Where you once were and how far you’ve come

Don’t you give up on a miracle
You’ve got to speak the impossible
You’ve got to pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

You’ve got to speak the impossible
Pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing
Don’t you give up
Don’t you give up on a miracle

Pray till you break through breaks through the ceiling keep on believing

The past Two or Three Years have been a rough one, not just physically but mentally. I have lost a lot of people who I never thought in a Billion Years would have passed before me. A lot of these people were people that had been praying for me and my life for Years. So I had a lot of anxiety about that too. Because I kept thinking, if these people who were healthy and strong died, than how could I think I’d live? I mean even the person who I considered to be my Pastor and who I had been following for Years passed away just Two-Three Weeks ago (Kim Clement).  He had been sick for over a Year. He had a lot of major health issues going on but it all started with a Brain Bleed. I remember just Days before he had his first Bleed. Actually I remember exactly when it was, Three Days. Just Three Days before He had his first Brain Bleed. I had contacted his team to ask if they all, including Kim, could please be praying for me. I explained to them how I was having issues with my Brain and how I was at risk of going through major Brain Surgery and also how I was at risk of my Brain being damaged. Never in a Million Years did I expect to open my Computer and find out that everything I was in fear of happening to me would happen to him. And now sadly this Month I found out he did lose his battle, and yes I know the good news is that he’s with our Lord Jesus Christ. But the bad news is it all happened way to soon. He had so much ahead of him. This man and his team had prayed me back to life more times than I could keep track of.

Sadly I have so many stories of people that passed away to soon and people who took part in helping me fight, people who helped me live. I’m not going to sit here and try to give some Christian cliche to try to explain it all.  Because the truth is I don’t know why this happened, I don’t know why it happened to Kim or the 6-7 other people I knew who lost their lives these past few Years. But One thing it did teach me once again, is how precious life is! I know you are all sick of hearing me say that by now, but it truly is. It also reminded me how even in the midst of a storm my God is still faithful!

When your someone like me, whose been battling life for Thirty Years. After awhile it becomes your normalcy. And after awhile no matter how serious things get you just assume or expect to make it through. Because you have made it so many times before. After awhile it’s almost like you become numb to the reality of how serious you’re health is. And it wasn’t until all these people had passed that I truly realized how fast life can be taken from us. Truly in a heart beat you could just be gone!! And I’ve realized that more lately than I ever had.

(Mark 13:32-37) “But no one knows about that day or hour. Not even the angels in heaven know. The Son does not know. Only the Father knows. Keep watch! Stay awake! You do not know when that time will come. It’s like a man going away. He leaves his house and puts his servants in charge. Each one is given a task to do. He tells the one at the door to keep watch.

“So keep watch! You do not know when the owner of the house will come back. It may be in the evening or at midnight. It may be when the rooster crows or at dawn. He may come suddenly. So do not let him find you sleeping.  What I say to you, I say to everyone. ‘Watch!’ ”

I had so many mixed emotions when they were wheeling me off to Surgery. In one breathe I was relaxed and calm. Because any time I kept thinking negatively. The Lord would give me visions, of me waking up after Surgery and being perfectly fine. In the visions I seen I was ok but yet I kept thinking of all these people I knew this year who believed just as strongly as I did and who were gone. Even in that very moment of me getting ready for Surgery. I had Doctors on every end of my Bed. Basically explaining all the different ways I could die! It took them exactly Fifteen Minutes to explain Six different ways that I could die, or be stuck on machines for Months, to  where I’d still eventually die! I mean we were so sure this time that some thing could actually happen. That I even made a list of all my Personal information, like passwords to all my accounts and where I had placed certain things. That’s how much I let fear grip me. And I have to admit after Surgery I was pretty disappointed in myself. Disappointed that I allowed myself to think such negative things and most importantly that I allowed the devil to almost win.

