PROVERBS 3:5-6
TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND LEAN NOT ON AND YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING; IN ALL YOUR WAYS SUBMIT TO HIM, AND HE WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT.
Hi all, sorry I been M.I.A for so long but I have a very good reason. You can watch/hear all about what’s been going on by watching the video attached to this article.
A lot happened recently and none of it was good LOL 😂 but with the strength from the big man upstairs I got through it and life went on. I have to say though, the Lords timing is perfect, when he chooses to show you something it is incredible.
The night I went to the Emergency Room I was sitting there crying, in tremendous pain literally shaking like I said in the video, and everything we were doing physically and medically to ease the pain was not working at all.
After hours of sitting in the emergency room crying, we (me and my mom) finally get to my room and they get me hooked up to pain med machines and still the pain is not easing up and still I’m shaking in pain. I mean they gave me enough pain meds to wipe that entire floor out. At this point they were shaking themselves (the Doctors) because they knew they needed to give me even more pain meds to get my pain at least partly under control, because my body was in so much pain and was under such distress that my heart rate was going sky high and so they knew they had to get me comfortable, so I didn’t have a heart attack or something. At this point we’re all basically in panic mode, their in panic mode because they had never given a patient my size as much meds as they were giving me and I was in panic mode just because I couldn’t take the pain any longer and my mom was in panic mode from all the above, but most importantly she was in panic mode from sitting there watching and listening to her daughter (me) scream in pain for hours, and when I say hours, I mean hours! This lasted close to 24 hours. I started screaming Friday around 4pm and I didn’t stop till about 1pm the following day.
So we’re all sitting there trying to come up with a solution and they just keep giving me more and more pain meds ,than all of a sudden my mom, who is amazing and always knows what I need even before I do. She looks at me and says; Jackie why don’t you turn your iPad on and listen to some music and try meditating like you used to do when you would get bad attacks of pain like this.
At this point I was so out of it that I wasn’t even listening, I mean I heard her but I was like yeah whatever, because at this point I was so drugged up I could barely see straight LOL, still in tremendous pain but yet still felt drugged up LOL. she realized I wasn’t listening so she just grabbed the iPad herself and turned it on and pulled up YouTube and than laid it by me and said here, pick something, let’s listen to it together, do it for me too, I want to hear it too.
Even though I was drugged up I knew she was just saying she wanted to hear it to because she knew that would get me to put it on, and she was right, it did get me to put it on LOL. I opened my eyes for a brief second and looked at my screen and when I looked up I noticed one of my favorite worship teams which is elevation worship, they released a new song, and what I noticed more than that is, one of the members that I especially like from that group, was the one releasing it and was the main singer on the project, so I said ok lets listen to this. The name of the song intrigued me too it was called: the wonderful blood.
I put on that song and oh my Gosh 😮 it is like the Lord allowed that to be released right in that moment just for me, that song brought me such peace, I was still in pain don’t get me wrong, it didn’t wipe my pain away LOL, but, but, but, it gave me the peace that I needed to allow myself to finally fall asleep and instead of screaming and freaking out, it allowed me a moment to remember to just breathe through it all, and that song also reminded me to remember the blood, the blood of Jesus.
You see, the blood of Jesus doesn’t just wipe our sins away and set us free from sin. The blood of Jesus also reminds us where our strength comes from, it reminds us what real pain is, it reminds us we are set free from everything that holds us down, it reminds us to have courage in times of trouble, it reminds us of the beautiful, strong and courageous way Jesus handled everything during his execution and after, it reminds us that there is life in the blood.
That following week when I was on the mend but still going through a lot, not so much physically but now going through a lot mentally and emotionally. Because sitting in the living room for weeks at a time is not an easy thing to do. Watching my poor mother sleep on a couch for weeks at a time at almost 70 years old is not a easy thing to do, not being able to bathe for weeks at a time is not a easy thing to do, sleeping on a living room floor and being stuck in the living room where I never had privacy at 38 years old and where I was never alone for weeks at a time. is not a easy thing to do, especially for someone like me, I am not the social butterfly people think I am, I like my alone time, I like having time to just be with the lord, where it’s just the 2 of us and I could focus on him with no distractions. Late at night is the best time of day to me, at times I count down till it comes time for me to go in my bedroom, because sometimes I just don’t want to talk and sometimes I just want to sit in my room and meditate on the Lord, but all that was wiped away when I broke my leg.
So again I am sitting there and even though I’m not in as bad of a mental state I was in at the hospital, and by the way I wasn’t in a bad mental state even in the hospital but I did have my woe is me moment and when I came home I started to feel that woe is me feeling slightly come back, and than all of a sudden I heard another song, that was also just released that week, and it was another one that, once again I felt was written and released just for me. It is by a singer named Brandon Lake and the song is called: hard fought hallelujah, oh my gosh do I love both these songs, I play both of them multiple times a day. Those songs gave me such strength in times of weakness and even doubt, not doubt in Christ but doubt in myself.
After almost 7 weeks I finally start to see light at the end of this very long and dark tunnel, I finally was able to bathe again, I could sleep in my room again, in my OWN BED! LOL. As I said I was finally getting my life back and was just starting to even record videos again,
Than all of a sudden the night before thanksgiving happened. My mom goes to pick me up to put me in my chair and I feel this slight snap. I now broke my other leg in the exact same place! At this point me and my family did what we always do, we laughed and made jokes about it LOL, my sister said to me, well let’s see, last thanksgiving your face blew up like a balloon and you almost died of Covid, and this thanksgiving you had two broken legs, so the holidays have just been awesome to me LOL.
The second broken leg was not even close to being as bad as the first broken leg, the second one healed up in no time and it healed beautifully, I think it was just a hairline fracture because the way it healed, that’s the way I was expecting the first leg to heal. I’d say it took about a week for it to show improvement and 2 weeks for it to completely heal, so like I said it wasn’t bad, but those 2 weeks did come with its own challenges. Even though I didn’t have to sleep in the living room I still couldn’t bathe again! So that sucked, but other than that, that was the only real challenge during that break.
Bottom line though, is that you really can get through anything with Christ leading the way, my life has proven that time and time again. When you are going through a painful battle, no matter if it’s a physical trauma like this or an emotional/mental one, don’t stay stuck in the pain! Don’t stay fixated on it, allow yourself a few moments to feel it and find an outlet to let it all out. No matter if it’s just sitting there screaming and crying like I did or it’s smashing a glass or going to a kick boxing class, or writing your feelings out in a journal or letter to someone than do it, if that’s your outlet to get it out, than do it, do whatever it takes, but than once you have your moment of doing that, than pick yourself up, wipe the dust off your feet and move forward, don’t allow yourself to stay stuck in that pain.
Well guys that’s it for today, if you don’t hear from me again before the holidays than I hope you have a very blessed and merry Christmas and new years 😘
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