It was also very confusing because like I said. I had all these Doctors and my family preparing me for the worst. But yet every time I closed my eyes and pictured what life would be like after Surgery. I was perfectly fine, I was better than fine, I was better than I had ever been after a Surgery. Every time I’d start crying or I’d get scared, the Lord would give me that same vision. I just could not get that vision of me waking up laughing and talking and being perfectly fine, out of my head. I kept telling the Lord, Lord I don’t get it. All these people are telling me I’m basically dying but yet all you keep showing me is life! Even when they placed me on the operating table, I went to start crying again and I couldn’t because this wave of peace just came over me and all of a sudden I kept hearing a song (it is well with me) play in my head and every time I’d close my eyes I’d see myself waking up after Surgery and being totally fine. In the vision I could even hear myself saying: I don’t get it, this was supposed to be one of the worse Surgeries I’ve had, but yet I am totally fine I’m not even drowsy from the anesthesia!

(Psalm 121:7-8) The Lord will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

(Lyrics to the Second song by Unspoken that I mentioned earlier. That I felt was perfect for this article. So I just had to share them too, and again I encourage you all to go get this album. It ministered to me so much this week)

LRYICS TO THE CURE:

“The Cure”

We’re all related, brothers and strangers,
The king and the beggar bleed the same.
We’ve all got a sickness, a terminal condition,
We medicate it but the pain won’t go away.

See the eyes of a million faces,
Looking forward in a million places,
Only one can save us, Jesus.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

You are the doctor, healer and father,
To the orphan without a home.
We feel in the darkness, lost till you found us,
You are the remedy we’ve been looking for.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

Cure for the broken, the hope for a hopeless world.
The meaning, the purpose, the peace that will make us whole.

Don’t have to search no more.
Don’t have to search no more.

You are the cure!
Everybody’s searching for it,
Everybody’s reaching out,
Trying to grab a hold of something real.
You are the cure!
Only you can satisfy us,
Fill up the void inside us,
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

You are the cure…

You are the cure, cure
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.
You are the cure, cure
Never been a heart you couldn’t heal.

When I came out of Surgery I experienced the exact same things the Lord showed me in that vision, even down to saying what I heard myself say about how amazed I was that I wasn’t drowsy. When I woke up I was totally fine, I wasn’t in pain, I wasn’t drowsy, I wasn’t anything but myself. When I went in to Surgery they told me to expect to wake up in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) but because I did so well after Surgery they ended up bringing me straight to a regular room! Not only did they bring me to a regular room, but they also told me, I was doing so good they felt I could have probably gone home if I wanted to. Thank God they didn’t actually send me home, because I did end up having a small reaction about Fifteen, Sixteen Hours after the Surgery. But even the reaction I had, had nothing to do with the Surgery. It more had to do with the fact that I had gone so long without eating or drinking or taking my medications that I take on a regular basis. That My body just kind of spiraled out of control for a Minute.

I had gotten so sick before Surgery that I went without eating anything for a good Four Days! So between not eating or drinking or taking any of my meds. Things just kind of caught up to me. But as far as the Surgery went, I was One Hundred percent fine. Me and my Family and even my Doctors were on top of the world. They were just as relieved as I  was and once again they all just shook their heads wondering how I did this once again. How did I fight sickness and death again? They all keep telling me how strong and how much of a miracle I am and I agree my life is a miracle. But as far as me “Jackie Yafanaro” being a miracle. Heck no, I’m no miracle, but I do know the miracle maker and that’s my Lord Jesus Christ. He is my life support and he continually saves me and keeps me breathing and because of that I will never doubt!

I may not understand why I keep living when all these other people around me passed away. But like I said in my last article. I do not need to have all the answers. When my time finally does come and I do see my kings face. I’m sure all those questions will be answered, but for now, I not only believe, but I know he is faithful and even during times of uncertainty he’s still faithful. Sure I may have a lot of questions about certain things but I don’t and never will have doubt. How could I after all he’s done for me and all I’ve experienced in life.

There are so many people in this world who I see who are focusing their time on nonsense, who are letting fear take hold of them and hiding behind pointless garbage. And it is so sad to see because I just want to say, if you’d only trust. That’s all it comes down to, trust. I know I said that in my last article too, but again I’ll say. As simple as that sounds that truly is what it’s about  TRUST, trust even during your storm. He loves us so much and I feel it more now than I ever have.. times so short don’t waste a second of it. Get beyond your fears and doubts and do what your called to.

Thats really all I have for today, like I said I just really wanted to update you all and tell you the miracle that is LIFE!

( Psalm 63:3) Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.

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